a gentle touch. a tight grip.

2008-01-29T20:42:00.000-08:00

its time to open up. or else my blog will be dead forever. .
how is everything , pple??? right now, im planning to go aj. the snrs and tch there are nice and friendly. they say i look lik e one of their snr:p anw, i miss u guys!! hcjc trg must be fun and intense!! sorry jaya, i said b4 that i will appeal to hc, but i guess its time i be more realistic.. :( anw, the yj trg here is damn slack! i nv come across such team b4.. apparently yj has no goals. we train once per week and no pt! whenever i see how horribly my snrs spike, i think of jaya, zoe and ym! and we have no setter, cos she absent. so i tot how impt jyin is!and of cos, jing too! den our gals formation is too weak, so we dun really block.. remind me of sara.. i think of everyone!! the guys here are like new players who played since jc1, their first ball is sweep here and there.. yt is such a good libero!! ^^ dunno la. i hope i dun end up in yj.. though they offer me with the combi i wan, like h2 csc,when other schools oni have h1 csc.. but i really wan to win a trophy for vb in my jc life. hcjc is like a dream.. shattered. but nvm, i have aj! hope i get in there! den the ip will be in hc,and o lvl in aj! hahaha.

how is life? mine is fair.. so i just go school every schoolday and try not to think much. be it really numbing or suppressing, i wan to make an effort to make my life better. the past is like a scar thats ugly but doesnt hurt. u get on with life. occasionally you realise its existence and be emo for a while. i wan to believe that as time past, the scar will be forgotten cos u have already learn to live with it and appreciate it for changing ya life.

im gonna spend cny in yj.. how will it be? it will be nice to be back at nygh. pple from hcjc will be able to visit their alma mater early! and the culture same somemore, the cny mood muz be very high, great? i dunno how to describe.. hahz, shld i be the mc for cny celeb? haha.

i miss hcjc gym, even nygh's!! yj gym rennovating, but i still got train!! ^^ the 5kg hand raise! and weight train for wrist. it does help. at least i see my spiking improving in terms of power!! im most enthu in pe!! haha.

anw, this part of me wan us to be like the past, when we can get together and do silly stuff. but another part of me tell me that nth's forever. so i shld expect us drifting further apart. i really hope its not to the extent of a stranger.. i will really be hurt..

we nv know frens are there til we leave them. i rmb seeing sipei and crying immediately, making her feel at a loss. but she understands how i feel. im really thankful i have fren like her who really know me inside out. know me more than i know myself. i canbe really blur abt my emotions and doings.. now i cant approach her as conviently as i wan. but sipei! i do know u will be there for me!! thanks!!

hope u guys like this song! its called xiang ting de hua. ive been searching it for a long time, finally i got it!! alright, i gtg for csc talk at dunman high.. byee

2007-12-25T12:50:00.000-08:00

its christmas, and im all alone! i shld apprciate that. cos i can finally cry out and let go of wadeva ive been suppressing for a yr. isnt it funny? i had such a lovely xmas last yr that i look forward to this day so much. but look. it turn out to be like this!
many times, i told myself not to compare past and present. cos our mind work such that they keep replaying the good memeries of the past when we are at our most depressing moments. it may serve as a comfort. or it can juz make u feel worse. dorli said that as we grow old, we get suspicious of others words, and we too start doubting ourselves, if we are hypocrites ourselves. well, i think instead of saying this is wad the world wan us to be, i would rather say this world is ever-changing. at such a fast rate. pple change. so do i. friends. friend that u hope u can pour out ya heart to w/o being judged. like wad dorli said, its not possible. the more u know abt someone, the more u dun understand him. ironic, but true. i may be wrong. since im a failure in being a fren..
past, some pple wish they can go back to the time when they were young. some wish they nv know the person. i appreciate i had friends there for me before. though now they are gone. out of my world. and actually im sorry. cos my world is too dark.. its gloomy. and sorry fren, you have tried hard shedding light into my world, but i didnt make it. sorry i made u all tire out. giving me up, i nv ever blame anyone but myself, i caused it. i've been hard on myself. i nv believe in myself. i nv feel great abt myself. i nv appecraite myself enuf..
i shldnt be afraid of losing, now that i have already lose you frens. fact is we cannot always be each other good frens. cos everything on this world is changing. i ever tot stars are there forever. but no, sipei reminded me that stars have lifespan too. its just that we cant live long enuf to see them die. and i saw shooting star b4, by chance. i ishld know nths forever. no promise lasts.
pple say horoscope is fei4. theres one time when i choose not to believe it. but i realise everything it says is true about me. cos they write on those extreme pisces, and why, shld i say, sadly, im one of those extremist?!
not happy. not now. not merry. wadever is hope?! to the stars i say: i hope all these are the best arrangement for us

2007-12-11T12:11:00.000-08:00

knowing that u are not there, and will not be be there, and wishing u are there still, crying u are there even if it is now... im juz so silly..

2007-11-20T08:16:00.000-08:00

now, i need to stop thinking too much. it oni makes me tired. yea,make me emo:p
1) stop thinking how xmas will be spend
2)stop thinking that i will definitely go hcjc
3) stop thinking im sad and no one cares
4) stop living in the past
5) stop comparing past and present
6)stop composing sad songs! write happy ones!
7) STOP BEING SO WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8) stop keeping everything to myself
9) stop fearin how pple see you
10) stop all these fears of losing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

juz let it be k, yangyi. make ya own life simple. yea, go for it!!! ^^ wo yao zuo ge kuai le de ren!!

2007-11-07T00:07:00.000-08:00

好累呀，真的好累。。
可能因为考试没睡好，可能也是因为心里负担太重了。。
或许看到这的你会觉得“你不说我怎么懂？”
是啊，在我说没人关心我之前，是不是应该扪心自问，自己是否曾给人机会了解我呢？
是不是很无聊，在这里自问自答，不去好好读书！
有时候的我，只希望大家平安，健康，幸福，我就很满足了。
有时候的我，却有些自私，希望被多些人疼爱。。朋友说，当我说世上没什么值得我开心时，我是很“坏”的，因为我不懂得珍惜眼前所有。。
有时，觉得我看破红尘了，但却不能够阻止我越陷越深，这样的我，很没救吧？
说来说去，我还是在谈表面东西，在读的你是不是很烦呢〉
看得去我多在意人们如何看我吗？朋友说，只要我不去在意，我会快乐些。我尽量吧。
可是我好累。好久，没那种幸福的感觉了。我知道我还是幸福的。。
最近，应付考试让我暂且忘记不愉快，考完试后呢？拼命的打工，打球吗？
觉得我在躲避大家，有多远就躲多远。反正见了面，不是尴尬，就是没感觉。难道会兴奋吗？
并没有责怪的意味，要说，要怪，也是因为我对自己实在没有自信。真的没有。。
所以你会觉得我无中生有，或过于的依赖吧？
今天的所有一切，是不是我一手造成的？
而如今发问这种问题，有用吗？可以改变现在，可以回到过去吗？
为什么要回到过去？因为过去种觉得比现在好。。为什么要当时间的囚犯？
要怎么做，怎么做才可以改善现在的情况？
一句抱歉吗？
了解我的无奈，我的在乎吗？我不想像现在这样！真的不想。。

2007-07-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

oh my.. i oni realised ytd when i was travelling back home from third lang that jj lim's bei feng chui guo de xia tian has such sad lyrics. to think i knew of this song for a year plus. i've always like it probably cos of the melody ba, but i always ask wads the content. i rmb i even ask my c lit tcher, but we nv really discuss. ytd, i analysized the song. the content goes:

i rmbed that summer that pass so fast like the wind, it felt like ytd. and now away was that summer that had gone with the wind, im left with oni silence and lonliness.
now, the days pass as fast and autumn come.the autumn's rain fall but my love and passion have not fade. if i continue to close my eyes, i can see u once again.
blue( sad) memories of that summer, when i think back abt them, i can still feel the warmth that still lingers in the air, and when winter comes, i would not miss u so much.
memories of that summer( green) will always stay. short as a season had our love last, but i keep going back and think about it...

this lyrics is so close to heart. its like ive been singin it, humming it, but it nv hit upon me that ive been singin sth so close to heart. its like a forecast, a warning, but i haven realise it. haha.. im so blind. too late..

my blog song is another sad song. easily comprehensive. can u feel how weak my heart is now? nvm, my blog's dead, who wld ever know?!

music is strong and lyrics are powerful! im grateful i can express my feelings thru them:)

2007-07-06T23:06:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-22T23:46:00.000-07:00

hey, im havin camp now!! fun ba. but most impt of all, our team really bonded. check this out! A SCAVENGER HUNT @ ORCHARD! haha, all the way from far east to cityhall mrt station. cool?! it was absolute fun for me!! ^^ my grp rawks can?! and rensyn can really be a tour guide next time. like after she explain our task, she will like disappear?? :p we almost lose her at the mrt station:p hahaa, me and cheryl from start most enthu! we practically run! serious! and then others have to sprint to catch up with us:p man, chu ning was injured, but hey she was fast too! i kept remindin her to run slow:p anw, we made our facil(rensyn) ran like mad also, haha, kinda mean:p hey, but she has a evil heart man! lol! as in 'evil' lah. she damn funny one. so my team consist of me and crys and rensyn, chuning, lydia and cheryl . haha, juz a glance, we seem to be the strongest team!! LOL. so we start off, and though chuning she made her way slowly to where our first clue was hidden, she found the clue first! haha, behind the frame. anw, we got on the bus and we laugh goodbye to yt's team! hahaha! so funni lar, yt's face den:p our first clue was to go taka, and lydia finish this big persimmon! den we ran to lucky plaza where crys took pic in front of the house of condoms. den we chiong to far east plaza, lydia damn smart cos got 2 far east, but she went find the map:) ok, so i dress damn weirdly at This Fashion. lol, totally heck care bout any image, wadeva my teammates gave me, i wear:p so guess wad? my team won best for this round. as in the most funni costume. my clothes was totally unmatchin!! yup, den we ran to cineleisure where chuning pose as pirate, with hairband and two clips as her eye piece, and a banana as sword! heex, so soory.. we won this round too!! den we ran down to where the gatsybe poster was and cheryl was to sing gatsybe ad song loud and clear! hahahaaa. den we took mrt to cityhall. me and rensyn was to finish fried mars bars! and den we were to take photo at either victoria concert hall, old parliament house, esplanade etc. we went old parliament as most point could be obtain. den we ask tourist take pic with us and they said "great!" haha! we were damn fast, but we ran in rounds, from cityhall to almost dhoby gaut mrt cause we were lost. we were suppose to make it our facil 's day as the last task and we treat her to slurpy!! ^^ haha, lydia was damn funny, we were near new parliament hse when she mistaken camera for lamp post and in her effort to make rensyn's day, made a fool of herself sayin, see, " wad unique lamppost" sth like that. haha! den we finally found the busstop but we miss the bus, suay... so we waited. damn hot and tiring. we den took 77 to 6th ave to take pic of 5 dogs. the dog must be live one, cos got pple ask can take pic of hotdogs? LOL!! walao! anw, we made rensyn's day again cos we brought her to see angmo kids. haha! den we made barkin noises down the residential area to made the dog bark back so we know where they are. den we took our first dog pic and den the dogs bark damn loud la. its 2 dogs of the same breed. den we were searchin for dogs for 2nd pic le, when the 2 dogs suddenly dunno why release from the house and den ran out like mad, we were so scared la, cos we actually were at a dead end. gosh! i was tellin others to hide behind trees. lol! but later the dogs went back and den we saw this woman so we think she owner den the dogs maybe just go and greet her oni:p i took this pic with a huge dog. omg! seriously big and then its old ba, i guess. cos its like moanin.. instead of barkin.. its the length of 2 tables u find in school? and height up to my theighs. cool! we got tactics man, we strategise to go look for maids bringin dogs out for walk, they easier to approach'0^! den we came to this field where we had more than 4 dogs to take pic with?! :) so we wanted to take 156 to school. we realise we went wrong direction den ran over to the other side. we kept jay-walkin can. did that when crossin to taka too:p lucky we not in school tee. feels so much like we filming comedian show den can really be darin cos got reason and got pple. we tot we were first and we can get the pillows which were first prize! but we didnt. we were third to reach... ldd's first. and ym second. but haha! of the three components, other den ldd's team get extra 10 points for reachin school first, we won the other 2, the silly costume and pirate photo!! hahahah! we were the most creative!! yeah! and we got 2nd.. it was 4 marks diff lah!!! haha. but den heard the pillows cost $1.80, so nv win also nvm lah, heex, i chi bu dao pu tao shuo pu tao suan;p yeah! fun fun fun!!
i like sec threes alot!! rensyn, the god of gambling, damn evil, super gu ling jing guai, best gambling partner of kristy. kristy was funni, said xinyi cant finish her food cos rensyn sitting opp her:p another mena gal, haha. but she very nice also cos she generously lend me her pillow when i was tryin to catch some sleep this noon^^ haha, i treat her nice of cos she treat me well, ritez?! and she damn well known for her beatin of no truimph:p hsiu chin was super amusin, cause she very excited when i made this rubber band rope for zero point, den me and she and shufeng keep collecting rubberbands from others lunchboxes! haha. and den she damn 'meticulous' too! when we play bridge, she must think long long to think wad card to throw when an ace is in the pile le:p and den maybe cos she partner me, lol, she think veri long but we still fail, win 4/10 games:( haha, the sec 1s are very talkative! lol! can tok alot to snrs! and den their dares were really silly and chao gao xiao! sara got to pretend as cai shen(god of fortune) and walk to snrs classrm and throw cards which acts as money. den te others outside the door singin cai shen dao! LOL! anw, we snrs played "where's my 10 cent coin?" and one forfeit was rensyn got to stand outside classrm and stare at the tch inside til tehy got eye contact. thats so funni, my heart went to my mouth! others laugh dao cry. and me and ym and crys and yr( miraculously) stayed up all the way til 3:30am! haha. i was enjoyin the night view first, damn beautiful, den we went to a bench in dark corner to tok. tok tok tok til we like say the past, share troubles den we cry. and we cry:p haha! my eyes felt pain and swollen le..

hmm, today was the last hols trg and i wan to really enjoy it but thx to all my ai tong snr and jnrs, made me damn mad lah! its seems that alfred got this dare to do if they lose to my jnrs and den they purposely lose to them. den i chao bu shuang, cos i tot match shld be serious.. so today was silence on court. they waiting for hao3 xi4 kan4, den i give them chou lian kan first:p hah! at least that melvin play a bit more serious cos maybe he came later and dunno bout the dare... den he like "eh, she angry liao:p" so oni for the third game they play serious. and we won la. wad a mood for last trg. thx ah! haiz, maybe cos i not enuf sleep too. sleep 4 hrs oni, so very sianx... yeah, and coach taught us this intellectual game that we played and i was winner at first but slowly lose my winnin streak:( haha!! yt said she was mentally-challenged, haha! quite stressed. hey and reverse the word "stressed", its "desserts". hahaz! maybe thats why some pple turn to desserts to relieve stress:) juz watch "step up", and everyone feel like dancin now^^ oops, told by tch in charge to not eat in class, even if we really eat muz clear all evidence:p

yeah! that's abt all! i keep feelin theres this mosquito under the com desk bitin me:p i haven finish all my homework! :p nitez!

did i mention that i saw a shootin star? i saw one at most 2am at my hse on wed night!!~ so pretty, so touched! ^^

2007-06-11T23:21:00.000-07:00

haiz, cos i dun wan go home, so i blog.
hahz, i haven start revisin and i haven finish my hw, yangyi ah! are u gg to wait for the last min?! this is the 3rd week le. how have i been doin? well, practically watchin tv whole day.. didnt went out much. go out also no one to go with.. sianx.. my house downstairs recently got this celebration for goddess of mercy, den play loud music everyday till 11pm, den the burnin of incense paper cause my eyes to itch for 3days! cldnt sleep well these nights.. even at 1am, im not sleepy at all.. and til 4am, i still think im not deep in my sleep. maybe juz some shut-eye.. haiz.. the night sky i see these days are cloudy, cant even see stars de.. lol, so i start to compose song lyrics. i cldnt go far once i started on my chorus.. its gotta be catchy, it gotta have to convey the main idea of the song. haha, i start to watch channel 5actually! think the chinese channel no nice shows in noon.

heh, now my second sis go for obs, den my hse can be peaceful cos my youngest sis noone to fight with. hahz, i really think they are annoyin:p they always curse each other la. though im not involved, but my ears are sufferin la..
ooh, and i set fire in my oven ytd:p lol! cos i put paper in it, den too hot it caught fire. lucky my father haven leave home yet:p so he said buy 4D, my hse no:, den i say buy the no: i wan, so i juz anyhow say 1210, cos i like 12!! and ytd's 10, haha, guess wad? third prize was 2610... 2x6=12.. LOl! if i win, i wld haf $800 bucks in my pocket le:p
i wanna watch gui ah gui ah, shld be quite nice ans silly ba? i still owe jyin present! and i need money for k-box, movie, and maybe ear-piercing. wah,ytd i really tot of splurging la, juz go buy wadeva i wan. haha, wldnt it be gr8 to haf loads of money!
whee! i like my spikin today!! issit cos thomas set very well or wad? haha! i actually can spike str8 at 4 hao wei:p i mean i totally nv succeed b4 man! ^^ oo, and finally im not like mr goh's or whoeva 's substitute, just defence hou pai, cant even spike qian pai. yeah!! today i can! muahhahahaha!!!

2007-05-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

hahz! tom's vesak! finally can rest properly le!! i haven been sleepin well. sunday night do science, monday night did el and bio, tuesdays night decide to slack abit, did el oni, den tot can sleep well, but den my sis adjust the temp of aircon to so low that i nv like really slp at all?! walau!! dark eyerings appear le la.. oh man! end off this week soon!

haha, sun we went to watch the beach vb finals. very nice. haha. i wanted china to win champ but they not pro enuf.. lol, im screaming away and zj was annoying me, eyein to me that brazil better. haha! noted on tv last time and once again on court that they got use hand signals to direct the direction of ball ba. haha! damn cool, every ball they serve got show the speed de. somehow their serve is abit diff from vb. cos either they got bao the ball so the ball seems like its being pushed and travel in lobe or the ball travel damn str8 and hit ard the boundary line. the latter one was cool man! and i think their stamina and skills must be very good. cos right after first ball, the setter sets and u must get ready to spike le. the net so high somemore. [ good thing is they all damn tall, but brazil champ belong to the smaller but more agile category ba] and why i say they skills damn pro, cos oni two players, whichever hit the first ball must be spiker, the other will have to be setter. so their dig, set and spike must be equally well. all rounder player man!!

whee, andi enjoy playing the games at the games stall. i serve at 55km/hr oni... cldnt go beyond that.. and my accuracy sulks la. nv got a ball into the hole. yr damn qiang. 3/4 balls got in.

me and kl play with these two blacks[ are they africans? i dunno] yup. quite fun! i keep tellin myself 'fang shou!~" anw, kl sudden spikes i still cannot jie.. i like playing with kl! cos i always learn sth new~!! ^^

today, durin cl lesson, we tok abt the hcjc guy fighting incident. haha! im totally siding the guy la! lol! and my teacher and frens are tryin to persuade me to change viewpt. lets see. this gal dunno related to this guy not, but she one reported she lose her ezlink, but later she found it back, yet nv report say she found it. so she board the bus and the machine muz haf recognise that it is a lost card so it beep diffenrently and the captain ask them to stay. den the captain ask commuters to exit from front door to prevent the two pple from leaving the bus. but den the two pple tries to escape from front door but stop by the captain, so the guy hit the captain.

har! so now, think! the gal must be lazy so she nv report she found it. maybe she wanted do it another day. maybe she dunno that reportin the findin of her card is needed.
next, dun the ezlink have the pic of the gal? if she's a student, there wld be a pic, if she adult, den maybe not... since i dun really think the guy's at fault, so who's at fault? haiyo, why cant the gal produce some identification to prove she's the owner of the ezlink leh! i mean, ic or even lib card can prove one mah. den again, was the captain's attitude den hostile? was his tone critical? such that it causes the guy to be agigated and in a fit of anger, use violence? we all know the guy must be agigated, maybe he's desperate, cos the captain wldnt believe him and the gal. and perhaps he has sth on and gg to the interchange now to prove their innocence juz isnt the right time?

i hope im describing correctly of how they two pple must haf felt den, cos many a time we find ourselves in such situations and the fortunate thing for us is tat we have better control over our emotions. as a gal i wld have cried, but a boy being a boy wld have reacted differently. and perhaps this is the diff. they tend to fight. men can be easily provoked. i've seen many adult, men, quarelling in public and actually resortin to violence.. haiz, wad can i say?? frens told me even if the captain was wrong[which he wasn't as he is carryin out his responsibility, attittude-wise? i dunno], but its just wrong to fight. cos the guy does not have the right to fight. im abit de speechless. can only pity him la, cos he was like suspended from school for 2 weeks har? and maybe he wld have a record, den his dad had to go down on his knees somemore! thnk its juz not worth it to lose a bright future to a moment of impulse/folly. den again, if the gal wasnt connected to himat all, den at the time, he probably must have sympathize with her therefore siding her and thus got annoyed by the captain when he wldnt let them alight. so much so for sympathizing with others. haiz.. am i being too imaginative. thinking that everyone is kind and rational in the mind, just that once in a long long time, they lose it. anw, ending here. no offence to anyone involved. i hope the guy was given any chance. oh, maybe next time when there's other teenager's crime, school shldnt consider suspension, but instead provide counselling. cos wad these teenagers need is even more education and definitely care from the school, family and frens. suspending them from school like of like put them in denial, and it may oni make things worse..

happy vesak! ^^

2007-05-14T20:41:00.001-07:00

haiyo, finally my exams comin to an end.. still got c lit and jap to go!! c lit ji ayou!! and jap think can go die le, lol!! yes! i shall do damn well in c lit to prove my abilities!! its all up to whether i wan to do well not oni :p heex!! seriously nowadays my c lit gettin worse, cos i nv really study. but BUT over the weekend i study so thoroughly, god must bless me man^^

anw, quite sad that my grandparents had left for china shen yang last wed... cried. ahhh.. i crybaby hor? lol! hmm, i wrote a card to them. tell them to be careful, watch out their diet... [as if china is a veri unsafe place] oops, i didnt mean to say bad things bout china:p aiya, and now that they are gg to spend like one mnth plus with my aunt there, my weekend at grandparents hse jiu pao4 tang1 liao.. all day at home, its really sian and i cant help but feel that my parents are naggy... say once jiu hao, why keep repeating? maybe im not a very considerate gal. and im definitely not a patient gal. feel like a bad gal, haiz....

anw, life's gotta get on.. i miss gg out!! ever since labour day, i haven been out le!! gosh, i actually tahan that for 15 days liao!! yeah, jyin say we shall go kbox after exams!! whee!!

aiya, i dunno wad to say le.. ooh, i know. hahaha. me and my sis and dad share cost and bought this pierre cardin wallet for my mum^^ but den she said too small, [ waste my time shoppin that day!!:p] so im gg to change it this wed, after my exams!! :) one good thing abt midyrs is u can go home early. of cos, me and my sis agree that the hse gotta be empty den its enjoyable being at home. all alone. my siblings and i are weird!! bleh!

2007-04-20T00:12:00.001-07:00

hello!! yes, all are fine now, but zj.. erm.. i dunno.. just hope that durin frenly, we can really be like the past, tok and laugh:p

anyway, think i will be excitin for the sec 1 to have the interacting session. lol!!! heard from ts that max is the oni one with christian name, the captain and the shuai-est, mmm. hahaha!! oh yes! it seems, up til now, that csm is compulsory for all, so o lvl not exempted... anyway, think my class gg to use the time to practise face painting in preparation for youth day carnival. hmm, think it will be quite fun. and my fren just reminded of that milo truck that will be there. lol, she commented: pple not interested in the events den all go there to 'cheer' .

whee, wad are we gg to bring for team's breakfast? ym brinin jelly, crys yakult, me?? cake?? hahha!! so much food we can eat through reccess and lunch!!! yeah!!

pls, csm dun come!! if come, means i oni f=got 4 days left to pia for mids, cham. -_-

2007-04-10T15:32:00.000-07:00

hah, think the world's coming to an end. not so much of moody-ness from me... yea, but from the many disasters recently, i feel that the world is signalling to us impatiently that we needa do sth, save the earth!!! or we will come to live in a period of consequences. ring a bell? haha, i just watched the inconvenient truth during geog elective. so depressing. feel that we gotta STOP ALL HUMANS ACTIONS:p lol!
think each and every one of us are guilty of contributing to global warming, switchin on the air-cons, travelling in cars, pursuin comforts, even when we on the fan, we are wasting electricity generated from energy from burning of coals:( very saddening that polar may face extinction before we even die. gosh!!!

haha, if the news report that the world's comin to an end but exact date not given, wad wld u do? i will spend all my money, haha, that's just for laugh.. maybe thats not funnie... bleh. so if u were given the exact date, wad u do den? i think most of us will wan to spend time with pple they love.

sorry guys, i have been in depression for 1 month?? so long such that i cldnt really identify the factor that cause me to be in this state. yet, i just feel and know im just falling deeper into the pits of darkness, lonliness each day. im not angry, no im not. its this other feeling.. a feeling that kills, amusing i haven found myself dead yet. why haven i collapse? have white hair, scream? am i such a strong girl?

sorry, i just so depress, i have really no energy to tok, even at home. so not onli frens receive that kind of treatment from me. i know its unbearin of me. and my horoscope predict that ren2 qing2 ye3 hui4 you3 yong4 jin4 de yi4 tian1. return me with ya silence, maybe thats juat wad im askin for...

i cldnt shout, i find no where to do so. i think i cldnt bear the consequences of cuttin my wrist.. i wonder if i jump down now, will i scare others. i timid? all i know is i live for my grams and parents now. nth, absolutely nth do i look forward to now. pple say dreams are the opp of reality, and there goes my sweet dream, phoof! gone and left me more devastated den ever.

as much as i dun wan this to happen, i hadnt have the control over it now. seriously, i cldnt smile!!!!! i dun know wad will happen if i say sorry. i wonder why im always doin wrong stuff den saying sorry. i hate this!! why others can be happy as ever and im here, feeling abandoned and neglected.

wad shld i do?? i tot if dying hurts pple who loves u, how abt i being shi yi. which part of the head do u hit? i know the hind affects the vision oni.. yes, i think im gg crazy. wad am i utterin? some of ya may be scared of me.. cos of my serious mood swings. but all the more am i scared of u, scared that ya bein scared of me..

perhaps i can identify the root cause of all this is due to my lack of self-confidence. and i do take pple's words seriously. so u see me deeply bothered my comments... i know, i all boils down me, its my OWN fault. why am i, who am i to show others a black face?!?

im waitin for the situation to turn better on its own. i tot time is the best medicine yet things start to go worst. nv did i expect this.. i regret for startin all these silence. but now, wad cani do. teammates they at first compliment me on court, tryin to interact with me but i just, JUST DAO. why am i so mean???!!! once, i wan them to stop tokin to me, now my "wish" is fulfil. ahhh... thank god yea... why didnt the gods ans to my constant prayers? abt my relationships with others?

2007-03-26T00:06:00.001-07:00

hey, is my new song f4 di yi shi jian?? i cldnt hear it from my class com. hmmm...anw i just hope to be more optimistic. this song not as depressing ba?? wads the main source of motivation behind me now? i think i still live cos i wanna believe i still have frens with me, who will be there for me di yi shi jian when im sad, lost. basically after days of emo-ing, crying wadeva sort, im feeling quite numb now. and days still past with me keeping my distance now.. everything seems to be perfectly fine without me. i wldnt wan to meet or talk for i haf nth to say.. im not sensitive to my hp vibration anymore, sry for all the missed calls...

there's just this emptiness in me that i cant explain. and even if i know, so wad?! i doubt there's any best candidate for me to tell.. the other day, my dad was damn angry with my youngest sis, he shouted til whole block can hear la, i think. im so scared! but who can i tell at that point in time? i felt i should be beaten too, cos im not very appreciative of my dad's efforts... my mom said i had no concept of a family. i seem to be a stranger in my house. my desperateness. who can i tell?? i really wish for someone, just someone to understand my plight, my feelings, like a fren that will come for me at di yi shi jian...

recently, it had been lightning, thunder and rain. the worst i've seen was at bishan after my 3rd lang, the lightning cracked in the sky, brightening it up, and it seemed to reach so low to the ground!! damn scary. my grandma said qing ming jie coming, soo guess tats why so much rain lo.. last yr ard jan or feb kept pourin too.. the world is getting weirder!!

people, if yall had the time, or chance by the overhead bridge at scgs/raffles town club at NIGHT, pause and look above. i think thats a lovely sight. at least i felt comforted. haha, when im younger, like pri5? i used to wish upon the stars, called them xing jie jie, and i prayed for my family's health and happiness. quite silly, but now looking at them, i still hope i have their blessing with me.

sometimes creating ya own fantasy world aint a form of escaping, but the last resort to achieve happiness. wldnt u agree?? :)

2007-03-14T12:28:00.000-07:00

settling down to type this post, my feelings all settling in. well, the past weeks are quite fun!
my birthday was not bad, it marked the end of sth but also the start of sth. perhaps my 16 would be great! thank you guys for all the surprise,but i kinda expected yall when jiayun asked me for my home add:p heex! thanks for shopping with me, esp jiayin^^

we had carreer guidance prog the following week, i took up course on psychiatrist, architecture, broadcast journalism, finance, hcjc life, social work, performing arts, entrepreneurship and acjc IB prog talk. alot sia? its spread over 2 days. the most boring is architect. next time, if u wanna find me, dun go construction site, geex^^ i slept thru IB talk, too tired:p interesting talks are like finance!! ooo, they earn like 60 000 bucks per month!!! gosh! i wanna do that!! and ermm, broadcast journalism was nice cos the guy, timothy go is very cute!! he's a indonesian, u cldnt tell at all from his accent. and of cos, entreprenuership when they invite young entrepreneurs to share with us how they started their business.. got this nicholas guy very well known for his funeral business. he's 18 and earning big bucks liao!! cool!! i was tellin sipei when he said "there's a will, there's a way" i add on, "with ya father behind all the way" cos his business was at first funded by his dad de, lol! psychiatrist sounds so psycho, so fascinatiing!! but wait, once u know u needa study for 16 yrs b4 seein ya 1st patient, maybe u wanna give it a little consideration:p performin arts was moreon theatre works, i wanna hear more about the music industry. heex, i used to wan be a teacher, but now im considerin to be song writer!!! yeah!! deni shall major chinese in uni:p be the next fang wen shan!!

our lifeskills camp was comfortably slack. its not boring, plainly nice and smug, sth like that!! i enjoy the makeup session. suddenly u see pple who are very guyish at first struggling with the makeup and look so hilarious, but the next minute after receiving help from the professionist, hey, its hundreds of beautys b4 you!!! and i like the session whn they taught u to walk on heels. i did fine:) and cos my heels got these long lace to tie round my leg, the photographer took a snap of me struggling with it:p haha! ehh, i nv really like their buffet, but i must say that food was sufficient. everyday beehoon damn sian la! but at least its better than biscuit and bread that we ate when in sec 1, 2,3. dining ettiquette talk was so borin, i slept. the only thing i learn was how to hold wine glass. i ask them this cos i interested:p eh, so when u drink red wine, place the glass in between ya fingers cos u wanthe red wine to be warm though in s'pore pple like it cold, and when u drink white wine, den u hold the glass at the mid section. so i conclude those with colour u hold between ya fingers jiu shi le^^ i hate the communication talk!! cos i feel so awkward when i show two and the L person show 1, and all i can do is comfort myself that hey, im more kuan rong than her. but actuall y deep inside i also wan to show 1 de, tot i be kind, since this is all about socialising... im wrong!! damn her la. fine lor, at least she honest with her feeling.. wad the he** den malay nite, my table hosted two malay dancers, quite interactive lor. eunice is good at hosting!! and i nv prepare clothes for casual nite la!! i brought fbts, thx... so lucky, i got my performance wear, so tuck into my jeans den class tee with tie as class theme and off i go, like some cowboy, lolz!! so impromtu!! but i like the effect, tot theres some others that look worse, oops, sorry.. the formal dinner was nice. first i nv expect it to in that d'marqee thing, tot its gonna be some ballroom.. thats disappointin. but ok, in the end the lighting was fine. it was rush hour for all of us, bathing and puting on makeup, borrowin cosmetic from frens, seeking their"professional" help:p im happy and proud that all my teammates look glamarious!! shufeng, huiying, change a lot!! i regret for not bringin a camera, but nvm, i will ask jyin to send them to me. me and eunice walk as partners up the stage and i know, haha, with her definitely cant be the limelight cos she the ny gal!!! but im honoured too:) we did the welcome handsign that we learn the nite b4 at the malay dance. anw, im glad sipei sat with me at the table, xiexie!!! save me from awkward situation. and i enjoyed myself in the end. ok ok lah! we cheered for 4 14 and 4 14 cheered for us 4 15^^ the teachers all comment that my class got the most mei nv!! got debra, jiachin, mel, etc, of cos, we 4 15 is mei2 de2 bi3 :p aiya, but overall, i feel that the o level gals are prettier, maybe cos we more fun, haha!! jiao mei shld be ms personality la!! not that norwell shldnt.. but i supportive of my classmate and i tot jiaomei is both creative and sincere in her ans wad.. we tot there must be some school politics goin on.. and i practically screamed every teammate's name when they walk up the stage!! haha!

but i enjoyed the third day the most. oh, but before i must say that life after lights out was fun and nice!! we played daidee, jack ass!!, damn funny la, its like nv comin to an end, but jiaomei won, yup! then second nite, me, jiaomei, chunmin, meiqin tok til 2am, haha! thats why we overslept the third day. haha!! nevertheless, third day, dance comp we put on our best!! we perform grease and we won first (runner-up)yeah!! for all the talentime that i took part in, theres always a title to it, yeah, so happy!! sec 1 got champs, but i in charge of music den:p, den sec 2 modern dance champs, and den sec3 no comps, sec4 second!! cool!! felicia always praise me for the se4 look that i can display and others cant:p cos i act as guy. eunice and fel as main lead is totally good!! they were so funny. but of cos, others have credit too!! den break camp and i str8 away went bp and stayed for 2 days:p

this is gonna be a long post and i wonder who will ever wan to read this. but if u have come thus far, i thx u for ya kind attention:) we went sentosa the day before!! and we got sunburn, other like huiying didnt:p anw, kristie and rensyn came along too, and im happy we had jnrs with us. next time more jnrs must come k? must bond ma. so i reach harbourfront mrt on the dot at 10am. den we ate the chocolate cake thats for shufeng. we played lots of vb, they played in the sea, me, ym and jnrs played daidee, and i lost all 4 rounds!!! so i gotta do forfeit.. jnrs are so mean to me!! they suggest i lie beside this angmoh and say "ahh, so comfortable.." but of cos, no, i didnt do that!! i did bollywood thing with rensyn, and then i gotta say "hao qiu" and clapped when some other pple spike into the net, lol!!! deni need to acty like im a lost japanese tourist den need ask this china woman where is 7-11. but i used cl lang la, shld use jap actally:p yup, fun lo. im tryin my best to be sporting le. then we played truth, rensyn always spot on, took the black colour card, but she not much scandal, so we ask her to compare snrs, haha! kristie said jyin is more scary? think so than me, haha!! i very nice snr de k. overall, oni im the one who post weird question, sorry ahh.. den we took photos after dinch( lunch and dinner). jnrs left, too bad, too sad... but we had much fun snappin oueselves!! sentosa can be pleasing when u were with pple u care for! my oni yi han is no one ask for frenly with us!! got pro players de la, i think, some jj players, cheung cheng pple... den we left sentosa and jyin treated us to icecream at vivo, thank you!!! ahhhh!! my ldd, huiying and shufeng brought "baby" for me there at the toys r us store!!! heeheex, thank you!! "baby" is this fluffy big bear that is goin to hug me when i cry. a bit pessismistic, but well, it serve its purpose on its second night:p

trg with ats boys jnrs ytd was fun. we won all the match!! the second was second team match, den ny was losing la, so the last few points coach put main team up, and i was zhong, ym zhugong. we won with score 25-27??? yea.. yeah!!! and i was like muttering, " i zhong, i zhong" it was a nice experience, cos u really get to spike a lot. maybe jyin forget ym's at si hao position:p yup. xinying's bro was good such that he try very hard. quite cute too. and den didi, quan yi voice break liao. i was told his elder bro sec 1 but 180++ cm now. xia dao!!! sometime on court, i feel as if im playin against peichun. a bit stress. ahh, those time back den. ats vs peichun always score under 10, like 7 only...

thursday, should i skip maths remedial and trg and go for 6b class gathering at sentosa? or shld i go to trg?? i think i just have to see who's goin to class gathering den... if its pple i cant tok with, why spend my day feeling lonely?? loniness is a lousy feeling!!! bye!

2007-03-02T20:25:00.001-08:00

hows my blog song?? it is a reflection of my feeling.

haven blog for long, cos whenever i go my blog, i felt it died le.

i still rmb congrui used to rate my blog the most interesting blog, cos it has full details of that particular day's event. now that we go out less le, i blog bout my feelings. maybe you can never guess wads gg on in my mind, but u know im sad. forever this blog is sad. pple dun come here anymore, why should they be affected by me?? myy, wad a change. haha hahahaa...

from 2005 xmas to 2006 xmas, 2006 cny to 2007 cny, 2006 valentines to 2007 valentines, 2006 4th march-tom. change. its nv the same. as much as i wan to stay hopeful, i doubt tom will be someday to look forward to. wad if i couldnt lift my spirits tom? wad if there's pple missing for my bday celebration? wad if they oni accompany me for half day long, wads goin to happen to the other half? wad if they all think got my cl birthday so can postpone the celebration, but they forget i got camp? wad if it isn't as good as last year? wad if its sadest sixteen instead of sweetest sixteen?

haha, am i a perfectionist? but i never ask much. i know i dun have lots of stuff, but i nv want alot of stuff too. i just wan to keep wads with me now, friendship, kinship. i had lost alot since the new year, comps, shifu (cos im not calling kl that again), and more, u nv know how scared im feeling inside me. i get very emotional on court, cos i seehow ym spike and compared it to mine, its not her fault to be pro k, she put in effort, maybe i did not. so as i zhugong, i defend more. coach said hjc have lots of spikers, lack setters. think i can dun think about DSA le... omg, how many times have i broke down on court?!! why, think coach saw me likdat so change me out of court to cool down. sometimes, i really wan to throw my hp away, get out of the court. no false hopes, no false hopes!!

wad i wan. i wan pple to spend time with me. i wish that by next year, i still have you guys to celebrate my bday with me, i dun wan it to seem like it is the last bday i had with you. no. i wan to feel that im needed, im important. i dun wan to keep quiet every morning cos my life has no exciting happenings to share about. if u know wad i wan, if u can rmb my bday, w/o relating it to one day after crys.

call me selfish, pessimistic, crazy, emo, i'd suppress my emotions so long, i rather it explode today than tom. like this blog song, i hope my tears wunt fall past 12midnight.

im scared of tom, wad if i conclude it as disappointing? ask huiying wad happen during jap class. sensei ask me to form sentence about wad im worried about, and i replied im worried ifduring my b day, would i be happy? the whole class laugh. but thats indeed my fear. last year, my bday, i had hsk exam, deni went out with jiasin to bukit timah plaza, den met teammates at kap, went orchard, gone home with a green balloon in my hand with zj behind me, den pass me a wallet. jin nian ne?? i wldn't expect my teammates to knock on my door at 9am, cos they dunno exactly where i stay. bet by now,they haven plan how to ask me out, haha. why i worry so much. cos i wan to know who cares bout me?? bleh.

sheng ri kuai le, happy birthday

2007-02-14T23:11:00.001-08:00

shot by reality, reality? is it reality? wad about those times back then? reality or dream? a good act arh? im expose to reality, it seems like a cruel truth. i tot i should wake up now, but if there's no dream for me, wads there for me? feels im really clear-minded now, feel like leaving, walking off from everyone. and ill be back some time later.
wad u cant defend, u cant hold. for someone losing her confidence, i feel i cant hold on to wad i wan. so i wish to go, pick up myself, my confidence. leaving frens will be hard, damn hard. i wonder if i can do it.. i dun do it, i feel i will feel worse, subconsiously when im happy and obviously when im moody.
but anw, guys, just dun be xia dao:) wldnt say im fine(today), but i wunt go die:p

hahz, im moody today. maybe cos im sick, maybe cos of other stuff. happy belated valentines to all! hope yall were happy. ytd's school was nice, many valentines' exchange and i got one whole pack of gifts from jnrs, teammates and classmates and teacher summore. a lot more gifts than last yr, which i nv expect. but compared to last yr, i preferred then. ahh... cny coming!! fri a lot pple got hot dates, but i not those that will go and stalk. guys, enjoy belated valentines thoroughly ba!! ^^

whenever i have so much hope in sth someday, it turned out disappointing, very lo!! so im not goin to think that cny will be very very exciting this yr. if i ever go imagine wad cny will be like, i will shake myself back to reality. this yr, im celebrating cny with my parents, tuan yuan fan also at home, perhaps goin to chinatown. i seriously hope i enjoy it, oh man!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! ^^

2007-01-29T22:57:00.000-08:00

hey o!!! so long nv updaye le!! wheee! tom's is one deciding match with huayi!! nyvb jia you!!

and yangyi, you better control ya emotions!! dun go pull long face, dun roll ball under net too:p ahh, my blog song is still very nice!!

these days the wind damn strong la! i touched my fren, she said my fingers icy cold, hahah! but seriously my hands are coldest when i cold la:p hmmm, everything seems to be going quite ok.. maybe next week i got lotsa tests, i dunno.. :p somehow i can manage it ba. its not like i dun listen in class^^

hey, many events these few weeks too!! like jyun and ym bday, trgs cum frenly, flagdays. cip at toa payoh lib, wedding dinner, and many many more that made me both happy and quite upset:p happy cos got happy stuff, sad cos of zibei lo, i guess... gettin less and less confident of myself! haiyo, seriously wads wrong with me? cldnt deny im scared, scared i perform badly, den got to sit at bench, haha! sounds very ba dao, main player not good of cos must sub others de, but haiya haiya... dunno la. my yao strain too, both sides now:p lol!! at first tot is kidney failure, wadeva...
stress durin trg.. pia pia pia!! go yang yi!! noones despising u, why so low confidence? haha!! smile, everything goes well! YEAH!

2007-01-04T07:37:00.000-08:00

heyo!!
its the second day of school, and i have been coming to school like earlier and earlier, even after i make a detour to go get my shoebag i left at home and forgotten to bring today. LOL!! i gotta take 3 bus!! from my house i have got 3 options, den at 2nd stop outside amk pri, i have 3 options too, and 165 is the best cos it went straight and stop at macritche while 166and 132 stop opp those flower shops :p den i have more den 3 options at macritche, 74, 852, 157, 156.. anymore?? LOL! damn tiring to wake up at 5 daily!! and i always sleep ard 12, so i becoming panda soon:p
ahh.. start of school was quite alright. at least i dun have to start my day with a c lit test! haha!! we had sort of a team reccess, and during lunch, we played vb and wish coach "happy birthday!!" i think coach was very happy and touched^^ snrs are most tie xin(caring)!! anyway, after school, we sat at canteen and start to write a message in everyone's notebook. we wrote down our blessings, and not forgetting our crap also! haha. i went quiet for like quite long at tat time. i looked at my teammates, and i wonder how didthe bond form among us, wad had we done to make this bong such a strong one; im simply amazed. from strangers to frens and now perhaps to good frens who we really wanna care and love, i felt overwhelmed. and maybe cos the piano at the side keep playin sad melodies, den make me wan to juz look quietyly at my teammates, pple whom i love and care for. i wanna wish them all the best and will go all out to make them happy, i wanna tell them all these in my silence. i told cr zhu4 fu2 jin4 zai4 bu4 yan2 zhong1, perhaps silence speaks more volume, who knows! anw, i keep quiet cos i piss too, with myself, cos the other day when they all went shopping for notebk, i gotta pia hw so nv went with them. den i dun haf notebk!! my 'hope' book's for diary, so cant use it:p so sad la, den no one write for me... but crys promised to write after i bought one:) yeah! haha, and jnrs gave us this electric pen that we had fun with, esp yingr! lol!~~
wahh, now that the guys gotta wear their jc uni,i wonder how they look like!! lol! i think zj, ruiyang, darren and jyun theywill look alright ba.. i wanna see how shifu!, wincoln!, eehong!, junhao, teck yuke and kiral look!! wahahaha!!
felicia juz let me try this turkish from germany, it taste delightful! got choc and original flavour de^^ yeah, the second day of school gonna start, have a happy day to all!!
put the 86, 400 seconds of ya day to good use!! 'o^!

2006-12-28T19:59:00.000-08:00

yeah!!! wad a x'mas day!! its FUN!! ok, let's juz start with eve. i wake up in the morning to buy gummy bear decorate the guys' cake. i named it 'crazy delight'. its delightfu;l but disastrous too! eve we went darren's house. the nite b4 crys was scoldin eehong cos she tot he used darren's hp to trick me:p LOL!! damn farnie! anw, we went there quite early den cos noone home, we loiter about den settle down at this hawker. met them at Cheers. i just realise zj cut his hair:p nvm. yup, so we simply slacked there whole day, watched chucky- the doll killer and some korean tv serials.. the chucky show damn wad de la! no storyline, all f words and gross. after all the killing, den in the end is dream.. waste my tears!! the tv went mute for quite some timelo, den darren's papa super patient, not like us:p though we said nvm, we dun watch le, but he insist muz fix the tv:p the guys totally dao us! play their own ps and mahjong.. den crys they all super hungry. table got food but they dun dare take, they scared of eugene.. i dunno why, cos i sit faraway, but it seems like he dun let zj eat the food.. :p zj left early to some funeral stuff???? but he ate my crazy delight! when its the freshest! he smartest de la! yup, we didnt eat dinner there, went cafe cartel to eat pork ribs and seafood platter!! ^ ^ den we met kiral by coincidence, so went shoppin with him. later warren join us. we saw this expandable boxer shorts at 77th street, damn ex and i think the idea quite amusing!! ahhaa! ok la, eve was not bad. imagine if i went to orchard for choir and couontdown instead.. den make balloon structures for passer-bys in the rain, wah! at least i got shelter, so nv go i think i make rite choice.. but den again, very sian, darren bad host:p hahaha!! dao by nature.

yeah! den xmas countdown i mass send xmas greetings via sms. til 3, 4 am still got receive greetins de, lol! i 1:45am jiu bua tahan liao, slept on sofa til my father call me go to room. next day, meet the others at scgs stop to go zj house. i was 1 min earlier den crys they all! den we so qiao see jh too. we took 190 lo. how i wanted to alight when i reached my grandma house!! very very miss my grandparents. den zj house we study! so studious! den zj is opp of darren. got give attention to us, cos of *er herm* ba'o^! haha, keep bringin us food and call us out to 'bond" with his team. zj first time order canadian pizza, last time always pizza hut:p yea, after finishing part A of my maths hw, i double check ans with yingr, den all wrong, cos i copy formula wrongly. damn it!! so i give up. go play piano, watch terminator.. blah! den they feel like watching horror so i lock myself in the room, suddenly moody. dunno why. tink i missmy grandparents again:p haiyo, i like little gal like that. lol! must stick on to my grandparents de:p hmmm, after dinner we go bball court play. the court no lights on de. den still must walk grass patch to the court.. lucky its at night, if daytime,i surely dun wan walk de.. hehheh! yeah! now its really fun time! we played bball match! our grpings: under zj, we have ym, crys and eehong, and jh, and me. den under kl, they have darren, yingr, yt, and cr, and zirou! haha! kl team like oni kl and darren solo. the gals just stand aside:p in the end, we won! but the process super funny! play ball can play til lose the ball cos too dark le!! den im bao li as usual:p this time roud nv slap shifu, but i know i hit jyun forehead. den maybe hit others hands or legs:p lol, accident k! yeah, after that, we played this pass ball round and when music stop, last touch must do forfeit. ok, first we have junhao to use butt write merri x mas. super got sportmanship la! den think zj they got video:p den is ym shake butt across court, eehong grasp crys hand, still got jyun and zj demo, the fingers got to slip into the others one de. den darren massage me for 10 secs. stupid eehong, sabo me when not even i say hold hands with crys:p chao er la! wad massage theigh:p den is cr gotta stare at everyone, den jyun run with ball under shirt, den i did pole dance?! den i ask yt to pinch kl cheeks, but think its cr who last touch, so we end the game. we played da yu, xiao yu afterwards. i lost first one at the first game, but last one at the last game. haiya,i super CARELESS!! den the games gets harder. we gotta say zj and zr. so funnie. we are sayin this game all can play but zj and zr:p den i left home earlier cos curfew at 11pm la.. mother ask sis to check on me liao.. went busstop, saw jh and darren. so weird, 190 usually come quite fast de.. so we reach scgs den take our bus lo. jh left first on151, den i took 132. x mas end nicely..

wah, think ytd i went my blog den realise all my wishes come true!! not bad seh!! cos even my mom nv scold me!! surprise surprise!! i wen thome that time, my mom sleep le, so haha!!! ^^ i cant believe x mas went so well. yeah! anw, ytd went crys hse, crys told me bout my crazy delight causin wincoln to diarrhea and darren puke, den jus see shifu blog, he also clingin on.. feel so bad la! but not my fault totally, wahaha! i told ya eat le, yall wait til 27th den eat.. sorry la.. yeah, sec 4 farewell was not bad! i miss the snrs, esp jing!! all the best in jc! ^^ hope today, yall had the time of ya life!

2006-12-21T18:25:00.000-08:00

whee!! haha! hasnt it been soooo long since i last blogged?! lol, been entertaining myself with my 'loyal' diary :p anw, heehee, its x mas season again!!! wow! my god, this yr pass simply too swiftly!! its the time to party and make merry once again!! still rmb last yr when we spent both eve and x mas at crys house. we just slack there, but having close frens with us was just enjoyable, isnt it? ^^ or im too easily satisfied? haha! :p pple must be busy purchasing presents now, last min pia, just like me:p LOL! but still got pple whom i dunno wad to give, rack my brain til no brain juice liaoz. ee, the above's quite disgusting, haha! but ahhh, i seriously dunno wad to get..( secretly, i forget to include jing in my gift list! oops!! :p) but i dun even know if i get to see her these few days.. my teammates maybe i give tml lo, others at zj house. yeah, we goin zj house for x mas this yr. hahaha, but dont even know we goin eehong house for eve. think the guys are.. yeah, maybe i shld go for my x mas carolling at orchard paragon. my only worry- my latest curfew. bleh, thats s*c*y! 10pm, not early, not late.. once im so bothered, i cried til i sleep:p i very childish hor?? haha! i dunno, my tears just flow. its those kind of subconcious fear, ya noe? but things are better now. it seems so.

yeah! tok about HAPPY stuff! like my wishlist!! ^^

material-wise

*shoebag
*buttons (meaningful ones)
*soft toys
haiz, of cos theres more, but perhaps its a little late now, AND these are forever MATERIAL-wise :)

psycological-wise
*i spend x mas with pple i love
*pple love my presents
*my wishes fulfilled :p
*i enjoy the day throughout, from 0000 til i reach home til the day ends wonderfully!!
*my mom dun scold if im late:p
*everyone is happy and have a good night dream! ^^

2006-11-08T22:53:00.000-08:00

ahh, [like use this word recently:p] work experience prog started these two days. it was tiring, boring??

basically, i did lots of tasks as compared to my other frens, includin jyin. wa!! i did like typing of words, cut and paste den ctn to trim. den i had to help tch time and again. carry files, transfer boxes of 'shi4 zi4 wang2' [their product], den im asked to scotch-tape their products to a cd, then packed them into boxes. for many many times, i gotta open my mouth and asked for help. ask for assistance with com, ask for glue, boxes, scissors, tape, marker and even tell them my suggestions!

haha, but im glad i work at beach rd, the hawker there really sells good food! yum yum! i like the music thats played at concourse shopping mall, where i worked. they play oldies, ohhh, so good!!

today i kinda made frens with the boss' son. pri 1, very active, chinese damn qiang. hehheh, cos i frendly to him, den he helped me with my work!!! yeah!! the place a cd on top of the game box, den i scotchtape them, den i ask him put back into box and count, den i will double-check. im glad he nv feel untrusted becos of my actions...

there's a tch who rmbmy name so well, kinda reliant on me. yang yi so easy rmb one meh??? lol! nvm, i wish at the end of the experience i got a positive feedback from her. tsktsk, think im the one who complaint the most :p

i wldnt like to work when i grow up. everything is so dead, repeatedly, continuously actions. similar faces. bleh. wadeva good food i'd be sianx too.. bein a tch isnt really fun. perhaps i need to reconsider my ambition! :p

but for now, its quite ok lo. i feel so young compared to the others. everyone in the bus had a maturer face than me. their attire too. they arent wearin jeans sort of things.. the fashion now for ladies this season is black[ dark colours] look ard, it aint hard to find like almost 9 out of 10 ladies wear black or dark color.

working in grp will keep u bz tokin, motivatin u to work cos others are workin too, it juz isnt fair. but when u were assigned to do sth on ya own, the tots were juz somewhere outside the workplace. silence. lonliness. somehow, u feel out of comfort zone.

is this the challenge faced when at work??

2006-11-02T00:10:00.000-08:00

hey, lets review the events of the past days! ><

somehow i had left my shoebag in the taxi when i rushed to school for o level cl papers. the things inside plus together amount to $100+ , cham. wad a price to pay for o's. but i think even so, its ok so long i score well and get into hcjc. gonna have to contact the operating office tml. pls dun throw my shoebag away... god bless.

went to youth cup on tues and wed, with the purpose of seein hci play. tues vs st hilda's b grp and today is victoria sec. hey guys, u all have improved!!! yall didnt get trashed, thats great!! zhen de. and i tot its good to see reserve subbin in to get some on-court experience. haha, lets do some analysis:p (pls take no offence, hci team:p)

ah, lets start with captain, junhao.
rm for improvement areas : there's one setting today that was screwed, pls dun be tense:) and serving today, shld have 100% accuracy over the net, but 1 serve into net. :( set abit higher for zj, the kuai gong ball to low for him.
skills to applause! : ah, i always think u run damn fast, ya teammates shldnt blame u for settin poorly( if u did), cos their first ball really got prob, how can use fist to hit!! not bad ba, at least settin can set from setter's position to spiker's position. fang qiu some quite suie wo :)

zijie.
rm for improvements: eh, why nv use thunder like u did when yall are given time to practise? i oni saw u used it once today. good attempt at fanging qiu, but gotta have to react fast, like turn back fast, cos oppenents block. quite hard for pple to defence from the back. maybespiker and setter wanna help cover up:) wanna try spikin fiercer? juz a suggestion. (i dunno wad will happen)
skills to applause! : ah, serving was wen,not fierce but at least wen. this is good, cos st hilda's actually win a 25-17 for they ownself make mistakes. hci juz maintain ya standards, play it steady! :D blockings were nice. defence wise was good ba. and like i said earlier, that thunder was exellent, fabulous, it really strike down hard and fast. COOL!

wincoln
rm for improvements: serving needs more improvements. more strenght? quite weak,but make sure it goes over the net, thats within ya capabilities:) ahh, pls dun self reproach that u lose the last point on the match against st hilda's, cheer up^^ isit durin june that under 19 tournament. u got so upset and exclaimed sorry, den now wheneva i say sorry, it reminds me of u, lolx!
skills to applause! :yeah! not bias wadeva, but i tot wincoln's first ball is the best! the ball nv spin at all, and the height was quite alright. :):) spiking was 70%? second day's performance was better than first day. may not be very fierce, but timing was right. i rmb there's 1 one when we gals all clapped, shld be one when u spike ba. lastly, becos of ya speed, you save quite some balls and win hci some points, ya gong de shld be acknowledge!:) cld see u really pin when u ran all the way to the gals side to save that ball

jiayun
rm for imprvements: i told u le, spiking shld ya more. though u siad it may spike into net, but since now u spike out already, shldnt you try it out, it may work for u:) jia you, ya left arm damn strong. and today, got one ball, zijie save it so tediously and u lose direction har, be calm.
skills to applause!: yeah, we all agree ya serving very good. it seems as if u are in full control of the ball, u had the ball in ya whole palm. sub set not bad ba, but cos norm is junhao set de, so u muz defence well, cover up for him worx! :)

darren
rm for improvements: hmm, spiking cld improve more though can see ya coach train u to be a kaui gong shou, those suden fang qiu and blockings. ehh, got 1 serving on the first match nv serve over net, your serving shld be wen de worx!!:p noticed there's shadow spiking! thats good, perhaps u wanna make it more complete, really do the whole action completely. cld learn from bp:)
skills to applause! : hey, kuai gong was good! style diff from zj, zj's near net, yours further, more advamtage ba, less percentage of bein blocked, so won quite some points for hci:D and serving on the whole was 90% ( cos of that 1 ball:p) ohoh, got one blocking, you actually hang in air, we tot yall gonna lose it, but phew that was close.
kiral
rm for improvements: ahh, actually i tot u on the whole quite ok, but i rmb sth, ya serving! zhen got like 1 or 2 serves thats in net and out, am i rite? u are able to have 100% accuracy de. ya first ball needs to improve..
skills to applause! : serving was ard 80% . ahh! when zhen's on form, he spiked damn well! reallie!! some spikes were not bad! you cld jump high.:)

kalun
rm for improvements: shifu, today's match ya first ball got prob worx!! i think u shld bent lower, den hit at an angle of like 70+ degress? cos u know wad? today, b4 the ball comes down , you already start to run forward, den you contact the ball at like maybe 35-40 degress? u estimate la:p so the ball kinda hit into net, and sometimes, jh was lucky to adapt to that ball. not suanin, shifu dun be sad den ask me face the wall:p:p
skills to applause!: some fang shou were nice:) and u rmb ya position well, even reminded wincoln? to swop places with you. second part of today's match den became back on form. grade u 60% for today, ytd wld be 85% ba

eehong
rm for improvements: ahh, spiking was meng sia, but out:p ya more ba:) why i didnt find a hole on the floor?:p hey and serving too! how can be out? but nvtheless, not bad for overall performance for a reserve. probably not enuf on-court experience, den haven adapt to the space of the court, rmb to hit within boundary wor! ><
skills to applause! : i wld say it was a good try, serious! some reserves go on court behave very rou, u very meng wor! yong qi ke jia!! the sprit was there. hope u cld be more compose though. dun be too anxious:) first ball a bit like kl ar.. be more mindful of ya angle at back row spiker's position. im glad u were sub in:D

ruiyang
rm for improvements: hmm, spiking wise i wld say. be more fierce. haven really see you serve. but i hope u improve!! its so saddening to see on the first match two no 12 standin there to pick balls!! :p jia you! trust me, all no 12 are pros:p eg, henry:p
skills to applause! : ehh, sry, hven been noticing you.but my impression of you is you serve rather well ba. hci servings shld all aim for 100% accuracy. jia you, be more meng! :)

teck yuke
rm for improvements: hmm, actually you on the whole not bad for reseve leh. quite daring.you wanna be more passionate abt vb? bond closer with ya team..mo qi on court is very impt. given ya height, u cld achieve more. :)
skills to applause: i tot i find ya defence very pin, not bad! spiking also very gan gan lai. im amaze by ya block the other time we had frendy, u blockmy ball. not my ball very good, i xia dao, but cos my ball didnt get over, so upset, so i rmbed:p gotta jia you!!

kaitai
rm for improvements: hmm, spiking ba. when yall were given time to practise, i saw u trained, feel that the timing not very there yet. understand zhong got kuai gong, so u gotta be fast. try adjustin the ball with jh lo.. be more enthu k?be more hype:p
skills to applause! : ahh, but i like some of ya spikes, they were not bad la. serving not bad ba.. didnt notice

hci dun have st holda's a grp, xin min, those sch of thunder, but we gotta admit, yall did improve, and grow tall. now my shifu seems shorter than ruiyang:p oops! i believe next yr zonals, u guys can make it to nationals. ganbatte!! arent yall impress by my analysis?:p i just dun understand why yall go pia weights, later muscleache:p

yup yup, be viewin the match on fri and sat. cum on hci!! established ya goal! im really happy yall didnt get trashed, look! its 17-25 and 15-25, these schools were quite tough, ibelieve i'd be seeing better results. RITEZ?! :DDD

2006-10-30T22:24:00.000-08:00

oh, wont you sit back and relax and listen to yangyi's adventure on this very day?
oh gosh, in the morning at 5oclock plus, i was shaken awake from my nightmare. a dream that i had anticipated the night before. i dreamt tthat i went to sit for o level cl paper non-prepared. firstly, i dunno where's my seat, den i had to go in and out of class to get my pens and entry form respectively. imagine that! im just stattin this dream plainly now, cause more awaits when i awoke!
had everything prepared by 6 25am, left my house and could supposedly reach school earlier than normal so as to study with sipei. den i saw my bus, 960. i tot i saw.... so i rushed to hop on the bus, and i immediately regret! cos its 963, damn it!! no wonder juz now those scgs gals didnt board the bus... the bus went the highway to marsiling mrt, and on that journey, i cld oni act calm, as if nth's wrong. i cldnt stop self-reproaching, i cld i make things go so wrong on such an important occasion, my red letter day??!! arr... ben yangyi, shifu la, curse me... :p anw, so i rushed to the taxi-stand at marsiling mrt and spent $9.80 to get back to nygh, reach school at 7:07, phew!! well, at least my decision of taking a cab is right, im not late. kinda overwhelmed to tears wheni told sipei my horrid experience.
this hasnt beem the first time however, cos i rmb the other time when i worked at suntec com exhibition, i mistaken 960 for 190 too!!! walau, cldnt believe me doing the same mistakes yet again. yea, so the other time i went all the way to little india, den quickly took mrt to change to city hall.
after exam den relise i hadnt bring my shoebag out with me! so i got no knee guard today, fell to save a ball, tom sure blue black. and i pressed the bell beforehand, 1 stop before my stop. things went kinda horrid and ridiculous for me today. but nvm, i tot cl paper was quite alright. juz gong han i didnt specify the activities.. zheng lao shi said like that den content will be 6/8, still got 75%, so quite ok ba. im quite confident of my language part though. thanks to shifu and others. ^^
i shall end here, tom early morning gonna leave home for youth cup den at night go see choral and drama nite, yeah, so eventful!! jia you hci, do ya utmost to closer the gap betw ya score and st hilda(b)'s score:D
thanks for all the good lucks, some i really hadnt xpect to get at all:) ying, cr and yt tom gg china le, bon voyage! buy stuff back ar!!:p

2006-10-28T14:17:00.000-07:00

breaking down, patience's wearing out. tears flow uncontrolably at the tot that people wldnt give in to me, lest i admit defeat,break that silence and act as if im mad no longer. many incidents happen at one time in our lives, some are happening fast, others at standstill. and when we find ourselves unable to decide wad to do, we decide to stop and wait. i believe we have something in our mind, if not subconciously, that we are waiting for. we wait for fate to decide, for others to reponse first. strangely, while waiting, incidents that happened and passed by fast, they seemed to convey to you a msg, normally one that acts as a wet blanket, it makes you despair that wad you are waiting for secretly isnt going to happen, *sad for you*

why cant i be a little more stubborn, a little more obstinate, a little more perserverance than others? why cant i last til the last min? why is it always me thats givin in? from young, gotta give in to my sis, den today.. my aunt ask sumone to go downstairs and collect veg for my grandma. they ask me to go, and unwillingly i went. hey, im still eating my breakfast, why not the maid but me? and this aunt of mine alwaes call to say go downstairs immediately but she can arrive 30 mins later?!!! i stood downstairs, stompin my feet, pissed off. my tots on some other things. i hate to wait, so i started to stare hard at all the passing vehicles. i felt very unfair. den my aunt came, and i gotta act as if nth's wrong, forced a smile. back at home, my face was sulky. i complaint i hate to wait, and my theighs hurt so much from trg la. dun they know? dun they care? dun they bother? did they even realise? i felt so neglected! tears juz stream down my eyes. hid my face in my towel. my grandma was angry at me for being disrespectful. it was hrs of silence. and finally, i broke the silence. ask her where's the maid. yet nevertheless, my tot went elsewhere, and i felt unfair, and i wept. cldnt stop.

good luck for o level cl, yangyi. you are on ya own.

IM PROUD of them:)

2006-10-18T18:36:00.000-07:00

ONE SUPER SHORT POST HERE!

3-14 WON CHAMPION AND ALL OTHER AWARDS IN VBALL INTERCLASS TOURNAMENT!!!

lASTLY, THEY ARE COACHED BY ME:p

<3<3<3

2006-10-16T11:26:00.000-07:00

ahhh! feel so slack, in class now. dun even feel like bloggin at home:p heeheex!
ehh, basically, nth. got no life. i went to vivo city on sat, its all designers' shops. oo, no mac, no kfc, no bk, oni ljs! cool, this shopping centre is really for IR people de! aiya, sian lor.. and my dad have special interest in Gap, this designers' shop that oni come to Sing this yr, he said its very popular in USA. hmmm... one leather jacket cost 500++ $.$. i like their tote bag design. eh.. nth much, we cldnt find place to seat. too crowded. theres Giant and another big shop, this other shop's prices is i think 150% of the others. ex!! i brought a sultana and hazenut bar! yeah, gonna eat that for my lunch today! wad else to say? oh, there's two incidents that happened on sat that makes me feel pple are getting more helpful, in particular, guys. (erm, cos normally we will think gals are more helpful?? :p) anw, so in the bus, pple were standin at the space there, den this gal behind fainted twice, second time very scary, den her fren is like, "eh, ni bu yao yun(dun faint)" den everyone is plain lookin and lookin and doin nth, even me..:( den this guy beside me, he's the only one to say "help her to a seat", but the gals just drop at a bus stop lor.. a bit ashame of myself.. to tthat givin her a sweet may help increase her blood sugar level, but i dun have sweet... bleh.
next incident, im the one in distress! haha! aiya, went food republic at vivo to eat, den was carryin drinks, den drinks spill(where's my balancing!?!) arh, so while i trying shift my one hand while the other tryin to balance, this guy help me adjust my drinks:) others at the side just keep chatterin, "wah, shui dao liao...(drinks spill)" haha, they inconsiderate, i also ehh impolite? OOPS! just muttered thank you w/o looking at him, den focusin on my drinks walked away:PP HAHAHa!
oHHHH, happy birthday!! jia yi!! my dearest sister. try be more adaptable, alright? :D sry, tom ya bday:p
oh, my hp call bill sure bao! oops. exam period call my dad, after exam call my dad, sis, this person , that person. haha, sms very slow, i lazy:p but lucky, i still have free incoming.
lib, time to do some studying. as in readin. studyin is for school purpose, readin is self based purposed:p im ponnin 3rd lang ever since 3rd lang exam:P ahahaha! ask huiying fill in my name. go there watch movie very sianx.
i really have nothing to comment, or have i commented alot already? went k box! one day, you guys shld sing some really old songs, those that belong to the time when we are very young, like he ruan dong: zhen xin hua:) wow, this luo jia chang singer sang lots of songs, special abt the songs is the lyrics are all chinese old poetry! next time we clit pple shld go sing:p den we can memorise more easily: du shang xi lou(li yu), but i like :yi lian you meng!
oh, and i wanna say, jia sin!!! jie ai shun bian. pple will grow old and die one day.. hao peng you shi hu xiang li yong de!! be there for you!! :D
k, signing off. bubbye!!

2006-10-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

oh! end of year exams, i gladly announce, are over!!! YEAH!! haha! exam period, think my smiles could be seen oni during studyin time. when u revise with frens, joke abt or act like tcher like that and teach, lol! had sipei accompany these few days, yeah, we did damn well for the cl lit history!! COOL! eh.. i think geog too! oh, and i need to thank jiale for her pen, im so touched!!! exams aint fun, but this time round though, the info still etch in my mind after exam. esp bio and geog:) thanks to those who taught me durin these period and those who wish me luck;)

wah, so long nv blog, kinda slack le.. anw, i think everyone i study with is kinda fed up with macs le:p sian diao by macs now. hmm, i sidetrack easily, lolx! nvm. exam period is relax period for diet, haiz, so now post exam le!! im gonna plan my post exam schedule!! yes! and now, i am going to stay away from my house as much as possible, there's too much temptations in it. and i am going to do window shop with frens? dunno, must see crys they all wanna go not:p window shop with others not as fun, heehee! eh, i think i'd be doing cip at lib. either toa payoh, bp or cck??? yup! for nyaa, for the 1 mark deducted from o levels result, for hcjc !! yeah!! and i be tuturin my cousin for maybe these 2 weeks? better quickly earn some money for xmas! i love xmas!! make it like last yr k? i feel like singin xmas carols le!! and im gonna be my class coach for the interclass vb tournament, but i would prefer coachin ying's class, they have more interest and potential. my class sports class,but no passion, no use... hit here and pain here:p oh, im gonna be a good umpire. lol, ldd can try out bein a refree. pray my enthusiasm for bein an umpire is high, i mean which vballer can remain still under the hot sun just watchin the game and not participating?? esp since you wish to subsitute that player:P:P:P i mean the standard is not like youth cup finals standard, of cos we wunt juz seat there and watch in awe. not bein proud k, jux presentin the general feel. dunno la, crap. im going to do maths! i am not going to disappoint mrs wong in sec 4 and definitely make her proud in o levels! and ms r ashidah, oh.. i love bein ya monitress! u are so much better than kelvin.t:p not gonna disappoint u, not once and nv! the geog elec class will miss u!!! oh, and therefore i decided, the class shall buy sth for u!! wad its gonna be, haven tot of.. is the big red rose/tulips from china ya favourite? maybe we get that for u!! the most impt thing is always place at the back. yes! training!! my vb skills rusty liao la! lucky got sipei, vb enthsiast, always pause studyin period and we start playin vb:p i even dreamt jiao lian purposely dun wan to acknowledge me, maybe im not good enuf.. but at the end of the dream, is she play trick on me:p nvm.i had many many fantasy dreams, so weird, so sweet! geex, think cos i always daydream, fantasize, den in real world is weird enuf le, so dream is even weirder:p haiya, so my pt is to train hard. spike hard and smart, serve fierce and with confidence, dig balls that are high, low, juz go all out to save it! tala! my post exam plan!

2006-09-27T20:02:00.000-07:00

that previous post shld be deleted long time ago. i know its ridiculous to apologise after u hurt sumone, but sorry to all. it has been a period of awkwardness, aint it? haha!
and el exam and jap exam is starting tml. oo, its so near, and i cld oni see the end of it. i see post exams activities, hols, trgs, xmas, hari raya haji?? LOL! good luck to me, yangyi!

2006-09-02T19:43:00.000-07:00

yeah! and i had a nice time at kbox today! we are not late!! went with my father and sisters. we are very farnie, when we chose kang kang "wo de jia ting" to sing! it went"geg, papa, mama, jiejie..." so farnie!!! and we are laughin while singing. these are the type of songs that dun require skills in vocals:p not saying kang kang cant sing la... lolx, den the meal quite nice, salmon in laksa sauce. we sang junyang's shasha de sui as our finale;p shld say its quite nice! fir's nice songs are very catchy! f4 songs are romantic! she songs are so emotional, fish leong songs are so light, blah blah blah. it was fun time! oh and el oldies are alwaes smoothing. seasons in the sun, sealed witha kiss, soldier of fortune and house of rising sun!!! saw no ny gal at orchard today, probably they all are piain for EOYs, not like me.. hehheh, haiya, i gg study tml le..

geex, how cum i still dun feel anxious over EOYs?? nvm.. i seemed to be bloggin daily! oh yes, and i took the opportunity that my sis wanted to take pics of unique buildings, den we went to the temple and i went to thank gods. i went there during cny, den on the wall had advice to thank the gods b4 the yr ends, so i went. i prayed for many things. actually i pray almost every night. im not a budhist, but i think im a budhist from the bottom of my heart;p may all be bless with happiness, longevity, fortune, love, achievements!

lets see if i can compose sth now:p

beautiful lady, why the frown?

you have my ring of promise

fear not i go

to me thee trust

SMILE ^^

2006-08-31T23:33:00.000-07:00

ohh, and teachers' day is one that is i dunno, like a normal day, but too overwhelming for a normal day..
early morning, and i got stuck in a jam at hci side cos of ny pri.. rain damn heavy. den in class, class party like class recess, no one in class at all, oni some at the com. the staple food oni got one fried rice. den others are like fried chicken pieces, brownies and jap jellies. no more, we have drinks and biscuits too. see, it isnt appetising at all! so i juz ate one brownie and one jelly. i nv like jelly with color dye.. brownie too dry, i make one better:p yeah, den guess wad? i was readin my clit textbk! haiz... decided to go checked out yingr's class, her class beside mine was blasting off loud music. went over and was treated with great , i shld say fabulous hospitality! sipei asked me to join in the 'caterpillar' dance:p, rosthline passed me a yakult, and yingr gave me this blow bubble thingy. class 314 was a class full of fun! even their form teacher, the o' level classes el tcher, mrs westvik, was amazing! menopause and she cld rock and roll, oo, did i mention pole dancing? woohoox! and yingr class got plenty of nice food. somehow in their lively class, u feel more like eating. so my class pple who knows pple from this class went to be 'freeloaders'. i told rosthline, i bring joy over! ;) hehheh! they are very nice pple, i used to play vball with them every recess and lunch! so i drank one yakult, ate a grape in tossing competition,and a spoon of choco cake and 2 apple chips. tis marks the end of celebration, and my form teacher didnt even appear can... the performers were nice. wad is surprising is! even the canteen uncle and auntie came on stage to perfrom their chacha and rock and roll! chao bang! sei! zai!
took a cab and off i go with charissa and ldd to ats[ai tong school]! found my ex gal classmates den we tok, den me and charissa went look for my p6 cl teacher! frst thing she said was" bian mei le!! " HAHAHAHa! den we went downand saw zhiwei and lydia. zhiwei's has mo gui shen cai la! totally! no one in my class, in my cca, in the school perhaps, has her figure! WOW! and i know her since pri 1, on the very first day, cos we were estatemate. she brought us to see our guy clasmate, edwin. den we saw gabriel too. den, they said " xxx, beautiful le!" haha! [sry, but juz let me tao zui in my world for now:p ] yup, then i did strolling with alina. den we saw the other guys, those hci and cat high de. we chatted lor. i cldnt recognise wilson and darrell. darrell look so cool now! not the short little 'brother' i know:p. imagine him from hci gymnast! and wilson is so dark, learnt from my godbro, timothy iype, now that he in soccer team, nan guai! still think he in squash. haha, used to be my leader, and i used to be his leader too! chermaine 5G[good gon god ge ge] :p ya, then those yin shui si yuan type wld be douglas, zhong han. councilors jiu shi different from others! jason! that diploma pianist and hci bballer, used to be son of chicken wings, finally cum back to his mu xiao! i think overall, guys change more than gals:) saw my tudi, Minghao, went pierce sec. in AV club now. saw my national champions too! hehheh, and coach asked them to help train us, nygh! yea, i think my team like that amk setter! haha, and now we gonna have some cat high pple to help train us too! end my day in ats.
went j8 yoshinoya to eat. den meet up with yingr. plan to buy coacha present, but cant find anything nice.. we tot of buyin butter cake, kachan buteh, salmon, or candy floss for her:p we are so lame.. hahah! den go trg. i oni have 1 umbrella, so me and yingr sick, hid under it while ldd walked in rain, so kelian! trg was alrite. and i had 100% serve over net. and its not threatening at all. i decided to play wen. the most serve to positions:p i lose my force at the wrist. cldnt really spike ball down in split second.. but nevertheless, we still won the jnrs, 4:0. coach sub jiayin to be setter, den sub set and spiker got made changes cos seeting wasnt here and crys backache. get well soon!
and the day pass with me gg home at the same time as other school days. really amaze wad took place this whole day! mrs wong replied my sms, said i was the first to wish her happy teachers day, lol! cos i use sms mah! so zai:p ok la, quite happy to know my ss teacher is awarded the most caring teacher. YEAH!!
may all teachers have a happy teachers' day!!! who knows, one day i get to enjoy this day too:p

2006-08-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

love shuts its door on me, the day you said you gotta leave

i asked you why, you never reply; vanished from my world without

bidding goodbye

stars lose its shine, the day you made me cry

i asked why, and only silence replied

why? why must it be silence? why can't i know why?

you dump me for no reason, now who can i rely?

and i only want you

you fill up all of my mind

why must you leave? why?

the day you are gone, i wanna die

please don't leave me alone, don't let silence reply..

hello, haha, the above is my creation!! its has no links to my life, FYI. cos i just bored, you see. doin maths in class after remedial, den come to a point when i forget the formula, so i decided to not do it :p haha! went to see my online report,all teachers said im an enthusiast:p hehheh! back to my song lyrics[ its suppose to be, if you still cant see it that way] haha, can la, or else i attempt fail liao :p

are you very touched? feeling very emotional?? i think this kind of relation mmm... quite common ba, huh? so maybe you feel something similar to the feeling expressed in the lyrics. actually, as some, some only, people know, i do compose chinese poems. all sad sad de, lolx! collated in a notebook.. english poems, i wish to try, i think i tried b4, not nice. i not cheem enuf:p haha! i think lyrics are more straight forward? yea. and i see it as it must kinda rhyme lor.. this noon ying rong den sang me and xinyi this el song, lolx! but har, cos i anyhow draft my composition on a post-it, so the lyrics cldn't be very much elaborated. and dou say it has no connections to my real life, so i ialso dunno how to write on. just want it to leave some kind on impression on pple. hehheh! man, i feel like cleaning up my class now. damn dirty. super dirty. no wonder i flu so frequently. haiz.. tml is teachers' day celebration, gotta have class party. imagine eating the germs altogether, yucks:p

shifu shifu! HAPPY SHIFU DAY!! pls dun feel old, cos its SHIfu, not LAOfu :p hahahaa! lame... bleh! '0^!

2006-08-25T10:21:00.000-07:00

aiya, these few days recess and lunch play vball non-stop. clit test should be quite alrite. i tried pictorial method this time round:p drew cartoons to rmb whole chunks of paragragh:p
sick seriously for 1 day. flu and terrible sore throat and my hip pain til cant walk properly.. but after sleeping den alot much better le. i realise how impt concerns can be to a sick patient.. my grandparents esp, keep asking me to see doctor and take medicine, i know they care... didnt tell my parents , dun wan them to worry.. i made a paper crane for my grandpa who went on an eye operation, it [the op] was very successful! and im soo sorry yingr, i think cos u went to see me after school to ask me go for trg oni, den i spread my virus to you... i wish u get well soon!

ermm, nth much ba, lots of tests lor.. pe also assessment.. i got 55245, grand total 26 for my forearm pass. damn sad la, the 2 pt is i hit out of court de lor... so! i decided to go and retake it! hehhehheh! how can vballer vball skills not be 100% in easy pe modular test?? hmpm..
after readin shifu blog, i think EOY zhen de coming soon le! so i need to study.. oh Kap, oh BPP lib, wait for me...

walao, why isi my post till damn short? how cld my life be so lifeless??? tchers' day coming soon, oh yes! its hols! first time i dun look forward to gg pri school, since my tch quit le.. but i think i gg back ba,who call my school virtue is ' yin shui si yuan' . think thats one of the reason why i joined vball in sec sch. hols, and i really wish to rest!! nvm, i know there isnt time..

2006-08-22T10:07:00.000-07:00

geex, its juz so sad to see my post gettin shorter by the day:p haha! anw, its reccess now and im bloggin. im crazyy, later is ss test:p but i think i agar agar can le:p it most impt is still to ans to qn, give so many egs also no use de... now, im scared of my jap test... and i worry how the hell i can pia there in 30 mins! inclusive of waitin bus time.. my tch wldnt let me fang xue early de lor.. perhaps i go ask my sensei... last option.. haiya, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi ;) alrite, and i kinda got back my qiu gan le! so quite happy:) can i spend more time in gym and less time on track?? haiz.. oh yes, my c lit test too.. haiya, no comments, sometimes sei, sometimes zibei.... :p bell ring le!!! BYEE!

2006-08-15T12:50:00.000-07:00

haiz, i really really really hope that i could spike better, defence better, and ogh yearh, SERVE better. im getting better, yes, [but on norm trg] , not even trg's match lorx. so ke bei.... may jiao lian LOVES me.

i must learn to tolerate, to win, not to concede, with my burning passion, i have to believe, i have the strength, the power, the ability to create miracles!

2006-08-08T16:57:00.000-07:00

awww... my god!!! why am i no:25?!?! so sad!!! i ran and ran k? now my feet got blisters liaoz.. :p and i had aimed for 17 initially, now? nothing, not even 18, 19 , 20.tian yu took my 17th position! oh, i think she deproves le, used to be top 10 de.. and crystal. yumei and ying rong, they were jogging. not like me, determined to win those kind, so end up they behind me. 35, 36 and no position respectively:p haiz, i feel very pitiful for myself! its juz 8, 8 positions!! ahh!! nvm. den mdm mak like bu shuang when minzhen not here and we collected her lucky draw prize for her. spoil my mood.. lolx! we went j8 to celebrate ldd's birthday, ate at swensens.i didnt order a meal, cos low budget,tnx jiayin!!(for sharing ur food with me) so nice of u ,haha:p anw,though there's some problem with the cake, but we enjoyed ourselves. i'm bz asking them wad songs to sing when i go kbox tmr! haha & we came up with 4 songlists, cool manz! i gg to the bridge near esplanade tml to view the spectacular fireworks!! oh, so romantic, aint it? haha! its a hot date with my family, yes! alright!! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL! I REALLY LOVE SINGAPORE, FOR IN HERE, I FOUND LOVE! MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS!! LUBLUB!!<3

2006-08-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

s.h.e-紫滕花
花缠绕的神情
悬秘
你像蒸发的背影
我垂坠的心情
摇曳
不出声音精彩没结局的戏
我们像不像电影
当看着我的人都散去
我才看见我自己
紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
最爱美的人
最难忘记
因为还留下梦境
最浪漫的人
最难清醒
不信谁无
情假如能像风和雨
一次又疏离又亲密
不问你不说的秘密
快乐会不会延续
紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
爱情在这么的故事别离
而是感动的回忆
让人很容易
站在原地
以为还回的去
紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘
紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话

2006-08-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

today, my geog test was ehh screwed?? cos i nv prepare for it. it was said last week take during reccess one lor, then cos the national day celebration was soo short, tch said got time to complete test lor.. walau, cham la. and wads more, i am the geog monitress!! so pai sei la.. i think s rashidah dun think of me that well le... how?? haiz..
a maths test was ok... ehh.. i dunno, i do qns very slow, then nv complete.. haha, today self-train, not bad, we train 1 person defence on half a court [ym's suggestion]:p we designed our jerseys too! haiya, dunno wad it looks like now, cos halfway, i go play piano le, heeheex! i still like fur elise very much, it has been my fave classical? since im kindergarden man! lolx! jiayin taught how to play another song piece, i like that too!! but at this stage , trying very hard to combine both left and right hand.
tml is x -country at turf city. first time running there, hope i wun lose juz cos i dunno my way.. :p haiz, i hope i have quite some speed together with my stamina. cum on, let me be top 20!! [top 17 better] and my no:tag is 387, haha, not bad. oo, u think i would be so lucky tom to win some attractive prizes away??? lol!
going celebrate ldd's belated bday tom at swensens at j8? or ps. my sis going back ai tong, but my tch resign le, soo.. shld i go? see first ba! wednesday go k box with my father and sisters! i better go search for some nice nice songs now, so i know wad to sing den;p thursday trg in school! and fri got clit test.. oh man, yang yi, you ust buck up k? enter hcjc with flying colours!!!! ganbatte!
haha, and recently i taught huilin jap, she's my baka sei ngaku,and i am her baka sensei:p haha! one day i niao her, taught her 'o so ku nat te su i ma sen!' [sorry for being late!] lolx! cos she always late de, den the other classmate learn jap in sec 1 de keep laughing, hahahahaaa;)

2006-07-28T13:12:00.000-07:00

ermm, im sorry everyone, cos i dampened ya mood, ruined ya day... my dao/bo song attitude must have pissed ya all. i m sorry. i dunno wad to say, i juz hope things could quickly go back to normal. i certainly missed the past times, when ym, crys, cr and me juz stick together and crap. we are slowly GETTING back to normal liao, so looking forward to that very day! :) and eehong, i think i really xia dao you that day, didnt i? lol, sorry to you too.. [ u know, i dun mind u bu chang-in :p, jk ]

say im selfish or wadeva, but keepin silent juz aint my forte;) i dun have dao nature. i hate it when my feelings were suppressed, then i would torture myself physically, like bouncing the ball hardly on the ground, den spike like mad, til at least one of my muscles was strained. :p weird gal huh? lol!

thank you yt for ya rA jokes, yr for ya very funny fan joke! ldd for walking with me to moelc, hy and sf and jy for asking if im fine, ym, crys and cr for waiting for me after trg, i appreciate that alot. :) seriously, i know i should be happy to have such supportive teammates. THANKS! and haha, still got zhen so nice to show concern, thx! and jiasin, being with you washed me of my troubles for awhile. i think thats the significance of best frens ba! ;) lets run nyjc some other day again! next time, i wanna sneak and see how their vballers train man! lol

finish with sry and thx, now my recent happenings! heeheex, long post, beware!
my recent test results, other than geog, which i surprisingly failed... these are my results:

c lit- 99 and 100 respetively

jap- 40/55=72.727273%

haha, i juz realised i know nth much abt my results le! hmmm, i think my chem would be quite good ba? i slp for oni 3 hrs juz to study that leh, then my e maths, ehhh, okok ba.. i wrote a rather nice cl compo recently, i hope it wasnt out of pt like wad coach said:p performance in trg wasnt good. took 3 sets to finish spiking 15 balls.

and after so long, i haven announce that im moving house! yup, if everything goes alrite, i shld be moving to malaysia this dec hols... lol, kidding la, not malaysia, ang mo kio. it was a 4 storey tall building, walau, i first time stay in this kind of building lor. but nvm, cos the interior design is totally like a condo, hehheh, that environment i am familiar with:p

and i really hope/ wants things to change for the better. i dun wan be a lonely gal! :p so guys, tok to me, lol! mooncake festival juz suddenly struck my mind, haha, well, i wish upon the moon to see us close and bonded by that day:) :) :)

2006-07-24T21:16:00.000-07:00

IM
DUMB.

MY EYES FLOOD FOR THIS REASON. I ASKED MYSELF WHY IM SO DUMB TIL I FELL ASLEEP EVERYDAY. WHY? WHY AM I A RETARD?! AND I FEEL IM PART OF THE GROUP COS IM ALWAYS THE BUTT OF JOKES. WHY? I EVEN BECAME THE FIRST PERSON MY JNRS WOULD LIKE TO TRICK. I HAD SPLIT HEADACHE EVERYDAY, AND I FEEL LIKE PUKING TODAY, I THINK I AM SICK, MY BEST FRIEND SAID 'XIN BING'. I HATE THE ME NOW, A LOT A LOT. IM SORRY, I HADNT MEAN TO KEEP QUIET, JUZ, I DUNNO WAD TO TALK ABOUT. I CANT EVEN HAVE A PERSON TO TOK TO! I FEEL IF I SAY, IM WILL ONLY BE A NAG, HURTING OTHERS EARS, AND I BETTER SHUT UP. I THINK I AM MAD NOW. I HATE MY ATTITUDE PROBLEM, I HATE MY RECENT TEMPER. I FEEL LIKE COMMITING SUICIDE. SEE, IM SO DUMB, DYING ISN'T THE SOLUTION, YET I FEEL LIKE DYING. WAD AN IDIOT!

2006-07-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

this term, wad i saw were weeks flying past, counting down a few more weeks to find myself stuck in a busy scheduloe of tests almost everyday... its feels good to see weekends coming soon, but its just so scary that im actually drawing closer to o lvls exam dates!!! STRESS according to congrui who spoke to kailin, hcjc cut off point is 3 pts!! oh how?! how am i to be able to achieve such remarkable results?! i decided to work hard, despite congrui's disencouragement. the environment from us, o lvls, are simply i feel, way too incondusive and non-competitive. perhaps i am the competitive sort, but i defintely work better with more enthusiastic people. guys, pls... DONT SLACK!! i was doing my maths hw silently for 45 mins doing cl lesson today, when i suddenly exclaimed to brenda, "we are wasting time, how?!" and brenda laughed, said i was random. ya, true, oni when i feel like sharing my personal stuff, will i go deep into topic. otherwise, everything is just on the surface, and you see the super lame me... back to where i was toking, maths hw in cl class, why? cos my classmates all cant be bothered by cl, esp cl tcher.i work better, doin hw and listen attentively in class, multitask is not a problem, i dunno how to say, issit sad or infuriating that others all juz shut their ears on him? those china male tchers arepoor things.. this scenario is obviously not the only lesson when students have poor conduct, so does it scream at us to recognise and acknowledge the major problem we o lvl pple are facing now?!?! not tryin tobe ms hardworking here, but i feel strongly the need for a large motivation to motivate us, to make us more kiasu, more initiated!!! if pple only tot of going to vjc, acjc cos they have high cutoff pts and ny gals sure can get in easily.. hey! why not strive a little harder and aim for better jcs, like hcjc, rjc, njc?? this whole shit abt the o lvls not having a condusive, competitive environment is driving me crazy.
yes, x-country on 8 august and im a competitor!! i think i oni have ying rong to run together with me this time round.. training!! recently, i jog one big round to the bp park connector whenever i am free. if there's no enuf time, i do arm trg or crunches.. sudden burst of energy, maybe cos we dun haf proper trg for 2 wks, and its another 2 wks [which makes a month] w/o trg!! i aim top 20 for x- country.
jia sin san, watasi tachi wa ganbarete hiki you nan desu ne!! ;)
ytd, went silver centre at toa payoh lorong 8? at peichun there to accompany the old folks there. i go 'show off'' my hokkien, lolx!
this morning, i keep feeling like puking, cos my bus 154 like got pple vomit earlier den dried or wad. the place i standing got a terrible stench and i keep looking ard to see if i step on anything gross anot. terrible! even after flag raising, i still feel like puking.
walau, i damn pissed off at shermaine la, i lent her my calculator, im being so kind, and i had to take trouble to find it, [cos she said put under my desk, but its not there], got to trouble seeting, then worst of all, the calculator i found(i hadnt wan to admit its mine) has ugly spastic drawing on it!! who the hell is being so inconsiderate lah! its others properties leh!!arghh... immediately i sulked. i think some clasmates knows my temper now:p
wadeva, tom c lit test, next mon got e maths test, wed got chem test, sat got last MO trg. Yang Yi jia you ba!!!

2006-07-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

wai sai, after 2 weeks of missing my blog, im back again! and haha, im glad i returned with good news in a damn good mood!!! keeping my promise, i only blog after oral, and yes, it was juz awhile ago when i was still in the room talking to two tchers, but now, im free! relieved! i said quite well ba, since the tchers nv asked me any xtra qns.. and i seriously think the tchers like wad i said. heh heh, worth celebrating!!! and of cos, i wunt forget to thx all for jia yous and good good best luck you all had given me!!! im very touched! esp when my teammates, all of them wish me luck, help me by lending me notes, hair clips, offering me tips, it was a lot of mental encouragement i had received. jiasin nv say good luck, haha cos i noe she will secretly wish for me de!!! my dad and sis too!! i wunt disappoint you all de! yes, and i feel im one step closer to hcjc!! i muz nv forget!! xie xie hou lao shi, nin de li liang!! ;) im realli grateful to him man, these two weeks, he's been helpin me with oral and for once, im realli impress at his unique and logical thinking. and im the first 12th for oral :p
ytd's soccer match vs jnrs+greg goh, yumei passed a nice ball across the field and i kicked it with no hestitation, and cool! i scored!! ole ole ole! huiying can be a good goalkeeper;) these two days left me with a tot: it was a close and nice bond shared by our team, snrs ourselves and snrs +jnrs. i love this team alot. the feeling was esp strong when we played fribee ytd.
even earlier then this, i had been quite temperamental. easily irritated, agitated. and super lonely like a loner. cos, i dun tok, others dun too. hahahaa! how was msn-in with only emoticons? lolx! some guys have a taste of it:p haiya, haiya. youth day that day i pms la.. i dunno why, but i was really really disappointed, sad. i dunno wad get into me!!! i ask myself wad's wrong? nth! juz that all the pple u noe, coach, junwei, teammates, hci vballers, pri schoolmates, my jap sensei nv come to my stall and play oni wad... and, to all, this was reallie wad i thought, so u could have guess how :( i was. i apologised for my daoness, i think i juz wanna be ren4 xin4 then:p
not tok abt sad stuff, shall we? lolx! this one whole week had been busy. i had at least 4 tests. kind of well-managed ba. and trg, it was alrite. i like my spiking more and more! when i spike, i take note i hit with the top part of my palm, 'thats how the europeans play'-junwei said. to hazel, i feel empathy and yet i wish you also know yaself that coach only made u spike individually cos she see potential in u and wan u to bring it out. jia you! tolerate and pin le!!! :)
is this all i have to comment? haiz, jia sin said my blog load slow, so i shall end here!! cya

2006-06-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

there, presenting all my blog after its extreme makeover!!! yes, aint it nice?? long ago wan to change skin le, from jap anime blogskin to now this hand in hand blogskin. may seem abit or perhaps too girlie, but hahahaa, i like it cos of the 'hand' basically. lol! weird hor? but i very young dat time at night always hold my dad's hand to sleep de, so i like the warmth of a big hand!!!! :p yeah, wanna thank my shifu and jyun(most of all) for givin total help with changing my blogskin. yes, and i do hope more pple come to tag my blog since now, its damn fast to load rite! rite?! HAHAHA!

ehh yup, visited my shifu hse for the second time [*ahem, is sumone jealous?:p] anw, i can be guide and bring ahem there next time le! firstly, there's a unique overhead bridge which signals u to get down the bus 963, then walk blk 164???[gosh, i 4get!], den go 15 floor, den super nice unit no: cos its 15-51, which adds up to.... 12 !!!! yes! lol, next time pple mob my shifu hse le:p but nvm la, shifu's mother very friendly, she super like jia yun la:p nvm, i make sure my shifu teng me more than jyun can le! ;)jyun use brute force to force pple to like him one lo, ehh, wad abt auntie den?? :p we played uno and dai dee in shifu's room lo, i win twice continuously for uno and daidee! come on, dun underestimate me, i m gambling queen;) durin uno, i win le but they forfeit me cos i nv say 'uno game', so i took 2 cards lo, all no:1, diff colour. den after jyun turn is my turn, jyun put no:1, so right after another round, i won! hehheh, no one's gonna change my luck man! on winnin streak! daidee won with 2 full hse and big single cards! yup, shifu treat us to jap snacks, i tried this mochi on stick with soya bean powder on it. theres doreamon's tong luo shao!! but we nv eat that. then theres a purple pill, the jap kanji, which looks like chinese words, seems to say this pill tests for acidity, den shifu say is sweet la. den i read the jap hiragana words, siao! its tabe ralemasen[ do not eat!!] lol! hmm, shifu pia maple lor. after dealin my blogskin, we left kl hse lor. i late for my appointment with my orthodics lah! den kl, jyun nd jyin went to eat sponge at suntec! :) my reccommendations

thurs skip class meeting and help my grandpa with his veg garden. i was happy with my decision, though somehow, pple kinda oni give credits to my sis. so unfair!

ytd was my grandma bday eve, booked 3 tables at seafood international at east coast there. know how blur i am, dunno if thats where we have our combined chalet.. yeah, wad a feast, we had fish, sells, crab, prawns and a mango mosse cake from breadtalk! most of all, i had 4? big glass of red wine from south africa. ard 4 cos the last glass topple some on me thanks to my sis la. and big glass cos look more sei ma! i think in 1 attempt i tried to finished of my red wine, den my face went red and hot, haha, but im still clear minded;) yeah, good day after all!

ah ma, sheng ri kuai le!!

2006-06-22T00:20:00.000-07:00

oh, i think my lastest was kinda solemn issit??i really was like xin tong lor, not imitating eehong's writin style k :p

today trg i went at 11 am. went to spike against wall as told by junwei so i can learnt my inner and outer spike. anw, today, junwei damn sad, shi lian twice, by ahem and ahem. den he lunch also dun wan eat. i scared this kind of guy de lor, very scary leh.. den like so desperate, ask me like him not so many times, then i huh? or 'touch wood' lo:p accidentally ball hit him also means dun like him, hahaa! i think i make his specs wai leh, oops! i know it muz have hurt alot alot. but walau, he know them for like the most 1 yr lor, need so xin tong meh?? haiya, i know pain cant be measured, but definitedly theres pple out there who suffered more yrs de lo.. junwei jiayou ba! study for ya mid yr now la!! and maybe its the last time u train with us le, i wanna thank u for correcting all my faults in my skills and teachin me optionals ways of spiking to prevet being blocked, blockin methods, i think u taught someone else ba. ya, and my serving too, i will try make my ball smooth and strainght and deadly!! though this few trg did somehow make me zibei, but durin match i can see my self improve!! fangin qiu was damn shuang! hehheh, thx for taking the effort to watch the video and focus on how i spike for 3 hrs til u had nightmare of me juz to think of ways to block my balls! i think that day i muz be damn on form;) yes, and the spray too, though its with jiao lian now... xie xie ni, my snr. ats pple 4eva yin sui si yuan! cheer up:D
lol, i like thomas setting!!!!! ahhh, omg! at first i cant spike properly lor, but coach ask him to adjust for me[actaully is coach pro lor, know my way of spiking] den thomas/jie xiang quickly change his settin to suit me!! cool! and of cos i spike awesomely!! ;) den thomas mumbled sth to me whicj i nv heard properly, i think he asked is that set ok. lol, this jnr of mine now in amk play setter,damn pro, gai qiu(note* not fang qiu lo)super sei! and he's shuai. crys they askin why he not my snr, is my jnr.. hahaa
yes, and i tot i did alfred/shao yang, this another cute jnr of minesth good! cos i let him spike when we da fang. i saw him keep peerin over the cout beside where the scs train their spikin. he stunned lo, everyone will be amazed de, so upon seein his burnin desire to spike, i hit high for him lo. and told him to spike hard! see, i this snr so nice, where to find! so encouraging;) den my ball wanna row to scs court, yt wanna pick, i said wait, then yt pick up an rolled it into their court la!! wa! lol, den i ran totheir court and picked it lor. dun really dare see their faces. ohoh, henry and the others came that time, me and crys were hopin ard like mad la. den we actually wan to spike de, in the end, i dun wan, we all dun wan, dun malu in front of the pros. haha! i think the way we hope ard muz be damn obvious huh, crys? :p
thanks my snrs, junwei and siling, jnrs, alfred, darryl/ yi long, thomas!
ehh, i haven sell any of my fun fair tics leh, shit la , how?!!

2006-06-16T17:50:00.000-07:00

醒悟。shaken up to face with reality, the scary situation i am in. im afraid. have i been trying to escape from my problem in the past? or am i too young to understand it? in whichever way, im told of this problem again, it dawned on me that i have a problem yet to be solved. slash down hard on me, like a wip..pain. my heart's in pain. i had been in total ignorance! i had been having fun all these while, i have not grown up, grow to become sensible. why? because i had led a way better life than others, a spoiled child??
i had to change, for an even better future, for myself, for my family. i have to settle down and study hard, just bear with books a few more years, and i can harvest my fruit of labour, share my joy with others.. life would not be a torture then, i could clinch a good job, get a good salary, give my parents huge allowance and i still have lots to spend!
it will be a sharp turn in life, yet i should bear all hardships.. i shall be serious with work, volleyball is no less of importance, but im going to cut down on outings, cut down on spending. it would mean less laughter now, hopefully, i don't crease to become all alone. a practical target, L1R5 less than 12 points.

accompany me on this short arduous journey, for this, i repay you, my gratitudes and invite you to share my achievements:)结醒。醒悟也得做种了结。。。

2006-06-14T22:03:00.000-07:00

wow! today's 4hrs of cip cum trg was really tiring. we all stink:p well, coach ask junwei to video us coaching the ats students, everything muz arrange nice nice first, lolx! but anw, i think coaching to me is every trg's routine, so no diff. its always a high sense of achievement to see the students i coach improve juz during the session!! ruirui motions his legs le, and the gal bends her knees le! yupyup! im a vball mobile theory coach;) naggy? dunno. all ats vballers, maybe the past batch, everytime if rain, we went hall to write the way of serving and da fang. so haiya, look at me and junwei, i dunno abt yilong and ruiyong, but lol, we are typical ats vballers; telling pple the dist betw the hand and the body cannot be more than the width of a vball unless its meant to hit high up, etc. oh man, ytd self train, spike at wall 30++mins plus today's spiking, my arm damn pain. wanna spike properly also cannot. actually, have i ever spike properly?? junwei says my arm quite stiff.. oh and spinning plus got sound ball =good ball, lol, simple weird theory.. yea, anw, he gave me this relieve pain spray, its freeze dunno wad de, according to jiao lian, its way better than salonpus spray, den she borrowed it to tell the ats student to buy that brand lor. its available at guardian. yea, not bad, when coach return to me liao, i shall share with the team!! yes, we shall have a better spray;) yes, i think today me and yt/crys da fang with yilong was good. of cos, firstly, my jnr was good:p but i like my defence!!! haha. spiking ball defence not bad ba.. yt defence not bad leh, got praised by junwei;) walau, he torture king, super like fang qiu. k, today durin match, i spike sideway, avoid junwei's block, and guess wad?!?! he says i finally clever le?! wad the world is saved?! walau, stupid stupid. im not dumb ok! bleh :p okok, say the part i most pissed off now! stupid la, the 100 plus and h2o drink spilled on my bag.. shit hell, and i screamed. i really screamed. i hate it la. stupid. idiot!! next time pple dun buy drink the best:p wadeva, forget it! next time i place my bag on the bench. erchh~! i hope to comment on ats vball team standard now. basisally, the guys and jnr gals are sure top 4. i might even say top 3. xiao liu mang's qiu gan is esp good, though she dun really have the height, she can intercept a first ball gg over to the opp team, causin the opp team to be stunned. omg, im stunned too! p4 oni, so clever! snr gals, i hope they zhu zhi more, hit more balls to setter position lor. but den again, ats overall is damn good. coach says better than ny.. nevertheless, im very proud of my own jnrs. jiayou o, aitong school all e way! eh, australia apple ring is chewy like rubber??? lol, okok ba, taste sweet. "oh me, oh my, the billabong bag of mine!" rmb p4 we learn from pets coursebk sth abt sickness one? 'oh me, oh my, this great big head of mine" hahaa.. walau, 33 bucks out and money for food haven refund.. i think my billabong bag is gone!!! oh.. oh.. im very sad!!! my god, i wan to cry out now.. den i work 18 hrs, and nv buy anything to reward myself!!! eee, i super sad now:(

2006-06-11T16:03:00.000-07:00

ok, where do i date back from???:p
tuesday i slacked at home?? nv went out ba?
wednesday, hci match with nyjc. oh, but im gonna say abt wad happen in the mornin first. supposed to go do el project with pam. so we walked from dhoby ghaut to art museum. it took us 1 hr 10mins?!?!?! crazy yall may think, i think so too:p we walked a big round. ever since we crossed the road at princep rd, we were torturin our own legs.. we went to national museum, then the security guard told us we need walk further down. so we do as said. came to national philathetic museum, ( some stamp museum), then walkin up a little to registries of marriage??? weird rite? den call my dad for help. pam called her mom. when walk and walk, walk to some ntuc building, and then find our way. 1 whole round about smu. imagine smu structure la! crazy. lucky i got train when i worked, stand for 10++ hrs, 1+ hr is nth. took pics of almost all the art pieces at the ground floor. then at the second floor get warned by guard. heck, i still tell pam to continue takin, who cares. but pam very guai de, abide by rules, so in de end use hp took pic.. pam dunno how to transfer the pic.. haiz.. prob is we need that in our ppt cos we, unfortunately, doin on that art piece.. nvm. i dun like the museum cos it dun have wads that? shit forget the word now, i cant sms at all la. call also no use.. and i even went all the way out to the roadside le, still no network! then at 1, 1 gallery on the second floor, i see this woman tokin on her hp, i was amused for a while, den sms again le. pple noe my speed de, i sms damn slow, so i didnt sms much:p haiya, museum veri cold, den we decided to leave. saw rosline and jamie they all. oni rosline in school u. den walk our way back to dhoby ghaut. had my lunch, went to hougang hall. takin my own sweet all the while. i tot from there take purple line should be damn fast. aiya, i jiu shi like dat de, til last min den noe i late:p got off the mrt and saw yonglin. so funni, we all xia dao each other. i alight the mrt, then lookin at my hp, saw this familiar figure flash past, den like stop and see, den i look, he looked back, lol, xia dao, then he ran off. late liao le la! i suggest yall team had lunch together, den leave as team easier! like wad our team does;) i super amazed at yonglin's speed. i wait for the bus like 4 mins the most, den i was thinkin why yonglin so ahem dumb to not wait and choose to run. the hall is near but one big round leh. waste energy, and cannot garantee faster than bus. i start imagine my bus drive past him, lol! walau, but when my bus reachin the hal busstop, i looked into the hall was surprised yonglin there already!! walau, hci train speed run not bad sia?? cool!
anyway, hci match startin soon, so settle down quickly. ooo, again i muz say kiral on form the most dat day! serving can also score several points for hci! zhen hao li hai!! hahahaa i was super ji dong, i think the gals sittin beside me tot im crazy, bleh, u think i care?:p haha! but im not as ji dong as hci vs jurong east match. zhongyin wasted this ball! haiz. i veri veri happy after 1 set. look! the score was 25 to 15. at least 15!! see the power of warm-ups now?? seriously, im seriously happi, ask jiayin. second set first part quite luan, to me la. cos jia yun was playin zhugong position, den i think he dunno zhugong position well given that kind of situation. comp leh, not trg. darren went up for the last few scores. i think crys, jiayin they all more excited than me la, lol! basically, i feel and jiayin feel too[why i keep sayin jyin cos i sit near her la, den tok ma] that its good to let reserves play maybe the last set or wad. cos i think everyone needs to be given a chance to get the experience of bein on court. who noes, touch wood, this main player injure or not on form, reserves are very impt! guo lai ren, so i know. ats my pri school, the main 6 always feel that reserves shouldnt get the trophy.. (we always top 4 de:p) den jiao lian will scold them. w/o reserves who trg with the main players?! walau, tok of the past, damn sad de la, ask xinyi my ldd, and she will agree i wasnt very shou huan ying by the team. i worked up de lor, p4 learnt, p5 reserve, p6 main. its a process lor, so reserves mux jiayou, who noes one day u outshine the main players, and also main players, we need to realise the importance of reserves, and den pull up everyones physical strength and skills, note, this is to be done as a team. jyin says "one improve isnt useful, the whole team needs to improve" of cos, vball, a team sport we are tokin abt here, everything revolves ard the team. ok. stop here. did i side track? nvm, i hope i highlight some points here.
shuqun damn pro. their setter and sub set, henry!! lolx ! no:12! yeah, no:12 all so pro:p did yall see their shadow spike? awesome! henry i svery pro, very calm, very agile, spikin very meng. yea, shuqun malay setter is mei hua shuo. i think all players wan him to set for them! crys the racist say he cute summore, so wads more to say?! haha
thenits dunman 8 playin nyjc no: 12!! another pro guy! lolx! this one me and yumei agree! ;)
comin up, zhenghua 12!! haha, yngtyng says he is her uncle, called junyong? ? lolx! he play zhong for voleibol. performance though not as good as their spiker. siao,their spiker is xiong! and if henry is meng, he will be twice the meng-ness liao!!! thunder!! chao sei! i think their libero very cute! crys say i very extreme cos i like dunman 8 den this voleibol 8. one tall , one short. diff wad, the body build etc.. :p
tok abt vball guys, remind me of punggol 10, eeyer!! stupid sun wu kong way of lookin. chao guai can? yumei imitate super funni! destroy monkey god image la...
den zj, kiral, ym, crys, cr, yt and me went compass point, leave jiayin alone to watch finish st hilda match with voleibol. voleibal this name very funni la, like jap like that, but obviously not jap,like act clever like dat.. its bareeboru lo:) yeah, dinner at kfc, zj fave. den zj send ym home. we went shoppin lor. suddenly eehong called all the way from aus not to find kiral but crys o! crys o! haha, gao xin dao over the moon le! physically k, crys face zhen gone red. den later the 3 pple start to piggyback each other. haha! i missed part of my da chang jin la, so sad.. nvm:p

yup, on sun at 12+ am, cr called me to join them for kite flyin. so i say gg after i go k box with my sisters lor. i like k box!! so do my 2 sis and jia sin. all dou shi i intro them de it de:p sang da she dou first of all. i think the song veri cute!! excited to see how the mv looks like too. quite ok ba. then i record chorus of energy yan lei de wei dao. this song makes me sad de la, remind me of sad stuff, but i got this chong dong to record it, so record lor. why when de mv so nice, its so sad to me? lyrics not that sad too wad, haiz.. bleh! ok, so went shop for fathers day stuff, since we 3 sisters all come out together. went mark and spencer to buy chocalates. decided on this tub of chocolate fingers, sounds so freaky, but haiya, choc sticks lor. i insist the price have to be above 10 bucks. so the choc sticks cost ard 15 bucks? yes, i hope the tub can last til fathers day den my dad can stay happy til den. the present will be an early one, since theres no place to hide it:p sry cr, i was thinkin u are rather pissed, cos yall all waitin for me to fly kite, i tot yall started le... :p so went there with my sis. my sis tail me. i tell her keep a distance, den i tell jyin oni my sisters followin, she turn back and seriously xia dao, cos she saw noone!!! lol! hahaha, sorry cap.. my sis went off later anw.. sei, shifu and jh each scored a strike! zj actions zui biao zun, yet somhow crys is the champion, haha! hmm, went to play daytona later. cr got 1st for the second game! win my shifu! i got 6th lor both times, out of 7 and 8 pple respectively. they wanna go ice skate. walau, i dun wan go malu myself, need learn first, so refuse to go. went shenton way in the end. walk for like 20 mins? ya, kl treat us to chilled choc bananas coated with peanuts chunks, yumyum, so nice! next time i wan try the strawberry liao! went long john at marina square for dinner. spittin ice with shifu very fun, shifu teach me how to spit!!! lolx! shifu offered to buy ice cream for me de, not nv buy for jyin, but she sick la. lol, jyin was sayin shifu got when say treat nv treat de? true, my shifu is veri nice!!! since super long time ago! ok. so i create a song for them. so cute! but kl dun understand, jyin like very serious like dat, so not fun... bleh:p ok la. shall end here.byee!
need pia hols hw...

2006-06-06T15:09:00.000-07:00

this post dates back to last day of school:p im hosting pri students for smbo[ spore malaysia bilinguil olympiad]. in charge of nan hua. interact more with the guys cos i had to bring the lecture 1 to hear some melvin lim teacher from hci to promote hci. ms francis wong of nan hua bring the gals to audi lor. i learnt much about hci's facilities. they gonna have this mock parliament and science research centre. they got SAC too! then tok abt slc, obs, blah blah lor. then ny teacher tok crap la, wad 'yi xiao bu' stupid duckling story, xian chang zhi bo from the audi, dotz la, the volume so soft, visibility so poor... noone pay attention, especially me and my grp:p haha, play vball with teddybear like mad. chao funny! then they given paper to write their troubles and how abt they are going to resolve it. they say they dunno wad to write, so i tell them their trouble is to have to write this kind of lame stuff, and they write!! haha, i bad influence, nvm. then i tell them reslution is tell the teacher dun give this kind of ws, they wrote too! haha, so zai! :p then after lunch, two of the nanhua students get top 30 lor. one guy called zhou shi cheng, wa, issit same name as our ny one? lolx! clap loudly for him lor! this gal i get to know better durin the finals is so re qing. when leaving, i say bye, they nv hear, so i say, "wa, nv say bye de, so rude" haha, and the next thing she did was hug me. so sudden lol! yeah, i wanna write the guys and the gal name here! Dennis chu qi xi (very cute guy, remind me of wincoln, haha), zhou shi cheng(prize winner), eugene lim ye jun( funny rite? the cl name like total translation:p), ling xin chuan( cos of his sirname, he call himself 'ling' bei, lol!,wa, the gal i know her christian name oni, but the name list i have now nv write, so i dunno which gal leh, either ching jiayun, or huang xiao ting. yeah, end of fri:p

sunday, went ying house to make jap jelly and cheesecake. cheesecake specially make for jiayin. wa, ying maid keep looking at me handle with the sugar after i asked her how much sugar to add la, hai me dun dare put too much, in the end, the jelly not sweet enuf:p:p haha, nvm, the texture is good though;) preparing food at ying's house is very condusive!!! hahahaa!

mon, c lit lesson til 5pm, nv go biking with the team at costa sands, and even had ying to wait for me 1 hr.. sorry lei, ying! hmm, then ying mum's very nice, she brought calnifornia roll for us! at downtown east there lost our way, then finally found our way. congrui and yumei went fetch us! they bbqin le. oh man ohm an, i wanna blog abt lydia, eh, shes mine!!! hahahaha, all the zhugong i like de:p lydia the man! first time bbq chao pro liao. aluminium foil got burnt then stamp on it! haiya, of cos not oni dat la, but her dressup make her look very pro liao, like some obs instructor?? hui bu hui xiang? now that i say?? yeah, i made very nice tepanyaki chicken! butter or chocolate sauce!! hahaha, eh, and im serious k?:p lol. i like jnrs cos they very warming, they will pull you to join them, like ting shan pull me to listen to ghost story. i damn scared de la! terriyaki chicken ghost story, lolx! jnrs damn cute k? seriously! ahh i like soo much though they also pick on my gullibility, and make fun of me:p haha! we snrs ma, play truth and truth, ee, i dun like the atmosphere, everytime like so serious, then so as not to scare me to tears, crys they tactic ask me bit by bit, but bleh, i hardly kana pick they picture card:p haha, all things said was to be kept known among the pple there oni. slept at 4 on first day. we played silly cards too! like who was the sexiest snr? congrui issit??? haha, then we also have jnr and guys team de. some things are really fated de hor, jia yin:p:p haaha! woohoo, escape was fun, we went morning and night! we change partners all the time so we can 'bond' well! haha! wow! i like pepsi alot, and go kart, viking, the spray water tube, and last but not the least, the team's fave, rainbow!!!!!! very fun! we wear our fbts lower then keep sliding from one side to the other! to end our day at escape, we took the spinning chairs, forget its name le, i took with crys, yumei and congrui, watching the stars as u go in circles was splendid, esp when u have ya frens with u! oh, crys was damn brave, haunted house i went in with her, next time i go there, i think i will still cry de, cos there will be more pple to scare me, that day went like at 745, so oni one worker left:p shared ice kachang with jia yin! i dun like the ice, like the red bean! and jia yin is opp, so juz nice! third day morning, everyone watch in amaze as i do chinese dance work outs, wad la, those workouts they also got do b4 de ma:p so now im famous for my legs splitting and xia yao... lolx! but i like the atmosphere that morning! the curtain werent drawn and the light at the top of the bed was on, we juz lay there, slack there and listen to music on cr, yt, crys hp. i post a 10 mins short post! but publish it 6 times:p hahahaha

sleep half the day off. on the bus to crys house and at crys house. tot i slept with jiayin alot of times, haha! first night, third day morning and now affernoon too. shifu yao eyes red le!! :p yumei tot i very dao, so keep askin i ok not. nah, tired oni. off we go to hougang mall for lunch before watching the guys play match against cat high. saw kiral at kfc, so he joined us for lunch. then we walked to the sports hall.at the canteen saw jingyi, my ex teammate at aitong, played oni 1 or 2 yrs oni, then quit le, now back at vball again and qiu gan still very good! is no 10 spiker of cat high! i very xin wei when i see him playin vball again, i know his passion for vball haven die, oh man, i wanna cry liao, vball is so attractive huh??? then of the cat high under 19 main team, 3 is from ats de, 2 of my jnrs there, they damn strong de, cos p6 they first time won ats a national champion leh!! lolx! im proud of them! hci arh, make me wanna vomit blood, tell them warm up, they say warm up le, the hall very hot, xiexie ar, shifu.. walau, i believe yall warmup sure can score better de lor. at least more than 15 rite???

thurs got c lit lesson, pon cos overslept, then tell my fren i stomachache, walau, the later in the atfternoon, flu like hell, its always wrong to lie:p hiaz..

fri, yeah! finally done with the 12 hrs of c lit lessons! then rush to hougang. act pro walk my way to crys house when crys at hall walkin to busstop to fetch me... :p walau, kiral keep teasing me la:p then wait for my apple pie for ard 3 mins:p then walk back to hall. jh they haven come! and noone did warmup again, walau!!! get tingshan go tell them, tell me go slp, fine lor, jurong east is damn strong, and can foresee hci gonna get trashed liao. yea, and it is.. so sad rite??? me and jiayin were very scared, dunno why, pure anxious. crys yumei they proer, halfway support jurong east le:p lolx! that day tot hci coach putting reserves up, but nv. eh, shifu! u nv tok on bus damn scary leh!!! dun make jiayin scared! :p hehheh, but nvm, with me ard for dinner, i think i can easily make pple laugh. like my bunch of bananas at home. :p lolx! so stupid la, on the way home in the bus, cr and i chattin on phone when i was at the back of the bus and she and zj at the middle section:p i get down the bus then zj called my name, lolx! so 'qiao'! damn weird and funni. im glad zj also nv really very sad ater that match.

yo, hci vballers, i hope yall can spike jiu spike, dun keep fang qiu, for those pple u are playin with, its super easy for them lor. u spike at least they block and maybe touch out leh. u fang they zhu zhi, den spike at yall... kiral fang still ok, zijie can spike de!! have the ability wad, dun waste;) dun serve out, thats the basic, dun touch net, totally unneccessary, dun qiang qiu lor, need to call names. spike spike spike! hci jiayou! all the way man!

ok, then sat and sun i workin at suntec pc exhibition. working for cannon, give out flyers lor. alot of pple, tens of thousands is possible lor, i think. walau, i oni have lunch at 6pm! nvm. then crya, cr and kiral very nice to come visit me!! haiya, my wallet keychain broke liao, thanks to cr, lol, but nvm la:p kiral very nice, treat us to ben and jerry. then these 3 pple shua me again, crys la, say got wad helicopter service from suntec, today first day. then kiral say from suntec to orchard. den i very excited cos i like noe better my way home from orchard ma, stupid, bluff me again. why i cant tell between truth and lies ar??? stupid la! i so nice trust pple, they like that:p my muscle very suan now, namely my calves, my arm and neck. i slept at one o'clock lor. cos went home late, bath then hair wet how to slp.. so kelian, hard earn money k, not easy at all. i get 60 bucks per day. work 9 hrs, so extra 6 bucks for this 1 hr that i nv work:p yes, i wanna go get my billabong bag soon!! addidas recent design not very nice leh.. ohohoh! i wanna complain abt this auntie here! stupid la! i damn piss at her lor. cos the pple who give flyers form a line at the escalator, then when one person take a flyer, we throw (note, we really throw:p) the flyers into their hands lor. so the flyers form a pile. then this auntie very bu shuang, then i so innocent, i stand at the back of the line oni, then she toss the flyers all on me. im sayin 'no no!', but wadeva, she jux tossed, and i keep sayin 'wad the hell wad the hell" . ten the other pple who give flyers at first like walau pity me, then they start to burst out laughing. esp this asac guy. stop liao, see me den laugh. den stop, see me again, laugh again. at night, mention abt the customers, mention abt me, then say i poor thing, then laugh again:p wad cani do, juz smile lor, hahahaa... i saw jiasin at the exhibit! so nice to see mygood fren there, chat awhile lo. yes, the asistant of the head in charge ask me if im interested in being a promoter!!! sell cameras! cool man! my sis sell warrantee oni jiu can earn 700 bucks liao, cameras even more commission la!!! oh man! i shall sms him one day if im free, yeah!!!

monday! went to zj house when he invite me online, juz change outfit and off i went le. 1 bus jiu reach le, super fast. yumei say she moe house le. seriously im wondering if she lied to me. and i 70% doubt her words:p lolx! play vball and monkey and badminton with zirou. zj mom ordered pizza for us. we left his house ard 6pm, then my grandparents they not at home!! i got no key, so since i missed jiayun's call in the afternoon, jiu shun bian call him and say me, crys and cr gg his house le! haha, so bu ke qi! then we on the bus saw zj and yumei who wantd to shuai us! haha. this grp of malay gals on the bus were damn scary. cr say they lookin at usissit? then me and ctys turn to see them then they start laughin, cr start laughin and the grp of gals laughed even louder. this kind scenario i super scared de. then jiayun called to say he at busstop le, i was whisperin how scary these pple were, and they echo me la. wheni hung up th ephone, i realise one gal put her arm ard my seat!!! ah!!!! damn scary!! i was like swallowin hard liao. den quickly left my seat. and they also get down the same busstop as us!! eew!! my god. i rmb this time too, when i went home late, then these grp of guys they kicked a beer can on the grd then the can flew over me and the contents like spill a little on me, so me and this auntie were like starin at them, for at least 5 secs, then i walk two steps, pissed then start running, walau, they chased after me, so scary la, i ran up the stairs lor! totally disgusted by these pple one lo, bleh! anw, as soon as we heard wincoln and kalun at jiayun house, when totally forget wad happenin the bus and startto get hyped. ok, i think u can say wincoln oni is enuf to make us happy, esp crys:p i still got shifu de xin de:) yea, so i learn to skate for 5 mins, fell 4 times, sian.. im not such a failure right??? haiz.. sorry arh, jiayun, i know i step on ya toes twice:p walau, i next time wunt laugh at eehong le:p play vball at jiayun house too, but the lights too dim, cant see well. kl was scarin cr with his spike oni, den the ball hit the grd, bounce up and hit cr head, the next thing the guys do was damn funni, they so happy til they hold hands and star t to merry go round, so high achievements sia?? lolx, they very funny la. then back at his house, the guys play wad chinese chess then i juz see and cryand cr bz smsin lor. then cr was filmin wincoln and wincoln very silly de look into her camera like thrice?? lolx! then everytime he turn, cr zoom in even more, then the face bigger and bigger! haha! he tot she videoin jiayun lor! i realise these two guys dun like be mistaken as each other? lolx. i was askin jiayun where to put the socks then ahem, ask dao wincoln, lolx! haiya,and cannot say wincoln very dark, cos he very sad le!!! haha! lol, my team feng wincoln le lor, rmb match with cat high, he spike, suddenly all of us nyvballers start clappin hands, haha!

yeah, today juz slack lor. giving my blog extreme makeover! ok, end here. jiayun, find ya longest post and compare with this 4 hrs post of mine! ;) eh, ice-skatin is postpone, walau, if i nv learn my skatin properly, i go there sure malu myself:( so sad so sad.. ok, tom guys match, jiayou le! aim for 15 and above k? best luck!:D

2006-05-30T19:53:00.000-07:00

hello, posting a very short post here!! chartered bus coming in 10 mins time!!!
anw, chalet was very fun!! we played cards til 4 am, believe it or not??!!! haha, jiayin was so fated with n0: 8, yumei and no:10!!! lolx.! so i was 1 lame snr askig my jnrs and teammates weird questions:p haha!
we went to escape, pepsi was fun. spam rainbow man!!! then at viking got this super freaky guy. keep looking at the lady in charge la. and he kept on playin non stop! we suggested to the lady to be in charge of pepsi!! so he play til puke man!!!! lolz! yeah! i went go kart twice! second time, i meng, overtake 2 pple

2006-05-23T21:17:00.000-07:00

yo, posting yet again. i thought i have some things to share.. so ya
hmm, monday's trg was good, with all our ex seniors kai, zhi, xun, and shimin to play match with us. for b div, we played a set oni, ending with a score of 17 :25. wow, hcjc gals a div actually won champion, absolutely cool!!! made me even more determined to enter hcjc!jnrs lost too lor. meanwhile, we had a team talk. we mentioned abt respect ing snrs and captain. it was solemn ya, i tried to lighten the atmosphere, but mm intercepted:p then we da fang after trg, spiking quite fierce:), defence quite off:(. everyone left for home, all except shufeng, huiying and me. i was telling shufeng how to gang qiu, movements -wise. then its already 7pm le. we went all exits oni to find the gates all locked!! destressed man! then we went to the lib's exit, thinking there's no gate there, yet there was! and its locked too!!! lucky we looked down and saw congzhi, our jnr, wah! xie tian xie di man, or else we camp in school le. we told her to tell the security guard lor, the guard said the gate at the canteen was not locked, [we nv went there] nevertheless, the opened the lib's gate for us. thx uncle!! and not forgetting our jnr!! hehheh, i kinda like congzhi since the day she joined vball, cos i coached her on the first day de. :) then washed off of anxiety, we walked to the bus stop close to the patrol station. this auntie came to me to borrow my phone, i lent her lor. but she like forget her frens no:. she said she wanna go tanglin mall, we told her to take 174 lor, but she said she better go home. then i offered my phone to her again to call her fren to say she not going to her house le. she remembered the no: and called. then she thanked me and said "hao ren you hao bao!" haha, i very happy! i told her exams over liao la, she said next time lor. hmm, i tot juz now congzhi 'saved' us, now was us to the auntie's rescue,lol! i hoped good stuffs will be awaiting me! i know i sholdnt expect any reward though, juz hope lor, :p
today's trg was fun. after pt in gym, we played bball and soccer! wow, ny ever first ny fifa world cup!! :P hehheh, then i be henry no: 12,:p[ok, super bu yao lian]. i lan la, defend til jnr kick me in the leg bone, blue-black now:p jia yin worse, 5 kicks!! haha! i like yingr de cereals with dried strawberries!! yumyum! then went home with jing. saw junhao rushed to school. yeah, today i learnt an exercise from jiao lian to lian the arm, cool! made me believe every part of the body could be train!!
fri no third lang but hosting students from nan hua pri taking part in sing and malaysia bilinguail test. think end at school hrs, hmm, quite ok then. eh, fri de movie price more ex then sun? haiya, i broke dao pathetic liao. hmm, hope my mother/father quickly give me allowance!!:p

thats all for today!! hmm, vball chalet! alrite!;)

2006-05-21T12:59:00.000-07:00

yeah, im posting now after seeing quite a few de blog. anw, i didnt touch my com for almost a week, seh lo! but ok la, rather bz piain last minute work. clit test greaded for term 3 failed. walau, so shocked la. i tot i could memorise le... nvm.. anw, term 2 de results out le. oni proud of my 3 a1, higher chinese, chinese literature and chemistry respectively. deleted the stuff i type juz now:p, its all my results, which i think jian bu de ren, :p! hahaha, i need get two a2!! so i have 3a1 and 2 a2, hwa chong!!! pin also muz get in!

ok, next sat is my MO test le, senior section, siao la, think i really noe meh, the following section will be the highest open section liao. need practise!!!!! hope ip sabbac week i also can slack and do my maths!!! my maths trg prof is wad i call a tcher, he always reprimand moe not doin their best for the children, i mean i very touched my his complaints, he from china fu dan da xue de, yet is nth like diff nationalism then he look down on singaporeans or wadeva, but hey, he cared for us, pple known as students, wanting to learn maths, and he, as a tcher, knows he has the reponsibility to teach. u know every question he gave us do very week is from past papers' questions of diff countries de OM competition. the questions are very need dong nao jin, cos it combine all the topics taught, from angles to trigo to cos rule, many more! haha, i always wait for him to give ans de, but im amazed an ans can be achieved, or proof wadsoever. these kind of combined questions moe dun give de. dunno la, juz walk and see ba:p

davin ci code!!! i wanna see! but we ran 3 places also full. FULL! siao lor can, then we even put in effort to dress like one 16 yr old.. yt even borrowed heels from yr, but nv use.. i ate the slowest at swensens, :p! haiigen daz ice cream is nicer than the italian icecream cos its texture is much not hard, but ermm more zha shi, stupid la, i dunno how to say in el, eehong can translate for me, el pro kid:p like that lor, we walked many places and jyun keep sayin we gals can shop, lolx, we can walk!!! :p next week, davin ci!,we gonna try again!! mission isnt impossible de! x men on 25th! that show shld be quite nice i think, hmm! ! tuesdays with morrie, the book very nice!

ok, im known for being super random:p lol! yo!! im signing off here! byee!!

2006-05-14T17:15:00.000-07:00

haha, i dunno wad to say. these two days i've been going out, and i grouped it as 1 day fun and the other, sian.
hmm, so on fri, vesak day, lifeless pple online decided to meet up somewhere. after some rather luan arguments, we decided on suntec, [bugis out:p]. my mom was coming to my grandma's hse, then i felt that i shld at least see her ba, so told jia yun i will be late abit lor.. we took 700a straight bus to suntec, and we stood all the way, though theres seat:p we met crys at cityhall, then went BK to wait for my taro, not kalun!! dun xia dao, lolz!
hmm, so can imagine 4 pple walkin from marina square to suntec. then we stroll, interrogate xx, then ate dinner at juz noodles, which was quite cheap ba. free flow of drink was super attractive to jia yun. lolx. they all had peach tea? i had cuppucino! not nice, too foamy.. then we ate sponge!!! haha, it was this deep fried tofu with chopped spinach on the top, look like the washing dish de sponge so much la! shifu dared not try at first, lol. i made a fool. .shifu was the shop's boss cum waiter, then after we ordered, he still haven decided on wad to haf, so i became waitress and said 'try ramen'. shifu was mumbling 'chi ramen chi ramen..', i tot i heard 'chi da bian', haha, so i asked him ' jiak sai ar?', kl said i bad service attitude, lol.then go one round then shifu understand why i said jiak sai, cos he said chi ramen. lolx!! walau, laugh till i cry la. so damn funny! toys r us was very fun, i finally understand why yingr like it so much, so many fun stuff to play! like the hammer, the soft ball which we played vball, some toys that loked like body organs, some dolls with clothings so easily taken off, some underground society de sunglasses, even umbrellas! and esp the robohand!! lolx, so fun!! then my hand now got blueblack cos of the robohand liao lor:p kl and jiayun he zuo wu jian, hit me with hammer on the same time, how can bully tumei!! so mean!! then we went home lor, reach home rd ten. scolded liao for being home so late, but thats not my latest la:p

ytd, after maths olympiad, went kap, ate breafast with crys. hotcakes were dan filling, wanna puked. maths revision damn sian, gave up. start my appreciation of cl lit, then kiral came. we were interviewed by these pple from some church, asked qn regarding youths and i left her my email add and hp no:, normally i would be no, thx, i dont believe in god, dun come brainwash me. but i oni left her my contact no: cos she smelt like my kindergarden teacher, mdn lee!! man, i wanted to ask her where she get her perfume from.lol. we pushed a t rolley to cold storage, zhen hopped into the trolley and we pushed him ard, lolx! qi jiao, qi jiao!pushed him to female hygiene care area, lol! muz min jian! then eehing and jiayun came. tramatise eehong say congrui coming, he really xia dao face turned green, lol. yt came. we slacked. i suggested we write down places of whole singapore, north south east west, then picked randomly. we rejected some places like bugis and orchard later, crys hse and jurong were places for reconsidering. we ended up going to causeway point. slept on the bus, zhen, jyun and me. yt, crys and eehong were 'fooling 'ard:p slpin on bus cause pain on every part of the body, i neck pain, back pain, ...think i fever lor, ate halfway, no appetite, so i played with my food again. add tabasco, cheese, pepper, chilli, and yt's peas to my al fungshi pasta. tabasco has a strong taste and i ate another two mouth of pasta cos of it. stroll stroll stroll with jyun most of the time. others were so energetic, and i feel like a total wet blanket, spoilin the whole lively atmosphere. im juz so zibei.. haiz, so i left early with jyun lor.

dont doubt my sensitivity, i can sense ya feelings, though i wonder its through shows, natural gift or experience that cause me to understand how u feel, yet i juz know i can feel. at times, i hope i could be juz a little ignorant, but as time passed, i slowly understand and accept the gift, gift- for i take it as a natural talent. i wished i know myself better, pple ard me too, i wish all happy and blessed. sincerely.

2006-05-12T00:37:00.001-07:00

today, 11 may was sports meet, im looking forward to this, not the sports meet itself ba, but the friendly really. yet, this year i thought sports meet was nice cos i was very impressed by the hcjc apollo!! woohoo, they were so enthu and energetic, they were cheering so loudly, the drumbeat never stopped and they were enjoying every moment most significantly!!! anyway, they passed my class some yellow banner then my classmates started to take it off when its supposed to mean you cheer for hcjc, well, except me..hehheh, anyway, im gonna be a member of hcjc:p "why are we so pro?" "we are apollo!" so rhyming la! haha! keep looking out for sophia, finally after yumei's heat i saw her standing and smsing in the midst of aries. oh man, i miss her!!! eyes dou red le, lolx! then also saw chunli and da cheryl. chunli's figure is still as bang! totally la! theres this champion team of a div , one of their member i s super cute!! all think so la! oh man, haha, i got his pic!! :p to crys and my utter amazement, hou laoshi and chai laoshi were very fast for the 3 legged match, the team was lagging la,then they later actually catch up and overshot the others, cool! we were at the alphelion's area viewing the whole race, we commented the school sent the worse partners to take part in this competition la, lol, we were very wrong. wah, then theres this urge in me to look for hou laoshi, lolx, tell him im so impressed!! of cos when i said that to him, he start boasting la, bleh.. ny track team won again!! this time more honourable for the hci institution was the one who sent the challenge letter, jing said her friend de hci friend bet his life that hci is gonna win, uh oohh, wonder hes dead now not, hahaha! ms tan yew ling, greg goh, janissa soh, mark shone and lim kok boon were damn fast! anw, i likemr lim chow hun, whoo!! he big size but also run quite fast. he joked wadeva things he hold he start to throw, [cos he thrower la], so the student throwers told him to throw to the ending pt and if measure distance, sure win de, lolx! hci de javellin very pro. and wincoln broke record? and got first for high jump!!. finally know y he used to think if vball is wad he want? so high achievement in field le! anw, vball also la, his spike is not those locals spikelor, like pple from usa, those hei ren who are damn strong and pro at sports. he arch super nice! maybe cos of high jump trg ba, lolx! anw, crys was top ten for 800m, well done!! and yumei's relay team was second last? good try le:) crys no: tag was 12, haha, so happy! si pei gave me a stalk of rose early morning la, i tot she bluff bluff de, wanted to buy for her mom de, but she said no, its for me,wad scared the rose later rot..anw, wah!! so good to receive present in the morining, and the dark chocs too, thx luo fu!!:) actually, i very mice i took two cups of milo for jyin and crys, had to ask another friend help la, lolx, so qiang yi qi :)

brunch settled at macs. i ate a queh from bangawan solo though. then slp. light rest ba, cldnt slp with all the noise. i realy really really want to prepare myself well for the friendly!!! ytd nite, 11+ slp le la.ji ayin slp at 2 +though and yingr at 1 +? haiz..haha

then is training. training with jing and congrui, later coach ask jing to coach kelly[jnr] so left me and cr to da fang. cr, i actually understand i wanted to set high for me, that why u tend to shuai, improve on that area ba! more confi o!!;) after defence we did spiking then serving then spiking.

the guys juz came in with noone fetching them. its 2 oclock that time. spiking halfway and did not want to be affected by them, so i nv look at their direction. lu laoshi told me not to laugh on court, muz be serious, so im really serious. match was very nervous, at first i tot not bad la, got rally mah. then though the dif in points is oni 5, [o mean when we play with jnrs, 5 is quite alrite], we or rather i was very scared. the more i think of winning, the more scare i was. so u see me broken into a small smile from my very bitter face. i had just explain my 'guai pi qi', as said by my shifu. and i hardly spike!!! i mean i think i oni improve in my spiking la, then its not even used... then i felt damn bad, my defence wasnt good and i cldny help my team score by spiking, arhhh!!!!!! im very very very very very very sad!!! depressed, disappointed, useless cos i oni know cryin my way out.. walau, i hate myself cryin for a precious learning experience which i gained, so i suppressed, try to suppress my qiu sheng xin qie feelings, i oni let my frustratios out on the ball la. haix.. i wished very much i will never be in this situation again,i wanna win, since pri school. ats has been nationals top 4, every yr also haf trophy, how am i to take failures?!?! i keep 'shitting' here and there la. then when kiral, zijie and eehong come and shua me, kinda sian to go listen to wad they haf to lie to me.. thx for taking the effort to bring a piece of rock and toilet paper roll ah!! lol, and the shuo wei de tin badge with jacobs logo:p even got shua by jnrs, wa, damn ke lian la, me. then i cant understand why i so darn stupid, qiu also dunno how to hao hao play.. shufeng they tot im crying over the joke they jnrs play on me, lolx, no la, its because im dumb..basically, we lost our own pace, the hci team play at a speed so much faster than us, and then we ruan le. i saw kiral and kalun injured i very scared de. i mean they came to play with us very good le, still injured, then for shifu, worse, on old injuries. i dont like the idea lor. so heck care la, juz 'borrow' bballers de spray stuff and used on them lor. zhen, i passed de spray to u de lo, see, i very nice de:p

anw, my attitude makes everyone like concern abt me, sorry and thx ah! kiral-keep offerin me his shoulders, zijie-ask jyin i angry ar and 1 more thing, teach me to spike!!! [ in the case of momentum, shifu taught me the way to spike de], then eehong-for shouting theres a ball when i was abt to spike, wad an quan di yi, lolx, remind me of STD, dnno y:p, kalun-making me laugh at the definition of 'hao qiu';), junhao-setting lower for me, so its more of like my nomal trg. yingr-for offerin to set for me when i say i wanna spike, yngtyng-same reason too, and dun molest me!!! :pcongrui for setting, jiayin, i wanna say thz cos when i told cr i nv like spike, the next set u start setting more to me:)

haiz, bascially, we got trashed in terms of sets ba? oni the jnrs won one match against their second team, ke bei ah!! muz go'mian bi si guo' le..lolx. greg goh was very pissed? then alsp keep gan the hci pple zhou, say they cant stay so long de :p dun care la, i think yall all like dun haf indoor court, then want to make use of it as much as possible, understandable wad. i very scared one person defend a court again, whenever i nv fang shou well, i tot i cansee myself dying on the court from the meng trg/punishment im facing later.. eh! qw nv play zj vball club, mixed match!! cos of greg goh issit? hiaz.. can imagine how we can win!! oh, and arm wrestling, lolx, i dou no mood to fight le.

ok la, end here le. its gonna rain soon!! flashes of ligtning appear long time ago le. alrite, byee!
happy vesak day!!! to jing and darren[whos buddhists?]lolx!

2006-05-12T00:37:00.000-07:00

2006-05-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

hello! any idea what's its like to train defence alone on one whole court?
man, its tiring, tedious!! suddenly, coach told me to go to court and start defencing. i was like haha.. haha.. really?! i had tot it was way too cool! i mean, finally, i am doing it, it seems to be like preparing me for some important match(next yr b'div), and hey, that's a process for improvement which i can never miss!!! so i honourably went up. sad to say la, i came down dead beaten:p imagine, first ball near net, next ball at the side, then its at the back where the boundary line is, then is way front at the net again. i think i take around ten minutes to finish ten so-so balls la. wah, feel so much like giving up in the process, i was thinking, if i cannot reach the target, can coach ever force me. but then i sensed that coach was not about to let me off, she start to minus every ball i saved whenever i failed to run and jie the other ball. so pressurising!!! then everyone was cheering, everyone, i doubt anyone didn't. i was encouraged, really i was, so i wanna say "thanks" here:) I DID IT!! when i was saving those balls, i fell to the ground, i can hear my own skin tear, ouchh! then my butt hurts, lol! yet, after all the trg, i felt i had emerged champion, coach has forced me to get out of my comfort zone, she said its to lian my dou zhi, fighting spirit. i think i know why she picked oni me le, cos whenever ball goes out of court, i won't go save de. then this means i dun pei he. man, know that my spiking improved le, it is time to train defence le. with improvement in defence, i can be like yumei!! her blocks are very timely!! then again, my servings went hay wire recently. always mao dun shld i practise 721, cos i sure say all my balls so-so de. then when can i complete my task?!! haiz....

alright!!! tml k-box with my father and sis, lolx, at first is oni go with my sis de, then leave my youngest sis alone meh? so drag her along. then i say since like that le, might as well invite my father, lolx. and since he nv work tml, so come join the fun lor. haha, i think the k-box pple see us, muz think we are damn weird, duncare le la. unique family day!

wad is a sweet dream?
a very small dream with the smallest act of love ... definitely not masterbed:p

2006-04-30T19:56:00.001-07:00

yo, i always 'yo' de !! :p
anyway, updating today :D
wad a tiring last week i had .
3 consecutive days of waking up at 430am, i doubt it help my marks
"arm to be recovered in more than 2 months" said coach.
civic centre's lib-wonder should like it or hate it.
one thing- i dun like the shawn lee's friend, so strict, keep sheein suddenly, xia dao me :p
yumei find eehong look like mr teo, hhahaah!
that day not dao zhen and eehong, juz headache. ----brain concussion due to clotting of f(x)/g(x)
position 12/13 for 1.5km, hope is 12, at least my no:, timing shld be 7+ mins
haiya, why i continue to write on, the post becum more sad like that---this isnt the mood i want to bring on
hci one extra day hol, good for them
labour day cum yanliang birthday, happy birthday guy! ;)
yeah, i want to watch the afternoon show on labour's day, so teachin my cousin in the morn
$45 in three days, thats considered much for a student ba? i mean to spend in 1 day :)
i hope zijie had got a good hot date on his bday!! :p [and i still dunno wad to get u, everything also haf le]
eh, why my post like no content de, or shld i say no feelings? lol
i like this jap song here, its from a tv serial i watched when im p4. heard the behind part oni now, the front part very nice, aint it?
hmm, i like the song "zui shu xi de mo sheng ren" sung by clara, and "xin dong", i wishe to have the lyrics!! where to get it, anyone noes?
still so short, ran out of content le! i have no life...
i want go k-box, either with jia sin or with the team, doubt the team likes to go there, except me, jy and jing:p
no jap lessons on fri these week, presentation week. my whole class rgs, no connections with me, haha
i need to memorise my jap script, muz do my best to help jia sin score in jap![ hao peng you shi hu xiang li yong de], i let u li yong, haha!
so jiang yi qi,suddenly remind me of wincoln[hehheh, i wonder jia yun let him see the african pic that i draw not, i actually believed!!haiz, sorri]
yng tyng want a tall dark and handsome guy, we fulfil her wish le. got ahem and summore extra eugene! lol, muz be satisfied;)
haiya, i miss jia sin suddenly. i think i everytime shuang yue, nv go ensemble concert with her
eh, im gonna pin for friendy, i need be more enthu!
ok, i think i have nth to write abt le
i wish all a happy and free labour day, [free of labour, full of hot dates, lolz]
yo! signing off le!!
lame, juz like eehong's "one lame pencil case"

2006-04-22T01:19:00.000-07:00

ok, gonna make this post short and sweet.
recently, yrg ist pleasant for me. i was moody for no good reason. coach gettin fed up with me by the day. kinda strained my arm when self train durin lunch. and its not uncommon to see me pitying myself. i damn dunno wad de la, injured oni wad. everything also feel like crying. super emotional. the pain killer spray helps. but i 'borrowed' it from bballers de, our vball team seriously need one too la. im scared. cos when my mood is affected, my skills go down. i think like everyone, we fear when we are injured, for we may be placed at the bench... im glad the first aid kit is there, for i will break down. i cant serve, cant spike. da fang time, i feel damn useless, jing set such nice ball to me and i hit it sideways..:( coach put me with lydia and steffani for spiking trg, we took 10 mins to finish 15 spikes. i think i did 2-3spikes? i didnt even do my part la. everyone shld spike like 5 de.. then went to self-pity again :p
tests, survived through ss, c lit, jap paper 1 and 2 test. irritated by this grp of guys( boys and gals) who i met at the bishan bus interchange. the chao wu liao la. im already rushing to third lang for exam then suddenly this guy pop out and said 'yoyo' to me with hand sign somemore. ok, i do reply if pple says that. but walau, im late here, and they do such irritating reactions! so wad la.
napfa. mon had my 2.4 and i oni know it that day. timing: 12.41, actually first de, then a badmintoner overshot me by 0.2 secs. the fastest is my monitress though, eunice, softballer, timing:10.4, cool huh? she has 8 peks?[how to spell] k? no kid. then for my 5 stations, inclined do 10, and im very malu to say this, for i did 18 the day brfore?!! a to c is hard to digest the facts k? then sad le, keep wanting to retest. then did shuttle run, made a fool of myself, tcher say ready i already go le, then second timing 12 secs lor. zhun zhun c, so scary la. then i did situp, 53 situps in a min, and i improve 9 more than last yr, but the digit 5 does boost my confidence. then did standin broad jump, my worst since pri schoo, and i jump an a! 186, totally immerse in my achievment!then sit and reach, 40, improve like 7 cm which i considered a lot le! but, thats still in the c range.. so is 3a 3c, gold! :D
now is 1:18am le,mugging later at woodlands lib after maths olympiad. yang yi, ganbatte! if i slack, crystal gonna slap me and vice versa! lolx!

2006-04-16T22:11:00.000-07:00

Boo! happy easter day!! im still as usual crazy over Easter Egg Exchange. eh, you guys dun disappoint me leh, exchange exchange! haha! lol. all the EEE reminds me of EEHong, easter egg hong! red easter egg? haha, more like tose 1 month old de egg. ok, sry eehong:p haiya, i seriously dunno wad im tokin abt.

hmm, good friday i spent with my family, went to bai my paternal side grandparents then ate at jacks place.
wad the wad the wad the f***. i write til here, i damn piss liao. if ya dunno, its my idiotic aunt. YES, she sux. TOTALLY!!! i type fast fast nid her care arh, always see wad im typin, and wad's wrong with havin a blog, to her the so-called diary, go complain to my parents la, WADEVA... she think she can, i cant meh??!! i feel like shoutin in front of her, but i tot of my grandparents and her son, i didnt, see, i got think one k? not like her who oni noe how to scold me loudly. another thing is, inoe i will lose out de, if i shout, the next thing i do is to cry. not gona be weak in front of her, NO WAY~!!!! i will choose to die. issit that critical thinking! so zi xi rite? tis is to make her guilty. i decided its stupid to kill her or wadeva, its the conscience thats scary. i hate her, hate her to the core!!!! one day i die le, u can guess perhaps its due to overwhelming pressure, pressure of keepin those boilin feelings down, but that day, unfortunately, i bao le. can this be my easter day? why? why? i nv like going home early nowadays, one reason is to avoid, avoid all those naggings, rubbish! TRY ME.

phew! better now. at least for this moment, i noe for sure she not lookin at my stuff. sat cip is quite fun at first. i went with yingr and congrui, later meet up with crys theyall at ps. then yumei and jing came and go. kiral came, then we ask him how to do maths. he dunno, we giv up doin, in the end its oni me and crys and kiral, so we wanted to go ulu place to let him show us magic tricks. we went new cathey and stupidly sit infront of the camera w/o knowin. damn toot. then we keep walkin, walkin walkin, jux to find a ulu place, haha! we came to cineplex, long john is a place where we can sit, but super cold. we saw this cockroach bag and desert water bottle la. so weird! the bag reminds me of the bugs in KingKong. the scary part where i cry no stop. inthe end, we went to novena. ate pasta mania at United square? the chocalate banana pizza very nice! eh, then we went novena square to shop. kiral is supposed to take note of the stuffs we said we want, haha! sausage is horrible, bleh, haha! ok, i noe, i very la. everything thru me can be changed totally. some bballers print on addidas children shoes,i say it bugs bunny. then bird nest can become abalone, pasta has oni tuna and bacon and no pasta, butter become peanut butter.. sry, i think my hearin got prob, or he say not clear huh? lolx! today study at macs near west mall with kiral, his maths very good, but i dun dare ask him, scared disturb zhen, then i get beheaded how? lolx. its super cold there and i think my brain froze le, i nv complete my ws 8.2 in the end, haha! and earlier ask crys go along, can ask til send sms send to kiral instead, so toot. haiya, i very blur and gong.

it wasnt a nice happy easterday afterall, huh? unless, sth better can happened in like 1hr and 40mins time. nevertheless, i wish for the best:)

2006-04-08T17:03:00.000-07:00

hello, im very happy this week. i think i have no reasons to be sad! hahhaa

monday is always unbearable, cos u are always furthest from wekends. lolx, but training was alrite. alrite? i kinda forget wad i do then le. then tues, we had very tedious pt! yeah, i like seeing myself so motivated! let's see, i did 20 x3 benchmark, 30 x3 slanted sit-up, 15 x3 dunno wad is that, the train leg muscle one, 80 pounds, then i did 30 x3 bei ji, then is 30 x3 the shoulder stuff that train ya shin, then is 20 x3 20pounds of arm swing on both arms, [follow yumei , from 0 to 20, then i seriously need to lian my left arm, hmpm!], then is wad? wrist muscle i did extra 10 x3 of going up actions on my left arm, then the theighs one, i did 25 x3. yeah! im so happy! so proud of myself! hmm, then jiao lian told us to run 40 times of a distance x3 la, wa, very tiring, me and yng tyng one pair. ying rong run til puke lor. then it was another ten rounds round the hall, estimated distance is 1.5kn, and i take abt 5 mins to cover it, hooray,i tot thats quite some achievement!!! others didnt complete it, oni me, shufeng, crys and yngtyng. the others like feeling queasy lo, then cos yngtyng last, got to run extra 2 rounds. haha, i actually nv lost sight of shufeng! she's very fast de la, and im really glad im second, [haven count yumei la]

ok, wed was alrite.. third lang centre, sensei asked me to seat with a rgs gal, at least i feel i have problems can ask people ma, i dun mind sitting there permernently! oh, rgs got this swimming carnival, again?!! dunno la, so i had to join the fri 430pm class instead, travelling very sian one leh, and esp when the sensei will go through the SAME lesson... lucky i like that fri class, i transferred from there last time de, and i was monitress for 2 lesons? damn sad la, i oni said "kiritsu, rei" for twice oni lor... erm, thurs was good, my elec geog teacher handed me my assignment and later announced the highest is 13/15, and hey! that's my mark! im so happy! then my teacher started scolding those nv put in effort to do their work. then she gave examples of who is hardworking, and she said me!! yup, its me, yours sincerely! hahaa, and im all the way up in cloud nine! then she continue say those hardworking ones are mostly sittin the front one lo. hehheh, she oni spell out my name! but of cos la, i like her, im scared to her too, she's really strict with hw, so i obediently do, well, at least i do. last min work with the best results, not bad at all huh? then that day de trg, jiao lian put crys as my dui jiao, i think jiao lian now needed a zhugong, a little urgently need? so as to settle the next yr b div. by now, we have yngtyng, crys and ren syn lor. da jia jia you ba! yeah, and for trg, i learnt spped spike, i kinda alway sspeed spike when train, not on court. train jiayin will be at zhong position then set to me, bu ton court she set will be at setter position, then the distance enlonged , the speed spike cant be used? and im also learnin to spike at a even higher point then i used to, so as kinda create thunder effect! i saw yumei jump so high then spike, i tot sth came to my mind lor, i noe i cldnt jump as high as her, but hey, i can alwaes change my speed, and then my wrist will be above the ball, and i can spike thunder! it wasnt really thunder, but there was two times when the ball directly hit the ground, and i like that! hmm.. engrossed in my own little achievements.. lol
fri was alrite again, i manage to hand in my shi han( cl letter wrtin), i wldnt have the time if i had third lang at 230pm. then i looked for nyaa teacher in charge, he's quite helpful in terms of he told me exactly wad i can fill in the booklet lor. then i went third lang. sat , today! i ran 2.9 km, 10 rounds round our school track, took abt 15-16 mns? ya, then i train my spike againat the fence, then shoot netball and bball hoops for the fun, and i alwaes feel im not a bad shooter, haha! got caught inthe pourin rain juz now. ran out from my bus to shelter, and then his lightning like very low, [i dunno, i was lookin at the ground], but walau, i tot its juz in front of me la, suddenly there's this flash of lightning, and damn loud thunder, the lightning cracked! im so scared la, so scary! then like people lookin in my direction, and i start questionin if i juz had a close encounter with death, wahh! then it poured, and i cant go home, so when the rain was slightly smaller, i dashed back home lo. juz juz now, i was listenin to campu superstar video clips on youtube.com, i juz cant find the clip where cheeyang and shi xinhui sang the lian ai daren la, so disapponinting.. but nvm, i copied down the lyrics for "fly away", "xie yi shou jian dan de ge" and "kiss goodbye". i like lyrics, appreciatin them , cos i cant make out wad those singers are singin til i see the lyrics, not like jia yin whi can make them out. yeah, and now i can sing them myself! ok, tml got to go teach my cousin han yupin yin, signin off here,BYEE! <3
ps:happy belated international friendship day to all! :p

2006-04-01T18:52:00.000-08:00

wth! everyone sux! and i mean all of u, if u all could disappear somewhere, somehow, i will be damn grateful!

hahaha, ok, if yall really believe wad i wrote above, u are really a fool on this April Fools' Day 2006! lolx, seriously, i cant live w/o all of yall, totally la! no matter wad the future has for me, i will carry along all the precious memories that you all had given me! this is a promise. (oh man, i think this wu ban song has made me very emotional!) anw, don't u think this song rocks? hahaha! it gives me this piao piao ran de feel, like u are bouncing? about in fantasy, the moments of magic.

tml is campus superstar de finals, suddenly jiasin and i are pondering whether we should go to hci tml to see the live screening.. hmm, its all the way til 1130pm leh, then i reached home will be like 12++ le. wheere is hci de lt3 btw? ok, even if i eventually nv go to hci to support, wo hui zai jing shen shang zhi chi zhiyang de!! ganbatte!! zhiyang has the yin zhi of david tao, yin yue shen fu, not bad, bright future!

ermm, i think durin friday trg [supposedly last trg at indoor court] i was rather pissed cos before that i was writing a letter, then my mood kinda change after that. i wanted to perform my utmost on the last day one lo, but haiz.. til coach come at 530? than i finally start to brighten up, thats the diff of havin a coach, u cheered up, u play better! my eyes really become red when i saw her walked in the door, i damn weird la, chao emotional, haha!

firstly, i wished to comment on our team. this made me sad, (ya, the letter has sth to do with it) i want to say wad happen that day when some of us had hsk. that night, we chat abt our team, the mentality we had, the amt of efforts we had actually put in, the team spirit, and many more, the skills part too. i hope to be open here.

i feel our team is split again! but to come think of it, wads the necessity of everyone being super super bonded together? bein bonded doesnt mean the team will improve in the case of zonals or even nationals status. yet, when we bond, we can communicate better and when we point out each one's mistake, or areas to be improved, we know we can accept it without bein sensitive cos we all know in our hearts, who dun wan the best for the team? mentality. u know, we've all been telling ourselves, nvm, theres next year! well, but i think its kinda time we all wake up from our deep sleep huh? time is running out, and we are always racing withit, and we shall beat it! we shall prove to the others out there that within a short time, we can achieve our goals, fulfil our dreams. without jing with us next year, the bdiv will be comparably weaker, i think thats a fact ba? so we all have to train hard. and in which area do we train?

jia yin: increase ya speed, get the ball b4 the net, and really dun be too sensitive, no one dun trust ya settin, zhen de!( though it may seem to u that i dont.. i went to jiao lian there to spike cos i got sporeans bad habit, kiasu la, then its very nan de for her to set, so i go there.. if u are bothered by that, then i go to u next time lo)

ying rong: serving muz ba wo, then make sure u spike liao then come down, make more noises, together with me! our eyes has got to be big, like wad lu laoshi said, to scare the others off!

yumei: when serving, the ball muznt be toss too forward, ya more when spike near net, u kinda spike out for this kind of ball, then spike at back row pa more than ya :)

seeting: more confidence! then shoulders up and arms and body distance should be less than a ball, when u spike, always forget to zhu pao, rmb k?

yng tyng: confidence! spike, spike with force and erm, dun hug yaself, i noe u love yaself very much, haha, but that action really express ya confidence level. hit our palms hard k? jia you! serving a little more wen ba, first ball jie to setter position k?

me (lastly): servin need to be keep constant, spiking need to be fiercer, first ball when im in the center has to be judge fast to estimate if it belong to back row or front row. my shouts has to be higher in pitch, jiayin says too low le, lol!

erm crys: settin on court is really not bad de, react fast enuf, servin muz ba wo, kinda have same prob with seeting, the arms and body, yao zhu yi o!

congrui: u are a sportswoman, u are build physically for sports, its juz ya attitude, ren zhen yi dian, and i do believe u can achieve as much! im glad to see u asking jing how to spike, you shang jin xin, very good!

ldd: keep ya wonderful serve constant k? train more ba, know jiao lian always tell u to keep scores so u kinda cant train alot, erm, find time to train lor, even if its by yaself, u can gang or spike against the wall, we used to share zhugong position together de, jia you for ya spiking!

huiying: spiking mus be forceful and note how u spike the ball, need to have a 'bao' feel and not juz ya. serve with yao li, area at lower body has to lian more ba

shu feng: muscles gou le!! even i lost to u, haiz.. anw, its time u focus on ya skills le. i think u really made changes to the way u jie the first ball, which is good. main prob now i slike wad yong rong says, u put ya body forward, not that u dont put ya body forward, like that u wont be able to run, but u have to move ya legs first, and to solve this problem, release ya claspin hands! they obstruct u when running, i believe ya shang shou serve should be quite alrite since u have muscles, not only at the biceps, but also hamstring and stuff. jiayou lo!

ok, i may sound like a commentator huh? sorry if it sounds pin-pointing? ya. can we have a team talk! has it been a week since we requested for it?? we are not tryin to create trouble or nei hong within the team, we juz feel we need to sit down and ask ourself 'wad do we want' and most imptly, 'HOW?' how to get wad we want? i really dun mind working extra hard as long as i know the team is with me, volleyball is a team sports and we gonna go through weal and woes together, if we are like san sa, i.. i really dunno wad to do le, i couldn't possibly end this passion of mine, take it that im selfish alrite? can yall help me continue with my passion, dun let me lose hope in this team, this cca.

let's all nu li ba! though now we may face with trouble (unable to rent a court), but can anything stop us? from moving forward TOGETHER towards our final goal? i have total trust u will all say no. this team wanted to accomplished certain achievements, but some may have a different approach as to how to reach the goal, can we not give in, but settle upon an approach whereby we will all promise to follow it to really, in the end, benefit the team itself. no matter wad, i never stop loving this team.

2006-03-28T16:59:00.000-08:00

hello, im at shufeng classroom now! stupid, juz now was slacking in her class,[ hmm, actually not, cos im helping her with her li jie wen da, 1 qn=1hr? haha, to get the the best ans, got to think carefully mah, :p] then the xiao gong go and lock my classrm door, walau, my stuff inside la! then ran to GO to get the key with shufeng's ezlink as guarantor, lol! listening to [ 舞伴] now, sung by junyang, very nice, shufeng and i love it!! shall find it for my blog song!

yeah, and im going hci for the live screening of campus superstar!! Zhiyang jia you!! i seriously think he will emerge as the overall winner. to think hci got guys with such nice vocals, lolx! :p

ermm, crys they all are sayin im biased cos i bought cake for Jing, haha,:p. next time see wad ya like then buy la, k? today no trg, like xinyi said, feel a little lost.. this june think we havin vball camp, so we were thinkin wad to do. then we are all thinking abt chalet!! haiya, chalet last yr was damn fun la, but this yr, i dunno le... :( i dunno wad to write leh, so short a post, i kan le feel uncomfortable, hahaha, i muz zhe mo u guys!! anw, i want to thank all for ya concerns. :)

oh, we are not gonna haf the indoor court from april til when?? this is so horrible, wonder where we train? haiya, muz still be glad they nv disban vball, if i complain, my mood will change de, haha! well, nth much to say, ok! end here le, byee!

2006-03-23T23:02:00.000-08:00

hmpm! if today's yesterday, this post will be a chao sad one. its damn weird rite? i mean the day before is such a happy touchin day, then the next day can actually be so saddening, so shocking, so sudden, no one knows wad will be unfold in the future, even the next second. people normally look forward to the future [happy events], but when they came by depressing stuff, they hated every second thats gonna be a reality soon. is this crap? i dun even noe wad im typing.

ytd, i was quite happy at first de, then cos i dun haf my jap textbook with me, so i very very scared the lue sensei scold me. im totally stressed out. and though i end up in sum other classes as my class the rgs gals cant make it, it was long before i could really cool down.

i think crys very sensitive to feelings of others[juz like me, lolx!] , she can see sth wrong with me today, i tot i was chirpy in front of yall le... im totally numb today in class, whenever the teacher is tryin to fix his/her laptop, theres a change of periods, recess, lunch, the free time before training, if no one talks to me, i will juz lie on my table, i noe this act of mine make pple dun talk to me, i dunno, i wanted to keep occupied with other stuff, but when i tok to others, its only one two sentences, seriously, i.. i juz , i noe juz wads wrong with me, but i cant cope with it somehow...

sobbed bitterly on my way up the dark route to my house. dark as in cos i reach home at ard 740pm. and i juz hear my own weeping, and i cried more. since last year, i told myself i shant cry anymore, everything then makes me happier. ytd, i couldnt back those stray tears, why? i tot i got over it.. why, why those happenings keep flashing across my mind?! my eyes. they had the perfect eyesight, and when pple envy u for that, u kinda hated it, for they made u see so clearly, those stuff that u prayed so hardly not to see, and the vision's so clear, u found it hard to come up even with the lamest excuse. WAD AM I TOKIN ABT NOW?!! YANG YI, SHUT THAT MIND OF YOURS NOW!!

im thankful that by now im closer to my teammates. i can imagine at sec 1, even sec2, even if pple can see im troubled, they will not ask u, 'hey.. u ok?' LDD, crys, yngtyng approached me, i juz wanna say thanks here. and to all my teammates too. the tot of being with yall juz made me happy, deep down from the bottom of my heart, i feel happiness, and i wanted to say i feel very blessed to have you all, here, to be my teammates, my friends! i cant deny, durin trainin, i totally? forget all on my mind, theres juz us on the court competing, against jnrs, against jiao lian. and i will always become very childish-looking when i won over jiao lian. thn jiao lian will play with me too and tell me to be careful cos she will aim me le!! i said 'by all means, try la!' haha, me and yumei do the 'yes' cheer chao funny. da fang with Jing is simply good, the feelin was good, the spiking was good, the defence was good. again, its a mo qi we build up as dui jiao of each other. ehh, i wanna wished seeting and wincoln happy birthday here, sorry, to kinda include happy events like yall de bdays in my super negative tots de post.. thx seeting for the belated bday cake, lolx! thx jia sin too, hao peng you shi hu xiang li yong de! thanks for comfortin me.. :)

"forever love" this song de file file too big or wad, i could go to my blog in school, it says ban phrase. Ban. Forever love. hasnt this shows me theres no forever love? or at least my eyes made me realise the most perfect thing to u has its imperfectness too? am i crapping? is this logic? though it may seem abstract..

sorry, but guys, dun ask me wad happened k? ermm, ok la, i dunno wad to say liao. if today is better than ytd, then tml will be an even better day! yeah!!

2006-03-21T22:51:00.000-08:00

today rocks k? (except that our jnrs lost to shuqun for the third! time... haiz)
today, wrote a love letter! maybe i post abt it another time ba, i tug that draft under my table in school, lolx! its.. ermm.. mushy? lame? no rhythm? but u can picture something in ur mind when u read it ba, :p!
durin el lesson, our training teacher thanked me for contributin abstract ideas in class yesterday when a prof from NIE came to access her. think he commended me but walau, he also commented "is this the Ny standard?" so wad la, cos that day was only an intro to speech ma, my classmates are like all tokin stuff on the surface, i mean in ny u start things from the basic u noe, so ms jennisa, its not ya fault! dun blame yaself k? :)
oh, and during geog elective. ms rashidah leave the class awhile and told me ;monitress, u look after the class." i was in my grp discussing and suddenly i was like huh? since when i became the monitress le? haha, thats a pleasant surprise. my enthuness muz haf cause the teacher to make me monitress. its damn funny la, me and my friend said the exact same sentence. 'you noe monitress to me sound like monitor lizard?' then we laughed, lolx!
presbyterian high and xin min are close in stardard, saw them play at ccab today. their spikes are nice as in they look for empty spaces to spike, and their block, its very nice! i esp like presby no:14 de serve, its like straight line juz above the net?! totally cool! and u can nv imagine she had serve weirdly in pri school before, haha!
dunno wad schools competin b4 our jnrs, damn slow la, took more than an hr can? even strong teams like the b div presby and xinmin had ended their match liao(presby won, 2:0), they haven finish la. u noe pple haf fluctuations in mood de, our jnrs and us are very excited at first de, but we slowly become sian lor. i mean the shuqun guys waited as long too, but this is reason why we lost today lor. we couldnt adjust as fast as the shuqun pple, to get hyped so easily, haha! alot of balls between two players and they nv jie, this is very bi ying gai de!! coach and greg goh were pissed. i tot i saw the b div in them lor, like durin zonals, we are damn sianx too..
bet tingshan bday today isnt as good with such a result at the end of the day ba. congrui and crys and yingrong gave her screwed present, haha! happy bday to u! (for the 5th? time, haha!)
yeah, and after we came back from ccab, Jing gave me a packet of Hello Panda. cos she said the other time when she had grastric, she ate alot of my Hello Panda, lol, think its oni like 3 la, and she returned me with a packet, haha! im very touched!! can u imagine one day while Jing was shoppin for food, she saw this Hello Panda and tot of me and bought it for me? haha! trust me, whenever i went to my neighbourhood market, i will look out for ji dan gao( u noe thise little cakes) to buy for Jing. but the cakes not freshly baked de leh, allpacked de, dun think its nice. but i promised to buy for u one day k Jing :p
me and Jing da fang/ dui gang with each other til 7;05 pm. we get equal chance of spikes and defend at first, later i spike too well le :p, and jing defend too well le!! so she started setting to me, and i started to spike, then jump a little to spike, and create a record of 5 consecutive awesome spikes! cool! i mean how many people can actually get to do that at secondary school level? it has to be base on ya skill and the partner u are playin with. jing is my perfect dui jiao! i shall aspire to defend as good as her too!!
soaking wet after all the spikes, i think u can squeeze out sweat from my hair lo, lolx! but the feeling is shiok, SHIOK! TOTALLY LA!!
home i am now, bloggin and not doin my maths ws 6.3, i learn bad [xue huai] from yuhsuan la! lolx! tml got jap lesson, i very sian of it liao, lue sensei is freakin me out! ok, i shall end here, this is a short post k? i took 1 hr to finish it! :) Byee!

2006-03-16T00:58:00.000-08:00

today, i overslept! by half an hr. was coughin badly in the night, then cant sleep, but near mornin, my cough will go away, i noe its weird la, but i also dunno why, haha! think i lack of sleep, so i too tired, nv heard my alarm clock ring! i rmb i nv heard the fire engine siren the other time when my neighbourhood market was on fire, lolx! ermm, dunno la, feelin quite down now, lol.( i think its becos of this pocohantas song man!) well, ytd, we had brunch at KAP, pple get very excited over some guy.. lolx! jiao lian gave me a Calvin Klein knee length skirt. ok la, i haven really wear n see it before the mirror myself. ytd, jiao lian wants me and yumei to stay back to train with juniors, so some others stayed. we train with them til 6 lor! and its so frustratin! i mean i stay back train with them, at least at the end let me da match ma! let greg goh go insead.. i know he spikes fierce la. But afterall he not player ma. maybe i not qualify enuf to go on court.. haiya, dunno la! for 2 days, its has been going on like that. im very zi bei now! we leave school at 7pm though, cos we had a basketball match. theres yingrong and rosthline(some tracker) in my team and yumei, jing, congrui and yngtyng in the other. they trashed us at first, but later jing and rosthline changed teams, then we trashed them, even worst then they trashed us! (haha, trashed also haf diff in degree de!lol) i think all scared of me le, i tell u, if yumei is the wen rou-est in our team,im the most bao li one. haha! pple said i was molesting them when playin, lol, wad i like to hug them.. congrui is very scared! lolx, see me will shout so sharply la! yumei ran away from me, yngtyng will squat down, lolx! so actually my team won is mostly cos of me! yeah, i am so important!! haiya, but i bao li is also not on my team de pple de, so my team pple can rest assure, haha! im those competitive type when come to sports la, anything to do with physical fitness. enthu and hardly say die, lol! u guys shld be thankful le lo, i was 'hugin' yall[ im juz doin T defence wad..], cos the worst i rmb is when i slapped kalun, my very nice shifu! haha, i slap him that day, he still volunteered to teach me how to spike. yup, and thai express de green curry is very nice! me and jing shared it, then jing is those who eat rice de, im the type who eat the liao de, so we enjoy our meal very much! i think me and jing got a lot of mo qi lo, im very sad! shes not my dui jiao anymore!! i still cant face the cruel fact now..
today, we had trg at 730am, i woke up at 635, thats even later than jing, she said she woke at 630. then i pia lo. left home in 20 mins time. cool man, my fastest record is 15mins though. then had breakfast on the way lo. reach school at 725am. still early, thank god! then was changin into my gear. jiao lian was sharin her breakfast with everyone, some ex biscuit, i forgot the name, she esp ask those with grastric to eat. then jiao lian ask me, then i said dun wan, cos hand dirty. then i jokinly said " jiao lian, ni ke yi wei wo de!" she didnt hear quite well at first, then i repeated wad i said, and she really fed me, haha! i feel like a spoilt child lor, haha! jiao lian say if im her daughter, she scold me liao, so big still need to feed :p i really like jiao lian alot alot! and i think she like me alot alot, cos she said i very hardworkin. lolx, i think jiao lian's words has more impact on me than my parents' de. today trg defence dat time, i was very lousy. yumei can save well without slidin all over. then my first ball all sweep away, i tot i saw jiao lian kinda disappointed. i hate to see her disappointed de lor, i see her like that, i really hate myself for bein so lousy , clumsy... (man, i feel like cryin liaoz) jiao lian want to make me stay back again! and im supposed to be referee. haiya, i then dun wan lo. im not playin anw..:p so i be referee for one set, they play until 29-27 la, i pray and pray for them to faster end lo, cos others waitin for me in toilet. jiao lian said they in toilet ar? then joke say wanna force them back too. walau, i quickly tell jiao lian no lo. later they all blame me man! haha! then me, yngtyng, yingrong, congrui and crys went to Coro to eat lunch. left at ard 1. aiya, tml early morning got to register IC. supposed to meet shufeng, huiying and crys,[i scongrui comin?] at lavender mrt station at 8am lor, damn early la. haiz, pray i dun oversleep! ok, i tot this post is considered short le. i oni used like 2hrs to type it, ya. ok, shall end here.

2006-03-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

hello, im here to zhe mo you guys again!! hahaha ! im so evil! but i noe yall so long nv see me blog, miss me till willing to read on de la, lolx! :p yeah im here to report to you wad happen on 13th and 14th march!

on 13th march, its Shufeng birthday!! lol, the whole team had a vague idea that theres going to bein a celebration goin on in sentosa la, juz dunno the timing, and Congrui had made Shufeng to come lor, but in the end, oni 6 people turned up!! and no bday gal in sight!! haha! im late that day, i really think lrt is TOTALLY slow la! then i reached harbourfront, and the guys start looking at my wallet, complainin (again!) that its so unfair. haha, :p, im too special le, lolx! yep and off we went to sentosa. Tingshan and Congrui brought food, and we start eatin seaweed in the bus. we walked to the southernmost point of asia then back to 'homeground'[quoted from Tingshan], where our stuff are, then we went further down palawan beach, actually we wanted to go siloso beach de, me lo, hao jie4 shao4, cos last time i saw sophia at palawan ma..:p lolx! siloso is much better! we went to eat at delifrance and tingshan was so rich! ate deli le then eat ben n jerry, lolx! it was my first time k? to eat bread with knife and fork.. i dunno how yumei eat de, i think i eat with hands cleaner than yumei eat with fork leh, haha! hmm, and we are basically talkin about wad happen at obs lor. until this time, no one touch the vball can? lol! hmm, then we took this double deck bus, it looks like those hippo bus u see ard orchard? ya, then we first to board and we sat at the back, it was fun! we were singin songs lo, got bu de bu ai, el songs wad wonderland? dunno la, think oni tingshan know how to sing, haha, then the wind is blowin and we travel up and down, th etrees swaying, and we can see everyones sittin posture la, tingshan leg sure put on top de, then next is congrui, lolx! then we reached our homeground again, we went to take yumei vball and play at this open space near our homeground. haiya, we too long nv play vball, no qiu gan, the ball flew out of the open space to some malays de homeground, then a few times later,they said loud enough for us to hear"that's it la". ok la, noe they are pissed so we move lor. then we saw this very unique figure among the sand.its a human fig pple made la, lik e the person is sun tannin like that, then we said dun kick it, maybe the next thing will be the fig sittin up and sayin ' eh, wad u think u are doin?!' haha, that will be TOTALLY scary la! then we came past this lame barbie doll stuck in the sand, congrui picked it up, played ard awhile, then we said maybe its a voodoo doll, she scared then throw somewhere near the water, TOTALLY LA! throw elsewhere ma, i see pple anyhow throw stuff i will have impulse to pick it up de leh! i dun like litterbugs? yep, then we reach the place wheres theres a court, there group of guys there, occupyy the area damn long la,like so TOTALLY LA, lol! so we played beside them, show then who's boss man! i think we are better, i always thin k we are better, i dunno why, maybe we are juz better! does this seems chao ego? lol, like so TOTALLY LA! hmm, then we very tired, tingshan had left earlier, we assumed she gone to toilet but she went quite long, so we walked back to find her, then she saw her on the tram, so we took the tram to 7-11 and we bought drinks there for the second time. tingshan foot the bill first, noone had their walet other than her. then we walked across 7-11 to the empty courts. i walked quickly to one to book that court, i started to become enthu. or rather gettin more and more hyped. court to vballer seems so fascinating! isnt it? lol, say yes man! :p yup, then the others sat under the shade, and after a while we start to play lo, 3 vs 3. i have crys and yingrong in my team, and yumei, congrui and tingshan one team. we play halfway, these grp of guys playin nearby asked to join, all say ok, oni yingrong say no. lol, how cum i feel yingrong dun really like presense of guys har? haiya, too FOCUS on rosthline liao, lolx! :p we trash them! haha! yingrong was a great setter, that congrui ah, hit to her, she too scared to jie de, lol, so TOTALLY LA! haha, but congrui when she hit well, she hit to score k? so congrui, jia you! that stupid WuMing person, keep jump spike then touch net we dun mind la, wa lau, go stamp my feet!! &%%$* haha, then crys at the back, the ball came to her she one sec slow lor, she said she saw her sis ex? called Eric, then tingshan keep screamin Eric! Eric! lol, then the guys, they said they from Northview (yishun) sec after Yingrong told them we from NYGH, was like huh? see guys til like that? haha! ermm, thats wad i think goin on in their mind ba, haha! then we had so much fun, we were all very hyped, we said all the cheers. it goes like this: " Nanyang? Ace! Hwachong? Whoosh! We are? the man! [all together] YEAH! haha, then this grp of spectators followed us la, so copycat :p hmm, then we left, bid goodbye, take tram to homeground, took pics! of us jumpin into the air. thenwe went to toilet, to wash up, to fill our bottles with water, i dyin of dehydration le! then we took bus out of sentosa. went harbourfront mac to eat, cos we giv in to congrui, lolx! we had much fun callin sprank calls to celebrity and esp our dear own juniors la! they are so very cutee! [eh, and i hardly praise people cute de lor, cute to me dun stand cute boys, cute is bein gullible like mee!! hahahaha! :p] so we call lydia, lol, i think we entertain her a lot! haha, so sounded so happy over the phone. we talked to her about Hotel 81, i told her not to oversleep, crys said practice safe sex, lol, crys more polluted! :p then we called cheryl, she dunno shld say smart or gullible, tingshan said "this is travel agency, when u comin to collect ya ticket har?" cheryl is like "is this prank call?" then congrui grab the phone, said "hello" oni and cheryl said"oh, i noe its congrui liao!" haha, so funny,like TOTALLY LA! lolx! congrui pretended to be jiao lian and mdn Mak too, so stupid! then congrui said she's jia yin and tell cheryl to wear sanjiao and black jerseys to school, jiao lian wanna rehearse for sec 4 farewell party, then congrui also tell her to sms the others too, and cheryl really did! haha, then we saw her sms to tingshan and were all laughin lik emad la. lolx, i found a jnr like me de! hahha! and the others missed the fun la! we called shufeng too, then cos we wanna hang up liao, so we said we gonna dao her tml. wa lau i TOTALLY forget today la, im the oni one to window shop with her lo, haha! then after that we went home, reach home at 10:35pm. private life jiu dun nid say le, haha!:p

yeah, and now i come to 14th march! stupid traffis jam at BKE in the morning, im late lor!!! i damn piss with myself la! i wake up at 6 45am la, its like TOTALLY an hr plus before trg?!! i hated this ! then greg goh took my position. his spiking improved durin that one wk of OBS le, still can backspike somemore! hmm, then we had this sabotaging game at outdoor court, badminton usin indoor court le.. hah, but that game was fun lo! i dun wan to sabo de, but somehow my mouth called wrong person, haha, yall muz think i purposedly de, but i nv lor! i very focus on that ball lor! so dun play with me, i think in the end, wenjing suffer a lot, haha, no match for me, lol! then we sabo Mr Goh! he like use his foot one la, and man, he very pro at commando pushups, yumei tot thats very show off though, haha! then i to tyumei sabo jiao lian? keep callin jiao lian's name, then we got to see first time jiao lian do pushups in front of us,lolx! i think that's wad a team shld be. even coachand teacher in charge also pei the team players gong4 tong2 jing4 tui4! :) then we serve. i finish ten balls then talk to coach under shade liao, lol, she told me walk straighter, or the muscle will be very ugly, oh man, i will rmb that de! then later we had some PT. i no partner, Jing went tuition, so greg goh ju came and said "you no partner arh?" and then he put his leg on my shoes so i can do sit up lo, i noe others are muffling la, dun think i nv see! haha, then jiao lian even sit on me so i can do bei ji, actually jiao lian not very heavy leh, i feel so happy1 haha. ok, thats pure admiration for a coach oni, not any others! then after trg, we had wantedto go NJC to buy bubbletea de, stupid security guard, dun let us in.. then we went with zijie,kiral and eehong to ps. we went to arcade, yngtyng won at car racin again. zijie very cheat lor, go made congrui hair and steer her wheel, so she cant focus, then yumei from last becum 3rd. haha! we juz witnessed the power of love! we ate at BK. Kiral commented i eat finish one meal, zijie eat 6 liao. i dun eat after trg de. haha, and we had seen, today, for ourselves, the next season campus superstar Rejects! haha! zijie and eehong sing can imagine. then kiral mux be influenced de lor, haha! they support jay chou alot! then we had arm wrestling. i kinda won yngtyng. wa lau, shufeng, damn strong,like TOTALLY LA! i can feel her muscles tense can? and people there can actually see my face turn red. im puttin all my weight in my arm liao lor! stupid zijie la, wad"muz wei junhao zheng guang" crap la. i cannot believe k? i know i sittin position a little off, so its harder for me to win, but wa lau, shufeng is really strong, she train one la! then i still say she and yumei look most wen rou, then i concluded after arm wrestlin, yumei is the wen rou one, haha! my left arm lost to shufeng. i wanted to compete with congrui badly! but she scared of me, i mean she won shufeng lor! haiz! then zijie wanted to wrestle with me, say he two finger to my one hand or he one hand i two hands, but our tables apart la, he dun move, i dun move, so nv play lo. yumei juz told online she won zijie, i said he let her de, she said i xiao kan her, haha! man, the 3 guys very mascular la, we were like makin a lot of noise when they compete? shufeng scared balloons, i scared of their wad? muscles? dunno. its juz so oo! ah!! wah!! haha! zijie very strong. eehong also not bad leh! he two hands compete with kiral and zijie at same time lor. zijie won, but with much much effort. they and shufeng made me wanna train, i wanna do bench press!! all the train arm strength excerise! oh and everyone has been commenting about my eyes recently, they are same like kalun one la. juz dat shifu is at nite oni rite? mine is day also lor! i think yi chuan de lor, my parents also like that. lolz! then eehong and kiral keep tellin me dun cry, stupid la! then after lunch, shufeng boughht a 99% dark chocolate for me! wa lau, first time i eat chocolate so tong ku, damn bitter! then i reach upon this logic?/saying: chi de ku zhong ku, fang wei ren shang ren. wa, i eat the bitter one, meanin i ate the high class de liao, lol! its very bitter, powdery? cos not enough milk? bleh, dunno, next time buy 72% hao le. thanks shufeng anyway, thats vey nice of u! im keepin the wrapper. i have this box, inside all the stuff is from vballers de, maybe i bring it at next yr sec 4 farewell party, then everyone can trace back memories! lolz! window shop with shufeng is pleasin, slack, relaxed. i came upon this brownie recipe book, then brownie ice cream cake seems so appealing huh? its rather easy to do lor. haha! yup, then my sis supposed to pass me stuff, then she reach ps le, call me said the bag left at home, i was like kkeep sayin she stupid la, haha! but i muz say my this second sister very sensible and caring, i of cos nv scold her like siao la, juz jokingly say she stupid lor, haha! actually im not a very good big sister... :( yeah, then i went home lor.

2006-03-10T04:04:00.000-08:00

Yo! wow! cannot believe OBS was over, OVER! it was tiring. and i really really never bring trhe correct attitude there. was sian, your all know i tot going there was to feed mosquitoes one lor, and surprising i had less than 8 bites ba, ya. and i never get sunburn k, yeah, perhaps a little tan le ba, hahaha! but got some bad stuff too la, like i got a blister on my foot and sore throath block nose[i was sick even before obs]. yeah, shall tell ya wad i do there.

Yoyo, im in watch TANZING, and i had this damn nice and friendly instructor called ANDY! haha, Debra and Jia Chin were crazy over him. Everyone misses Andy!! ooh.. okok, on Day 1, we actually then know our watch. me and lynette were prayin and prayin that we can be in same watch lor, and yeah! we are! yu hsuan was not with us at time though, she was the last gal to board the boat. me and lynette were so hapy la, lynette hug me like we are some lesbian, lolx! then we started to pray for yuhsuan too, but sad la, she in SLACKeton lor, lolx! [actually its sHacketon la, lolx] but shacketon the people had very light backpack la, so i think they SLACK, haha! erm, ya, so on day 1 again, we played this rope game, and cannot believe that was my highest point liao lor, [at the back, im really pulling away from the team :p]. wad we do is the rope had this loop, and we were standin in a circle, holdin hands, we were supposed to get the loop over everybody, its hard from the start, then we tot heck care la, so we use our teeth to bite the rope and get it our the person in front of us, a little bian tai, haha! but i think its more of like 'hey, i dare to bite a dirty rope, a good start sia?' lolx! i realised i need to pack 4 shorts, an di pack one oni, i think i cock-eyes liaox, haha, so worried la. keep askin other vballers they got xtra not. they dun haf la, but hey! i actually survived with one shorts can?! and its not like unhygenic and stuff lor. i had managed to wear dry clothes while some others need to rewear they wet attire? lolx, that was considered rather an achievement! then we got to our store to check on facilities, count our food lor. oh, and i volunteered to be Day 4 de IC. then we had lunch har? we were to choose our no: lor, then cos they go clockwise and im the third person, i had to take #3, even after beggin and pleain!! very very sad! its not like petty or wad lor, its jux.. spoil my mood, really. and im like that one, when my mood low, unless someone really really cheered bseil to be exact, and we also had some dive, like clasp ya hand in front of ya chest and fall backward. ya, and we had dinner le ba? i nv bring my toothbrush out lor! so erherm, brush with fingers, :p. i cannot dun brush one, or at night cant sleep well de. mindy nv brush her teeth throughout camp lor, haha, so scary. then shared tent with melanie, jia chin, debra, and lynette. first nite i slept the well ba. other nights were juz squeezy and horrible with all the rocks and lumps of mud beneath.

then second day, we learnt how to kayat. first wade water, then we went deeper. then at this point, a school of fish swim by la, my god! and jia chin' s face like scrunched up, like wad weird weird stuff is that, then the fish start jumpin out of the water, oh my god! so scary la, its damn lot of fish can? then keep fly past her face, oh man, haha. mindy is like in the arms of Andy? haha, good thing for bein small, u always have that extra care de, but mindy can be strong la, really. then we went ashore and i had a burst blister liao lor! my feet chao sensitive? one de lor, i nv wear socks then got blister, so sad, very pain la! then enter sea water, add salt on wound man! oh! then we kayat to camp 1, where its the residential area, me and lynette kayat til drift til dunno where la, so we asked Andy to give us a ride, then we juz grab on his motorboat and we su fu de reach camp 1, hahaha! then afterwards rite, oni my watch went to do abseiling down a cliff lor, cool rite? i knock into the rocks, haha, then the dirt like fall on my shirt?haha, but that was fun and we had a good chat while waitin, i was sleepin, we also enjoy a very nice view of sea and sky and rocks. dinner was yummy, so do lunch and supper and breakfast next morning. food at residential area is lots better than can food, trust me, they at least have vegs la! we ate wad peanuts, ikan bilis, hotdogs, bake beans, sardines, curry chicken, campbell mushrm soup, maggi, biskuits and we had 8 loaves of bread, peanut butter, butter and jam, tuna, prunes, layer cake, its a lot la, but wads better than cooked food?! lolx!

third day! HORRIBLE n MEMORABLE day. think of it now, i feel nth, but tired! can u imagine kayatin for 8 hrs?!! its 'breath-taking'[ almost take away my breath la!] damn hard, and lynette is 'i cannot do it liao', very discouraging, and sad la, its me she's partnering, i kinda pissed? cos its very discouragin, and our kayat always oneof the few at the back, its pressurin on me can? i was basically yellin at lynette, shoutin left right, 1,2, lean forward!, paddle deeper! then i even said 'why dun i paddle, u juz lean forward k?' can u guys sense im losin my temper? i think its too much of me to say that last sentence, sorry lynette (again)[i apologise to her a lot of times liaoz, but i still feel very sorryy..] haiya, i was scared? frustrated? i needed enthu pple? i dunnoe!! then at the choppy water, i cried lo. its quite stupid la, huh? but this huge waves juz splashed on our kayat, and we almost capsize? capsizin isnt really scary, i meant the worst is capsizin, so wad's there to scared of? i seriously dunnoe lor, im tensed, i..i wad the heck! i reflected, im bein inconsiderate to lynette, lynette is not the sports kind, its normal if her stamina is a bit lousier? than mine and other factors la. dui bu qi lynette! alright, then we reached shore, jump into quarry, thats our bath of the day, the feelin is shiok! the water feels clean, but we had to leave by 7pm, cos the monitor lizards and other animals will go there when the sun sets. its was early bedtime that day. ooh! and i muz say about the stars! (the public toilet too) wow, that day the stars were beautiful, very magnificant, very aww.. aiya, its beyond description, haha! and the public toilets. they are really 'PUBLIC' lor, out in the open, in the woods, haha! ok, say no more about that, but i think the part where we are gals school make things less embarrassin? (i tot of this oni now though)

forth day! we had some "MY bony flows? over the ocean" game, gave our blessin in this morning circle, and off we go on a hike! we were supposed to collect points on the way. so we walked, and walked and walked... for wad seem like eternity, then Andy said 'we had gone the wrong way!!!" basically, im too tired to feel for anything can? i nv sleep well oni for the first day? Sera was irritated though.. she carried the tents all the way lor. wad is sock keng thinking? its like she's really helpful, very pin lo, but everything that sera do, she feels she muz do too,she muz help. haiya, thats actually why i like NPccs too, lolx! so we hike for 5+ hrs, the backpack is damn heavy! lynette offered to carry the tents, she's actually stronger than me, im a sportswoman, but i juz dun understand the lack of energy in me.. haiz, so bei ai.. i was iC of the day rmb? so i be pple to go bath, i took a long bath myself, haha! we played some group skipping game and group walking with this plank of wood beneath us. we compete with Livington? the score is 1:1. then we were restin, and mindy and pamelia, or issit jolyn keep starin at my legs then say very long, its kinda weird weird de, lolx! then i offered to cook. they wanted buttered rice, so pamelia and i cook! wad the, in the first place, bei4 peixia shuo1 zhong4, the rice too little water, then pple keep liftin the lid, so in the end, the bottom part is burnt, the other all uncook!! and we cook for 2hrs can?!!! haiz, i tang tang one iron chef, got to ru2 ci3 di4 bu4, so sad! we cook maggi in the end, and i juz ate bread with peanut butter and jam lo. sleepin at the side of thetent doesnt give u more space! i learnt that..

5th day! They started to count the equipments, we lost a jet knife, its more ex compared to other watch, TENZING enjoys many privilege la, ya, so each of us have to pay 40 cents. the total cost is $6. okay, then we had some flyin activities, we skip jetty jump, cos we had no more clothes and Andy said its high tide, so we oni fall a 1.2m height, not excitin at all. ya so after that we had our final briefin. andy told us a story, shld i tell? alrite, i shall cut it short.

a woman and her daughter were at the airport sayin their goodbye. the daghter said, "mom, the time i spent with u is enough to make me happy throughout my life, i love u mom!" the woman said" Daughter , i wished you enough!" and they hugged. the daughter left and the woman walked to the place where she can see the plane take off. i saw her cryin, i did not want to interrupt her, but my curiosity got the better of me and i walked forward to ask her,"ma'am, i heard u telling ya daughter i wish u enuf, can i ask wad's the meanin?" the woman said that the next time her daughter would fly back would probably be when preparin for her funeral. she went on sayin the blessin"i wish u enuf" is pass down for generations and it meant: i wish u enuf happiness, so ya life is enrichin, i wish u enuf pain so u appreciate the smallest hapiness in ya life, i wish u enuf gain, so ya life is fulfilin, i wish u enuf lost, so u treasure the posessions of urs. "child," the woman said, "i wish u enuf." and she walked away.

and with that, guys, i wish u enuf! "(touchin?, cryin?) haha. we cried too when Andy told us that, and even more when he actually open up and told us he lost his mom in 1999, and he start cryin, sayin he hadnt said enuf how much he loves her, it was so sad! oh Andy.. Andy said he open up to us cos we are like his friends, n the bond we share is diff from other watch he's in charge of. we missed Andy.. To Andy, TENZING, allu guys out there, "i wish you enough!"

yeah, and obs isnt over yet!! we took the bus which air con is spoiled, i was doin free sauna there la, sweat like dunno wad. then we alight at nygh, and i really wondered if the open air is air-con, so cool! haiya, anw, obs is over. i had actually survived with 1 fbts, haha. ya, and no sunburn or sandfly bites, i m very tired now, tml we are goin sentosa! not really enthu, think cos i sick. but i believe bein with teammates is always fun. i miss trainin alot, i wanna spike! i wanna da bi sai, i wonder how our jnr perform, i miss team outing, i miss my phone! haha! but im back, home sweet home!!

2006-03-05T21:40:00.000-08:00

yo guys, hasnt it been long since i blog? haha, bet you all miss me! (say yes though it may be not k, for i am the birthday gal! haha:p) well, i have many stuff to comment on, but now i suddenly dunno where to start leh... hmm...
so the last post stop at cny, i start from there? haha, then i will summaries one whole month of events, lol! after cny is kl shifu bday liao, the whole team bought him a shirt, the design is nice lor, (me, jiayin, yngtyng and wenjing find one, cos the shop too crowded, whole team cant sqeeze in), but the size is chao big, sorry ah, we have came to a conclusion that day that guys look AT LEAST better when they wear loosely, rather than tight fitting clothes, haha! u can wear that as night gown la, :p. erm.. actually like many pple go to kl hse de, then in the end only got me jiayin and yngtyng pei kl watched i not stupid 2, kl treat us to dinner at thai express! my shifu is very nice rite?! oh, and thai express food are not bad, juz a bit ex ba, but oishiii desu. haha. erm, i cry till eyes sore means sth hits me emotionally la, so i was very saddened by the fact that joseph became an orphan lor. haha, and kl say he stand beside the red eye me like he bully me like that, lol! so after movie, i went home lor, at 2330++ lor, nv say happybday to kl, scared my bus service stop. well i reached home walkin up the dark route lor, haha. was admirin the stars and silence all the way.
eh, haha, i want to fast forward alot alot to my birthday k? haha:p yeah! its my bday and its 12 and its quite sad to not receive any sms! bleh, but my future dui jiao, yng tyng, smsed me, first! haha, thank you yng tyng! then its crys, then jia yun(wincoln included) and kalun, then yumei, then eehong, then zijie, then seeting, then lynette, yuhsuan, eunice, charlene, then my sis, then my dad, then darren, then wenjing, congrui, yingrong, then yanliang,then jingyu, jiasin, then may and chloe and then iayin. haha, aint that alot?!! yeah, i feel im such a blessed little? gal! so i start the day with HSK briefing, didnt attend my maths training, its was fun at the start, with all the listenin, and im seen to be chao enthu by my friends, haha! the audi was super warm at the beginnin la. i got grade 8 in the end, w/o countin the tian xie han zi part, cos i haven complete that. then went with jia sin to bukit timah plaza, to cut some mirror for her physics project:caledoscope. waited very long lo, then we went walkin ard after we gave the uncle the measurement. congrui called usin yingrong phone and cui me to reach KAP by 10 mins, cos Jing had tuition later. so jiasin bought me a walnut pecan cheesecake ! before i rushed there. haha, that was my first time at BTP man, i didnt expect to see more pple there than COro lor, there's certain nice shops there la, like there's this one shop called ATTITUDE, think they provide very relaxed environment and there's very delightful cakes there! lol, me and jiasin say we go there after obs, then the five days torture would juz go away! anyway, while rushing to KAP, i saw chloe, chloe forgot my name, but she found me familiar. she was thinking why this gal is running across the road and stoppin at the traffic lights, then in the end, she herself walk also reach the trafic light junction wad, so she dun see the use of this gal(me) running, haha! we chatted til the greenman appeared, and i again ran my way to MACS, i wonder if pple know, but my team is gettin more and more impt to me as time pass, everyday with my teammates is juz relax and enjoy,slack/sianx? but we juz stroll on, its juz nice to haf their company. ok, back to Macs, reached there and was presented with balloons, we sat at this balloon flooded area, they blow the balloons themselves one lor, so touched! then i feel so apologetic to wenJing, sorry for keepin u waitin... so yumei, crystal, congrui, wenjing, and yingrong celebrated crys, mine and usin a very weird way : summoning huiying sprit to celebrate huiying bday too! lolx! then jing went for physics tuition, thank you jing, for celebratin my bday with me, it may be short, but its wonderful to have you there! so we were very sianx later, we went to taka, stroll and stroll lor. congrui was our tour guide, we were supposed to act very rich, then shoppin ard those very ex shops like tiffany and co. haha! we saw Mrs Shirley Wong comin out of a very ex jewelery shop, she spook us, wa, she damn shocked la, then like quick explainin to us her Banker not here, lolx. we were abt to shop other places when yingrong received a call from jiaolian, jiao lian say she was at taka la, say we saw her nv greet her. then she gave us hint, say she at b1 and drinkin coffee now. man, we suddenly chao excited and start lookin for her at b2, yup its b2! yingrong lor, haha, mistook b2 for b1! ... we walked in rounds at b2 lor, haha. we found jiaolian at bistro deli at b1 then wonder y i so stupid la, see her want to cry liao.( lolx, if you read the xian zai today, the horoscope section, under quan yi feng pic, got mention pple of my horoscope, the women are made of water de, lol! ) jiaolian husband felt chao awkward lor, cos we like blockin the passageway? ya, when we left bistro deli, we were commentin jiaolian very rich la, burberry top, some ex skirt and choker somemore! i was focusin on her skirt, for five plus yrs, i nv see coach in skirt one k, then i believe congrui is focusin on her top, haha! and issit crys or yingrong who say jiaolian has a choker, lolx!thanks to jiaolian, we manage to waste some time away, lolx! then we made our way to summerset, yingrong wanna pass yngtyng sth. then these gals want us to help do survey, we walk away, then i tot they so ke lian, i tell yingrong we go offer them help la, but they came and we do lor :) then jia yin came, then they went off, then we went off too. went to "walk around" then go eat lor. * the followin, guys read at own risk! i learnt a new vocab, 'lingerie' is not pronouns as [lin-ge-rie] but [lau-ju-ry]?? haiya, sth like that la, lolx! eat at ps mos burger. yumei and crys was sayin this woman in red was starin at us la, cos we wouldnt leave our seat, but its cos my burger haven come ma, when the person serve my burger the woman leave lor, haha. yumei and congrui tested my iq! i cong ming le k! haha! i ans all qns correctly! yumei look so "ya, rite!" then show me thumbs-up, haha! i know crys lots! then we went to carefour, i bought sports shoes for camp, $10 so cheap, can throw away after use, lol. then i feel like buyin stuff for the others, feel a little rich ma, but they dunno how to take advantage of me, haiz.. then went home lo. wait for zijie at my busstop, he super shy la, dunno how to pass me present, tot after he know yumei not shy liao,lol. then he walk me home lor, reach le then hide behind pillar to pass, haha! but i like the wallet very much la, thank you eehong and kiral, and zijie said he gave more cos he walk me home, ok lor, very thank you to zijie, my coach! i actually prepare myself for the worst lor, cos last xmas present didnt leave a good impression, haha! crystal felt very unfair, she asked why zijie nv give her present, a quarter eraser is also better than none, lolz! erm, ya, thank you all for ya present, my team the very yummy black forest cake, junhao the soft toy, jiayun and kalun the very meaninful bear, shifu later decided not to nie dai me and offered a movie treat, and jiasin for the cheesecake, lynette's givin me at obs, haha. thank you all. friends are so precious to me! ! erm, i wanna wish stafani happy bday today, and renxiang and nicola happ bday on the 6th, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

a lot of stuffs happened in feb lor. we had our zonals, we suck, lost to all schools. haiz.. basically, i cried afterr all game la, lolx. i remembered after jurong's match, i felt so dui bu qi jiao lian lor. i feel chao useless that time. jiao lian teach me for 5+ yrs and im still not her best player, i havent made her proud. jiao lian is ai mian zi one lor, but y? y cant i give her the main zi she SHOULD receive, she's an olympic player leh, she muz be damn disappointed. then i tot if i say im sorry, then she will reply me say its all whether we did our best and if we got dui bu qi ourself, then my eyes welled up in tears liao la, thinking all these to myself.. then jiao lian saw me eyes red, ask me why, i burst out cryin liaoz. haha, hai the whole team cry with me.. so sorry... then the one i remembered most clearly is when its our last match with bpgh, the one we had won when we were c div, the seniors cried lor. at first we all juz sad oni, then i step into toilet and saw samantha and Jing cry lor. i was like dun cry.. then jia yin offered a hug lor, then i saw Jing cry until very xin teng, i very xin tong leh! right in front of me is my dui jiao, the person who has trained me to be a better player, who covered my faults, and this is her last match. i rmbed that day she didnt get to play all the sets, and we nv play well for the snrs, i was sad. i really cannot be her dui jiao le, no more, for the sec school life. oh my god, i could think no more and start huggin her and cry. then i cry til use wrong face towel, used dao Jing's towel la, :p. haha, sorry Jing, think only when u read this will you know. then i was cooling down le, but the others go ask Jing ok not, then go hug her, then me and Jing actually not huggin le, but then juz haiya, hug lo. it was a tight squuze which made me really cry, zhen de ku le, man, i will miss Jing de! [i muz stress here though, that guys, im straight k. haha] i am cherishing all the trainings now lor, i think we all agree being with Jing is fun. haha, and recently ive been takin the very high class 154 bus with Jing home, lolx! Jing will always will our good captain, my good dui jiao, everybody's hao peng you! enjoy ya prom night! lol!

then its yingrong bday! haha, that day was very fun lor, all the eatin and playin! we at first meet at Toa Payoh Library, then we surprised yingrong! we we showered her with lots of food, jia yin said oni food can make yingrong man zhu, haha! we went to eat at swensens, i ate the kiddo meal, then we had earthquake!!! i ordered the peanut butterscotch flavour is very nice, the lime shebert too! then after that the very blur yng tyng, blurer than me, left her wallet in the restaurant lor, heng the manager later pass to her. then we went to arcade to play, i was jia youin those who play the car racin one, yngtyng chao pro, always first one lor, i was supportin yumei, crys, and Jing and others lor, then wad? shufeng wanna play the drummer thingy, so i help with the top most part, lol. then there's these 3 guys, one from cat high, wenjing knows him, then his friend chao good at that ok, all of us totally amaze lor! then we went home after that lo, think it was 9+ then. i tell you, the earthquake is the day's best part, really very good lor! wah, i can the whole team's hapiness man! wo men yao you fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang! :)

yeah, i shall finished my post with my results hao le. overall my el, ss, and maths is total crap. i dun really dislike maths and el one lor, im enthu can? i muz get b3 and above for these two subject! others all a1, a2 and high b3, yang yi pin through term 1 le, jia you. the road ahead is shining brightly! but first, yang yi wanna rest for hols! haha. qiu ke shi masu!

yes! oarimasu! signing off with love here!! <3

2006-01-26T12:42:00.000-08:00

ello guys! surprised that i blog? lolx. but the reason is cos i wanna say thanks

thanks to all, my family, and friends.
i really wan to thax my teammates, for all ya care and concern, even jing sent me a letter by post to console me abt my (paternal)grandmother's death. thx jing! and also all those letters that you guys wrote to me, im seriously touched, i mean, i dunno, but i am very sad, as in happy till sad cos i hadnt noe im so fortunate to have u all. i felt my importance.
so guys, rest asure that i will play hard for the match and i will create qi fen on court!! i love u guys all.. *god, i think im gettin emotional... bleh

erm, kalun case is so sad, my shi fu, propro de shi fu, cant play vb, his passion. i wished the doctor made wrong conclusion and u can play vb after all. get well soon, and dui gang with me k? an experience player is alwaes better at qiu gan. (not niaoin at others la) hmm.. well, at least u seem happy, jia you ba!!

oh, and i cant use my aunt's com animore, she ban me from usin after i bu zi dong, still msn chattin at 2am, hahaz, thats another reason why i blog today, so at least i update kinda durin cny?? yup! my best fren may update for me though.. hiaz, no com de ri zi, dunno how to past...

okay!! so happy new yr to u all, ny and hci vballers and all my frens, jia sin, lynette, haha, yup yup! the dog yr will be better than the rooster one! definitedly!!! so smilez, guys! we all can do it, in all difficulties and stuffs! :)
alrite, gg for cny celebration le, byebye!!

2005-12-29T19:24:00.000-08:00

k, i dunnoe wad to say after i lost so much of my post. haiz..... HAIZ!!! when cani learn from my lesson??!!

i shall cut short then.

tuesday at Queenways shopping centre was fun. i saw timothy!! my long lost god bro! and jing yi and nicholas, all from my pri sch! crys gave up a very nice white addidas shoe bag cos eehong has that too. i was saying he's so rich he has everything, having something common with him is qiao3 he2 oni. we were laughing about zijie and yumei's bed, it would be suspended in the air! and crys and eehong's room will be soundproof- too meng liaoz! lolz! saw tim and others at ikea too, wondering if i will see them for a third time, but nah.. kalun was mad becos his hp is taken, so i was trying to alkaline him. kalun and darren were very funny in the bus, kalun was very scared of congrui, and darren said he should be lucky he's in front of him, "我永远在这里支撑着你!", lolx, cos kalun is losing his balance when the bus stop, inertia in him cant stop, lolz! they were so gay! then they took a sip of pure volka, nice isnt it?! lolx, their face change almost immediately, esp Darren, he look so funny! congrui, crys and i took a sip from the bottle too. i feel warm from the throat then to the stomach. congrui didnt noe how strong it is la, took a big mouth, and was like "water! water!" i quickly pass her my water bottle lor. hahaz! she's very funny too! dinner at pasta mania at cine, eehong told me he's not in humans programme, bluff me lor. wad msg 5.1, 1.5 isnt? u dun look like those toot type lor. and i finally see through his one lie! he's not from ats, cos he say 6k is the first class, but its 6a!! lolz! regarding shi hui, i still dunnoe. then in the bus, first time eehong joined the bukit panjang gang, lolx. the guys were suaning my maths, fine, i dun deny i juz pass my maths. ask me 100m is how many cm, ok, i noe now, 10 000cm! ! then we were saying eehong korean guy. jia yun says he's bei yong jun, anutie killer, then i heard monkey killer, then zijie they all were laughing like siao la! hahz! so on that day, i got 3 guys sending me home, lolz!! :p

thursday, juz ytd, was a very fun day! it was last day at ny hall doing our trg too. so sad.. and i was late!! got punished, ran 10 rounds around hall. then after trg, i ran extra 10 rounds with see ting. after that, the crappy teachers 'conference' stuff upset everyone... then we went to meet the guys at west coast.there's oni kalun and zijie. we drew our family tree, zijie and yumei's room with their suspended bed and zimei's cot! lolz! then we draw lots! Eehong's the person who lie to me these 3 days, man, its so zun lor!! ok, then we played volleyball at the grassy patch. before that, cong rui was making us laugh with her big leaf, hahaz! rained, and we went to macs again, zijie staged a solo puppet show of yumei giving birth to triplets, lolx! we called zhu mimi, i wanted to call tay ping hui one lor, god, they have alot of celebs' hp no:!! we went kalun's house when the rain stop, he's a very nice host!, bought us drinks and chocolates, then we went to his room to slack. then we go to the basketball court at around 5:30pm, this was the "tiger" time!!! FUN, EXTREME FUN N LAUGHTER!! <3>
i conclude we had loads of fun ytd, so ytd. we all agree we dun mind coming out to trg, ran so pin. we can train stamina, and lose weight!! hahaz! but school's starting soon, ah!!! so crappy, lots so problems pop up, clash with my jap and trg, jiao lian says im out of main 6 if i go third lang, Crap!!! then wad, the school end at 3pm next yr? then trg at 3pm too, then we have to take bus and walk, then wun we waste a lot of time? den studies? can i cope? i seriously think i need someone to help me!! HELP!! sumone rescue me!! ok, then back to question, how can we have time like that?! to play netball again??? haiz!! ok, i plan to finish my maths hw asap, jia you yang yi! ganbatte yo!!

2005-12-26T12:45:00.000-08:00

hello guys! as i say, im a happy gal this week in general!!
i spent xmas eve and xmas at crys house. the day past by with not much of climax, but it was funny, very funny, lame, hahaz! crys house is good place to rot la, first day the guys played ps, then i play daitee with kalun they all lor, hahaz, me and jia yun always gang up against him. oh, i became Darren's shifu!! i say a few lines oni, you noe, then he noe how to play liaoz, hahaz!! he kinda teach me how to play ps too, the KIng Kong disc, but its quite boring, so i didnt play much. but Darren, thx for teaching me to press the 'x' button like most of the time! hahz, lolz. im very mean to my shifu, hahaz ! Darren made my day, he's such a sweet guy, u noe, he bite into my brownie and immdiately said "omg, its better than starbucks la! " muz i blog that its the malaysia starbucks he tokin abt? nvm. its very nice lor, superb k? zijie ate two. why? cos this guy named eehong got afraid by my very lame piece of xmas card. hahaz, thx Kiral for showing that type of weird looking face, then we keep forcing him to eat the brownie, then he even frightened, so zijie juz took it and eat lor. zijie and darren appreciates good stuff! then that kalun also, keep saying it looks like shit, then eat all the hershey kisses, and i gave him xtra one more. then when darren say till so nice, i call him and start boasting, no, persuading him to eat lor. he said he share with his mom la, lolz, its already so small??! wad a good *____ (boy)! lolz!! erm.. dinner at kfc, zijie was so hyped, he kept jumpin around!! lolz, kept saying "我疯了!" hahaz, yumei was like "omg, i think he got fever le" then keep massaging him likethat. very concern* (mushy)... nvm. lolz! they seriously behave like adult couples, good for them!! oh ya, jiayun was toking abt semen in my burger at kfc la, then i so slow, ask"what's semen?" lolx, why am i like so....'cute'? hahz!! tok with zijie and jiayun all the way on the bus, then got off the bus with guess wad?! the bag of prezzies for the hci pple! its supposed to be with jiayun lor, but he standing, so ask me hold for him, then i juz got off the bus so hastily??! haiz, til zijie call me then i realise, lolx!

second day, cry house again!! the bukit panjang pple meet kalun at Woodlands interchange. so in the bus, we were comparing who's the odd one out, then jia yun is like alwaes not the odd one? till we say our hp all open, oni his is not, then finally! he's odd one out! hahz. then is like me and jiayun were competing who's the chang2 qi4 one. fine, sure im the one who's cheng qiangin, dunnoe how many brain cells i'd killed! lolz! then kalun and zijie all went to sit elsewhere liaoz. we were very stupid outside crys gate, we actually wanted to make pranks calls( on the door), press doorbell, no one ans, then we made noises, i said so loudly "kalun, u very lame leh!" still no one ans! til zijie open the door, so teh door was already open... we feel so stupid la. slacking time at crys house again! they went to lunch out leaving me, kalun and jiayun having fun on msn! so there goes my short post thing ytd! lolz. we watched mr and mrs smith, all of us! starin at the tv, the guys hate the storyline, say there's none at all. hahaz! then zijie had to reach b4 9pm, then i also dun wan to get scolded for going home late, so we went for dinner at 7 lor, compass point again, but ytd was macs! i felt the chemical reactions from chilli and tomato sauce! thx to kalun! i laugh til cry at my retardedness, lucky kalun had a lot of survettes to provide me! he analysis i am a 报复心重的人。kalun's a very nice guy, i keep saying la, so crap, but really la, he has no bi qi one. guys qi him is acidic, gals qi him is alkaline, so he said it neutralise lor, haha! it was very fun at dinner, zijie shared his fries with the gals, so do kalun. jia yun eat so much, still kope the gals fries! lolx!! well, its not ours from the start, so nvm, hahaz!! jia yun, the oldest among us, still made concoctions that he dun even dare try, make kalun a little bu4 man3, lolx! so we split with crys and congrui later, tok again with the guys, kalun was listening to his songs quietly. me and jiayun is the tok non stop one la, hahaz! then we gek junhao, with smses, sorry... we were juz playin la. i think kalun was very happy ytd, at interchange sent the 3 of us sms, say merry xmas, thx, and 'had fun', wad u mean har? ? and shldn't it be *have fun?? hahaz! lolx. and he received these calls from a gal, chat so long sia? :p back on 963, sit in our formation at the back, chat lor. jia yun sms crys say he want to jump off the building, me and zijie were betting congrui will say jump ba jump ba, then crys will say lolx... hahaz. i keep saying crys is the cleverest for these type of lame stuff la, then jiayun got back her reply, "omg, wad happen?!" omg, crys, i very disappointed leh! i tot oni me would possibly believe lor, then you believe! hahaz! but u later say why u reply that la, hahz, so funny!

i got scolded by my dad for going home so late, keep asking me “你可以不要打球了没有？” since he's ask so straightly, i reply straightly too "不可以." its like i put in so much effort in volleyball, u juz cant ask me to stop! it has been my passion, i 'd nv give up on it b4, and jiao lian says she like me cos i very nu3 li4 , i am no talent, but i work my way up to main 6, how, how could i ever give up?! dad says i cant play vball at the expanse of studies, i didnt! i work even harder in sec 2 than sec 1! im very sure of that!! and he said he's a little disappointed in me, all that i promise him... is nth... i hate it! its xmas, then he juz call me suddenly and started not scold, telling me. you noe, sometimes u feel if the person beat you, it would be better than he keep quiet? that's how i feel! wadever la! i noe im goin to hcjc, soi will work my way there, and its not gonna be at the expanse of vball! no way!! im too enthu liaoz! haha!!

im happy for xmas overall! i sent sms to lots of pple and i got the reply of one i wish to receive the most! erm.. but that's besides the point. spending christmas with friends is fun! thx crystal firstly for lending out her house for us to rot, and its a very low budget place for us brokers! hahaz! then i muz thx the guys (i meant yumei, cong rui and teh guys), its not always teh guys im tokin abt,k?, lolz, ya, anw, thx for accompanying me, or i'd be at Subwy, haha! i had a very funny xmas, and a nice one, with guys telling me white lies on white christmas! thx junhao for cheering me up b4 christmas eve! lolz!

yup, that's all, its a long post again! bear with it, guys!! byee!!

2005-12-25T15:31:00.000-08:00

~hello guys, *merry CHRISTMAS*!!

(SHORT RITE? :) )

2005-12-23T11:53:00.000-08:00

Hello, guys! i am a very happy and gay gal this week!! hahz! Caution: you will be reading a very long post starting from 3, 2, 1....NOW!! lolz!

ok, so on Monday, i went to my sec2 class chalet, overall, it was rather sianx, we juz played blackjack,taidee, bridge (im gettin good at this *), cheat, speed?, then until bored of these games, we even played donkey, haha, tink we were really juz too bored.. Second day, i stayed in the chalet whole time. played (*gambled) cards and eat junk food, didnt even follow my friends for dinner outside, stay alone at chalet to watch 7pm show. And on the first evening, i saw my ex vball close friend, Quan Yin!! she happened to be my neighbour la! my room is P09, she's P10, having bbq with her sec2 friends too! we chatted about aitiong vball stuff, she introduced me to her class vballers, and we dui gang a little. Later when my friends and i came back from dinner and arcade, she passed me bbq food la! hahaz, see! w/o me, how can u guys get bbqed food?

~Interesting stuffs at chalet
1. My ex vball friend's de guys classmates all 'attracted' to me! keep on asking me out to tok to them. knock on our door, and the linkin door too.. play some tong hua songs loudly at the linkin door to get attention, but annoyed my friends though.. my classmates open the door and started scolding very cold and harshly, they had to work the day after. Earlier before i borrowed from them matchsticks to light the candles,( we were celebrating Huiqi's b day), then they rather piss they gave us bbq food and matches and we still en jiang chou bao, they demand the matches back, but we didnt gave back until later on. i was in the bathroom when they were shouting f across e room la, then when i come out, the linkin door was open, then i rather malu lor, though Quan yin's not there, they were afterall her friend, and they were juz trying to be friendly, but my friends think otherwise though, think they were tryin to get attention, and only i xin ruan(soft-hearted), would actually chat with them.. hey are really nice guys lor, the next morning i was still sleeping like a pig la, and they check out, they gave us their junk foods leh! all the crackers and stuff. Rui Ping keep saying they like me la,lolx, cant help if i have the mei4 li4, haha! jk. i jiao you guang kuo!! :P
2. First night, eehong messaged me, we smsed til around 3am, then there's this period whereby my hp breakdown la, then very long nv reply, sorry ah! Next afternoon then wake up, eat bread for bruch, then watch super sunday ba, the Xu Lao Shi exercise was very funny, the little boy was chao cute!! haha, was told junhao became chao angry when he know me and eehong smsed WHOLE night, lolz, we gek you one la, its not "whole" u noe?lolz!
3. i went to find the chalet we stayed with hci, D04, but the D04 i saw is single layer and there's no playground around there, and the bikes rental shops arent there too! iwas ratherconfused, keep thinking why issit like that? then after chalet ask jh, then realise its east coast, costa sands resort that we ent, not pasir ris costa sands, chey.. i was toot la
4. Erm, i receive crap calls from Lame Tian Wang, was asked wad colours i like, but cant choose red, black and white. *then very little choices leh! i chose grey in the end. kalun say he like a little of this and that colour, rainbow colour la! lolz! sorry, the line cut, one is cause im huggin my friend then press wrongly, the other time is cause reception lor, hahaz, gome! Junhao have real nice teammates, treasure them man!!
5. After watchong Lost season1, we slept. was sleeping at the corner of the bed, 5 pple squeeze into 2 beds, finally got kicked out of bed at 5am, then it rained outside juz now and earlier before, when we were playimg speed outside, we saw this cockroach crawling at the seat la, so i dun dare sit there le, was sitting on the floor outside chalet for like forty mins, then went to the swimming pool to stroll, then sit at the reception area, *where there's space to sleep, waited til 6am, then started to head for the beach. i seriously didnt noe where the beach was, so i find my way to the gate first, then believe pple will be heading to the beach to see sunrise too, i was right! there were pple, so followed lor. it was like at almst 6:40+am when the sun rises, the view was beautiful. But i focus more on the sea though, cos at first when the sun havent rise,i've been starring at it, lolx. the waters were warm. the waves were rthymic. it was until i walked into it much than the other few times, did i realise i wasin the water, hahaz. was having fun picking up those pretty shells, there's one which i like alot, cos it look like the one that my friend handmade for me. wrotes names on the sand, took loads of pics!! so i was on my way back to chalet, then heard this guy told the other guy, "eh, 美女来了！" hahaz, no mistake lor, there's no one behind me, so its ME!! yeah! i was so happy? honoured? lolz. then walked past them, the gal with them said something then the guy said ok lor, i think she's asking if this is considered mei nv, lolz, nvm.. at least im ok- looking! then that guy was dare to get my hp no: la, he was like running behide me, wa siao, i should feel happy right? but i walked even faster, hahaz, think i fear this kind of stuff. the guy stop running after a short distance, then his friend was like “就知道你不敢!" hahaz, tot i was rather relieve
6. Washed my shells twice in hot and cold water, to kill all the germs and clean it, then leave it aside. then was in a rush to pack lugguage at the last min, so i poured the water away( wass soaking it in warm water), and put the shells on tissues and into a plastic bag. juz its too wet, then i put on the table first, guess wad?! i didnt take it back with me la!! wa lau, i spent 1hr to picked it one leh, and its not only one type of shells lor, there's more than 10 types, i can say! i was so pek chek when i reached home and find out lor.

Lesson learnt
find someone your same size! you can say you are in special stream, and ur class is made up of the sch's top 100 in front of hci or rgs, wadeva, dun say in front of pierce!! hahaz! ok, im juz lame and crappin.. but really sorry jeryl, (did i spell wrongly?), and the other guys, i noe i shouldn't say that, juz crappin, u noe..

ytd's trg was fun, super duper!! i think i was like a little kid, keep laughing, went super hyped when i won jiao lian. she fang4 me , then i save the ball and the ball went to the other side of the court *near the NET,where's she's not there!! then i won. hahaz, she say she would fang me later, she did after a few balls, i didnt get to save the first ball well, get it out of court and jing had to fall on the ground to save.. second ball was a NICE TRY, yea, so we lost the point lor.. hahaz, very fun!! was shouting all the way during trg. jiao lian got us Merci chocolates for x mas! very nice! ( of her and the chocolates!) i suddenly love her alot alot!! i always love her!! haiz, i feel very bad, i didnt get her any present.. think i will, but it will be late for xmas, haiz...

Went with the guys to watch king kong, kalun, kiral, jia yun , wincoln, jiayin, xinyi, yngtyng and me. the trip there was horrid!! the rain was so big, we only had one umbrella! tried to ask the guys for umbrella, they dun wan lend us or dunnoe wad la, then we tried calling cab, "we will come to u shortly"is wad they give us la, so we walked out when the rain becomes smaller, jia yin and xinyi shared the umbrella, while me and yng tyng were hiding under my vball jacket, we were drenched! the most f of the whole thing is that 171 bus!! it fast so fast it splash water as it move la, then jiayin they yall hid from it, then i suay, the water just like washed over half of my body?!!! wa lau, and i was wearing my white shirt la, then kinda dirty. first thing i said when i get into the cab, "f*** it~!" i feel very dirty la, i dun even feel like moving or siting back in the cab. the fare was ex, $3 per person. there was a jam la. then the guys also were not late lor, they took the bus, fast and cheap, heck la!

However, my mood change when i reached cine!!! guess wad?! i saw the jap sec sch pple!! i recognised the class monitor right away!! oh my god!!! so shuai!! 爱死他了！！jiayin they dun agree with me.. but he look so japanese la, i mean some of his jap friends also look chinese, he's not lor. fake fake talk to my jap buddy, so can eye him more, lolx. understand from my buddy its their winter hols liaoz. haiz, im still very sad, im a failure at jap, i still communicate with them in english, HAIZ.. saw them at food court later, stalk the monitor like siao, hahaz. i still dunnoe his name!! they wrote a card to me as a class, i keeping thinking which name is his la, but no, cant make out.. they were gg to watch chicken little.

went to find the guys, i saw them first!! at the food court, also is i saw jiayun and wincoln first, hahaz! they passed us the presents they shared, mine's 'special', cos got wrapped(by junhao), hahz. Wrappin skills got improve, writing skills... erm.. erm.. haha, ok, i got present and i still suan, i very mean, sorry!!

seated at the second and third row in the front, then like the eyes very pain, but adapt to it later. and i think sittin in front was not so ad, cos teh sound system, the whole view is very shiok!! King Kong rawks!! tot was kinda draggy in the front, then it became very exciting, and touching, i was crying so much like shit la, hahaz! then later came out of the cinema, kiral and kalun was like "u cry ah?" "movie end liao, dun cry liao la" haha, then i was laughing at why i was so weird/ emotional too? lolz, jia yun also cried, k?hahz. went to the ladies, then realise why the guys were like keep telling me not to cry, my eyes were swollen la, nose a little red.. hahaz, nan guai i feel my eyes very pain.. then went to the bus stop with jiayin, i saw kirland eehong, *FIRST again!! hahaz, cant help if i have perfect eyesight, can i ? lolz!! said hi then went in opp diections, the guys were meeting yng tyng and xinyi at the mrt station ba..

went home, still drizzling, my slippers sulks and i slipped la. then the pose i fall into makes me feel so much like the carlsberg beer, that female santa claus la! wa lau, so maluating lor! meet my sis at some block, told her to fetch me the umbrella, dun wan to catch flu during xmas, then we were toking toking, then i realise my hp is missing!!! omg!! i was so scared suddenly! went back to where i walk then saw this lady holding my hp, so i asked then it was my phone la, so i got it back. it dropped out of my jacket's pocket when i fell, haiz..
the feeling of 失而复得, man, i felt so relieve, i was so scared my dad scold me la. i smsed alot, he scold, not becos i sms a lot, but he saw me holding my hp in my hands, he very bu fang xin, first day i bought my phone, it dropped 3 times, hard for him not to fear la, hahaz!!

reached home, saw junhao's xmas card on my table, thanks alot for ur presents, hahaz!
i am a very happy gal this week, i luv everything ard me! thanks guys for making my day! being part of my day! making beautiful memories for me!! if x mas =thanksgiving, think im really into the mood liaoz, lolz!

~King Kong analysis~
the relationship between King Kong and ann cant be bgr, since one is beast, one is human(beauty), but the moment King Kong saw Ann, i think he really wanted to protect her, from all harms, from all fears. At skull island, he got injured while protecting her from all the trex, those USA guys too, it tot jack was some bad guys ba, or he juz wanted her to be with him.. can see it felt very relaxed with Ann, watching the'beautiful' sunset.. At USA, when it saw the gal shouting wasnt Ann, it was enraged, and started searching her, it didnt meant to destroy public properties nor peace within, it juz wanted Ann! it was having fun with her at the park, skiing, when those guys start shootin again, the flow of the movie is good, events follow after one another, climax, then drop, then climax again! so do my flow of tars la, flow then dry, thenflow again.. lolz. i was thinking wad happen if King Kong's not sent to USA? he will feel really lonely at Skull Island.. then i was thinking, when that denmin? guy,the director la, sid it was beauty who killed the beast, i was thinking its his fault to bring it to US lor, cause his death.. then again, dying for someone u love, or in this case, someone u wan to protect, its worth it!, isnt it? how i hope King Kong can survive, but how can the story end then?

i think, no, i want this kind of protection, this sense of security that King Kong gave Ann, it may be overwhelming for Ann though, since it ended with King Kong dying.. it was real sad! the scenario at the tall tower, how determined King Kong was, how Ann worried about his safety. i was pouring when King Kong start to fall, down and down, all the way down 101 storeys.. Ann muz have felt very guilty and sorry. i tot she wantedto jump to her death too, i tell u if she jump, i'd said teh script sux, since King Kong protect her so much, and she still search for death.. but she didnt la, so i muz say King Kong is really a movie worth watching! Crys, u should have watch it!!

i like the insects part too, when the worm slowly swallow down the person from the head, it was eew, disgusting, but the shooting looks so real, very pro teh cameraman, or should i say, the digicam, work with effect pple. i was hugging my jacket tightly la! jiayin said later it was the niche partof the movie, cool!

the producer, Peter dunnowad, is real pro, i enjoyed ya movie!! thanks! my $7 was much more than worthwhile!

this blog actually could be publish earlier, but my com spoiled and had to use my sis com, then muz wait, haiz..
ok, if u have read this long, i thank u for being so patient with me!! hahaz! my supportive fans!! <3

2005-12-18T12:32:00.000-08:00

haha, change my font for this post! okay, let's talk about wad happen recently.

recently i've been rather down, but its kinda ridiculous.. that night, i cried a lot, cuz i feel my character sux. i can say out loud here that im not a really nice gal. serious! i reflect upon myself, my actions, my attitude, i realised im a selfish gal. in my dicionary, i think i only know wad is 利用，and no such thing as helping out. okay, maybe i did help pple sometimes, but its based on my mood, or even the person itself?? haiz, i think im a failure.. do yall guys noe this me? i think i may seem outgoing, proactive, friendly, and others u may describe me, but am i really that? i ask myself too. i think im juz afraid of quietness, even if im surrounded by my teammates,but when suddenly theres no one toking, i will quickly find a topic to chat about. i juz dont like the silence. i hate being alone too. perhaps due to i may think wildly, or deeply, i feel i sank all the way down to the bottom of my thoughts, so dark, and alone, thing is i hardly think of happy stuff when im alone, so the memories left would be sad ones, and i juz cry. i feel so much like a cry baby! i tot im very useless compared to my sis, i feel no one loves me, nothing i can do good at, i got tot of vball, but im but oni the worst of main 6, wad can i do? wad do i want? i qustion myself again. i noe actually. i want to be loved/liked by everyone, but im not gonna do anything, give back anything. i oni know to 接受，我不想付出。this is wad i wan and do. i wanna be a wilful, happy gal in my own world, is this possible? but im a perfectionist, im waiting for this perfect wonderful day, while getting rather upset over my days now. im a self-centered, 自私的女孩。would anyone still love me, like me as usual?
juz these two days, after i cry that fateful night, many incidents happened and hint to me im not alone, esp my family, my parents are there for me. my friends said they'd be there too. i really feel very guilty, for mistaking your care for me, i oni care abt myself, i tot i oni can be right abt my feelings, i didnt 'put myself in others' shoes and walk around it', pa, ma, mei, guys, im sorry. forgive my retardedness.

okay the above are all my rather confusing tots? im supposed to be happy today! its my dad's birthday!! 爸爸，生日快乐！！我永远爱您！！<3

erm, ytd the guys went out with jiayin and crys they all, hope this will really bond us again!! yup, i see progression! haha. nyvb jia you!!

k, shall blog till here. muz go pia my bdae card, lolz. byee!!

2005-12-16T12:02:00.000-08:00

yesterday, we had friendly with woodlands ring, score was 1:1, coach dun wanna have another set as she dun feel good abt it, she's afraid we might injured ourselves. we did pt after that, and that mosquito was happily sucking my blood while i was doing my sit-ups!! lolx, it didn't have a happy ending though, i killed it, then stepped on it again. hahaz, im so cruel! then we went lunch at coro, first time sat at the stairs at golden rooster there, we had open up session. jiayin poured out all her troubles regarding the team, cried. i only want to say here that guys, lets not be too sensitive, and start thinking theres a meaning to all actions. be more 天真，活泼一点！Our team will do fine! :p Ying received this call from kiral, it was funny when we heard her say"hello, who are u? your voice sound so gay." lolx. Kiral asked us go junhao's house, and it was until like the fourth call when we started leaving for his house? led to his hse by kalun and Kiral, we were slow and lose them halfway, so we started asking for directions from these ah peis, and got one like talked non stop la, " 我住151吗，150在它的旁边咯！“ erm, ya, but its not like we noe wheres 151.. but earlier in front, he did told us to walk the other side la.. then when we all say okokok, think im the oni polite one to keep my eyes on him, at least face him when he tok mah. hahaz, i always feel i had lots more patience with elderlies! the 2 Ks they bluff me into helping them carry the pepsi up la, tot they took the stairs... nvm. it was bored la, we were slacking in his living room watching first 50 dates and taxi, watched before the first one at ying's hse, so we fast forward a lot. his nephew kept us entertained. but he screamed alot! i like his name though, 杨展衡，sounds nice! he played ps with crys later on. then the gals left with zijie. yumei and him tok 'secrets' on the bus, hahz. at night, my aunt told me her friend no need anymore assistance liaoz. ya, so im jobless!! its gonna be chao maluating at the court later on... haiz!
cried alot ytd night, cry all my way to sleep... cried again when i woke up from my dreams in the middle of the night, woke up twice, cry twice. i really feel im useless. why ami so weak?!!

2005-12-14T11:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, went home, puked. i was sick!!! and i felt so uncomfortable, running high fever of 39 degrees, tried hard to sleep, my head felt heavy, my eyes were teary, my stomach aches!! at first tot is i caught the virus from my sis, or maybe i was too heaty... but i keep puking wadeva i eat, then i think it muz be food poisoning. wa lau, me first time suffered from food poisoning lor! whoever didn't handle the food properly huh?!! ok, im juz crapping. wrap myself up in my blanket, sweat like dunnoe wad( weirdly, i didn't sweat at all when we were at the sauna, lolx), slept at 8.35pm ard there, slept for forty mins and my fever gone away. man, i felt so much better! but i was very very sad!! no one said "take care" to me at all! no one smsed me! and i feel so lonely! then i tot about my x'mas. it muz be the same, will it?? imagine me at one Subway outlet, bored to tears.. haiz. Feel better today, quite giddy in the morning, now ok liaoz. haiz, being sick is no fun thing!

Yesterday, went to jing's hse for farewell party, made a card secially for my favourite snr, Sophia!!! there were lots of stuff to eat. dun feel like saying wad there were, till now, im not tempted by any food.. then we presented our items, seriously is quite lame la, esp the sec 1 and 2s item, its inaudible? lolx, but there was much laughter though. sec 3 perform a skit "i guess, i guess, i guess guess guess!" very funny skit, and i find veron quite a good actress!! we presented our gifts, rather crap, x'mas decor balls, lolx, but after our packaging, its quite nice la. i gave sophia a hug! haha!! then the sec 3s gave them loads of stuff! a vball shirt hanging on individual's hanger, soap? towel.. muz be ex, and esp when there's oni 7sec 3s (plus jacq) buying for 8 snrs.. erm.. ok la. then jerrie kinda chant her thank you song, then it was photo taking session!! surprisingly, jiayin they yall didn't took pics with the snrs, oni me, crys, yumei, seeting and congrui. once, while they were taking photo with sophia, and i didn't, i cried. crazy me la, also dunnoe why i cry, muz be getting sick le. i took photos with sophia! but at first not with my hp, its sumones camera, i felt i would regret if i dun have her pic in my hp, so i went to ask her for another photo again. the pic looks so nice, 2 美女 smiling so happily, haha! i put it as my wallpaper for my hp!! lolx, and crys tot i would change it when i leave the party. haha, im too anxious liaoz. after the photo taking session, we juz slack ard, and i started to feel unwell. went to the toilet, later crys they yall went too, so we go to the sauna and tok. i tot its quite good, since we can leave the chao cold function room to somewhere warm, and can jian fei too, haha. the temp is like 46 degrees, and i did't sweat at all, see ting too. guai4 guai4 de. went back to clear the function room later, crys they started eating again, lolx! then jing strummed her guitar, those sad sad meteor garden songs, i sang along, so do sam. jing was quite good at that! oh! and earlier before that, when the sec 4s haven't come, we were self-entertaining, then jiayin said me and her sing together in harmony is very nice!! haha! i like wu ding! ok, back to where i was toking, zi hui gave us Mickey chocolates! it was very nice. sad i was feeling sick, or i would appreciate its goodness more. the party ends with no tears? i still rmbedi almost cried when weiting, sec4 captain, said her speech, that we muz be united and dun relax too much under coach's coaching, muz be like sophia, trg on her own. i promise i will work hard for NY vball man!! then again, i hope to see our team bonded closely.. this is one of my xmas wish. haha, i muz be greedy, ain't i? lolx, wish for so many things..

hmm, this shallbe my shortest post! dun wan to tok abt friendy with ngee ann, oni that we lost to their sec 1s. then tml is friendy with woodland ring?? guys, lets put up a gr8 fight man!! ganbatte!

2005-12-10T00:31:00.001-08:00

it was a lovely day ytd!i'm in a very happy mood and my spirits were kept high throughout!it was a very very nice day!! so wad happen ytd? most of yall who read my blog would noe since hey, vballers, we were all a part of each other's day ytd!! ok, am i beating about the bush?? lolx

Yesterday morning, Nyvballers had friendly with Hcvballers, and first time under the eyes of Jiao Lian! *sry, but i dun like calling coach huahua. i did well for free spike, match.., not as good, and i hardly spike la, so nvm. First match, when i saw that score was 19-14, NY, i was so full of hope, and i felt i wanted to play well, and in the end we really won the first set, 27-25. This gave our team a really strong qiang xin zhen. SEcond set was not as well though, in fact, kinda horrible. First was me failing to pass the first ball nicely, then i tot i was so lan, coach wanted to swop me.. then realised was JIng had to go for some meeting, thus had to change her down. the team was kinda under clouds of confusion and flashes of anxiety.. but there was a time when yng tyng's at service for rather long, and pulled up our score by quite a bit. We lost the second set jian-bu-de-ren-ly, 14-25, it was lest than 15 la, haiz.. Third set, halfway through, jiao lian added pressue on us, the score was like only 2points diff, Nanyang, and she said she wanted us to win this set, if not 10 rounds outside the hall, and for every mistake at service, 5 rounds plus 100 times foot drill, so you see us, or rather me, mumbling under our breathe, "juz let us win this set.." However, Hci put up a strong fight la, score was very close. its like first we won the point, then defence sucks and its their point, this lasted for like 2 rotations per team?? then i went to serve, hahaha, sound like one heroine like that.., but Hci didn't hit the first ball well, *who was it? kalun? nvm. so score was 25-23, NY. Yeah! We won them this time round! i was rather delighted, not full of myself, but juz happy we won, like wad ying rong in the toilet, "we are not supposed to win one lor.."

Mix match de shi hou, i really realise junhao's speed is super fast, and fast with steady setting, pro man! Zijie's block and defence is fast too. Opp side can see that Kalun keep trying to get the second ball from jiayin, but let her in the end.. i find jiayun's serve is very nice, most powerful of all? it would be deadly if its not an out ball. Darren, he's good at fang qiu, sometimes spike , sometimes fang, then i cant defence then kan get scolded by coach la. and oh! i rmb there's one time i serve and my ball is on the boundary line la, then u guys there said its out, hai4 me need to run 5 rounds.. lolx. Niyi is not bad being lebero too, quite pin1 de, but out ball also save quite a lot, muz zhu4 yi4 wo! then, i conclude for the day that i sux at fang qiu la. and yumei save a nice ball when she spike and zijie block and she still keep the ball rolling! Good job! i cant forgot this time when i tikam tikam spike wai, then zijie cant block and i got the point! seriously, i regard zijie as a hard oppenent, and beating him even once felt so good! haha

Let's not talk about shang xin shi, lets review the funny things that happened yesterday!
^the hwa chong pple, they kept free spiking and we were like luo huang de ren, ran here and there to hide from their rather *Meng spikes. haha! Zijie and darren were sure tramatising all, esp Jia yin. Kalun's pike were all at 5 hao wei, Kiral.. bu 3 bu 4, Niyi, 6 hao wei, Eehong, zhong, Wincoln, if he spike wel, he is real good, his arch is very nice! Rui Yang, 6 hao wei, Jia yun, the diagonal side where's his spiking. That eehong la, spike zhong where congrui was about to spike, almost hit her, but it hit me la! i blocked it off with my hand, but the force i kinda sqart down, so guys, yall dun think yall very pro or wad, hit me till i fell.. but it hurts la, the fact that i strained my theighs.. and the sad thing is none has a bottle of counterpain, i was asking my team, seniors and juniors and even hci through zijie la, but no, there isn't. Kinda lucky, no one really made note to aim at me, or is there?? lolx.

^zijie hit see ting, think this led to the biggest commotion during the match. He meant to pass over to us, since its our point, but instead of rolling or throwing, he spiked la! so this time, not his head, but hit see ting zun zun at her eyes there, cos her to becum mi mi yan for the rest of the day.. Haiz, but i learnt that zi jie was quite shuai ytd, so suan le. but i was telling one pei chun jnr to spike at them as much, haha, sorry, i play til feng le! Gome!!

^halfway during match(forth set), the net was saggy and the antenna keep on dropping, jia yun keep saying is i add pressure on the net, wa lau! then i complained is they all spike until the net like that, its all their fault! then eehong suddenly said "eh, i kai qiu then there's a hole there leh!" well, i turned my head, yea, but i was trying to say "no, it isn't" when he started telling zijie, issit? 'wa, she believe leh!" man, i you3 hua4 shuo1 bu4 qing1 lor. then mix, he say there's cockroach on my back, hehex, wad did i say? i said that there's a cockroach under his shoes. well, not very funny.. Eehong noe BIg words man, wad ren sheng wu chang, hahaha! so cheem sia? and congrui was very jealous we talked so much leh, haha!! *so, Shi HUi's not ya cousin? 'o'??

^Hey, and i forget to say i feel so honoured to be chosen by zijie to be in his team man! lolx, cos i'm weakest of main 6.. thx for sayin i serve well, or did i actually heard wrongly?? ur jin4 and tui4 is really fast, pei fu pei fu! nice block too, (though u block my spike lots of time, then i kana get scolded by coach for not turning my wrist..) but i find you chnge position very slow leh, as in i serve le, then you shift from 4 hao wei to zhong lor, but u stayed at the bu 3 bu 4 wei, then i also dunnoe wad to do.. Ying rong said Kalun also like that, guai guai de... *and junhao, thats wad im telling to tell you in the cinema, u didn't heard me quite well the other time, rite?

^Lunchtime, our team break into two again, while crys, yumei, congrui and me followed the guys to "ZIJIE'S UNCLE'S RESTAURANT", the rest went to BK, i tot yall lost track of us.. why issit always so? two big groups?? haizz.. when the hci guys they finally almost can be considered having a team lunch. Guys, yumei, crys, and me find it rather rare yall all eat out together rite? so yall muz treasure ya time as a team, man! Oh, and yall can ask me for ya team lunch photo if yall want. Muahhaha! *but i seriously feel very nan de mah... and Zijie looked so cartoonish when i said i had photos of yumei and he can get from crys or me if he want, and he nodded his head vigoriously, then the pupa in the eyes went up and down, chao funny la! and the others all didn't saw it...

^Kalun's basketball is chao good, esp those 1 point ball, the loop throws were very nice!! think you chao tired liaoz, tired till lie down on the floor and pose for me to shoot photo huh? hahaha!! si3 dou1 bu4 ken3 qi3 lai2, till eehong told u im taking photo and u shot up immediately, lolx. Kalun said he sleeps at cinema, and ytd he was super tired, cos he stayed up the whole night to watch soccer at 3am.. wad can i say?.. chao ji zui1 qiu2 mi2, but also chao ji shui4 bu4 xing3, he said he alarm clock rings also cant wake up one, so no choice lor, muz ao2 ye4.. BUT, BUT! surprisingly, he didn't sleep in the cinema, thx to me and darren, lolx! ok la, whoever itting next to me will have a hard time sleeping la, with me there, one time screaming and one time crying.. sry, i scare u guys if i did.. And Kalun, i tot its his bag keep nong4 dao4 wo3 la, so its his legs.. sit like big boss like that, lolx! and who's the one who keep telling me of piracy? kalun, its u huh? lol, cos i was taking some photos of the movie and bu4 yao4 jing3 ba???

^Oo, Kiral, haha, he put out his hand to get the 50 cents from me, but instead i slapped it, lolx, sorry!! like wad dao ming si of Liu Xing Hua Yuan say, shuo1 dao4 qian4,na4 jing3 cha2 you3 shen3 me yong4?! but i always like that one la, do things liao then say sorry at my blog, lolx! And you look so cute la when u gave me this smiling face during match, hahaha. so i see u are playing zhong, hmm..

Chicken little was nice. Junhao made this point that we sit one gal and one boy la. but there's oni 7 gals and 11 guys, so wad we do was Kalun shuffled the tickets and we were to take the one on top starting with alphebetical order from the bottom, so is yumei, then me and onwards lor.. hahaha, very fun sia*eyeing playfully.. so zijie and yumi sat together! well, im no way luckier... hehex, i'd counted the pple in our team who were stuck to a side with a Hci guy, there's 5 in total!Yumei and my ldd, Xinyi! each at the furthest corner, one with zijie, one with who huh? crys stuck with wincoln at the side end, and yng tyng with jiayun at first, then she change place with eehong la, hmm, yng tyng, next time muz da dan more ok? haha. And the worst is me la!! wa lau, i got no:7, ya ya, lucky 7, sit in between two guys la! but im gamed for it la, and aniwaes, its not like i nv talk to those two guys, so its quite alright.. junhao and kalun, hmm, i must say sorry to yall both cos i think im a very bad audience? dunnoe the vocab for it la. i rmb how i was laughing like mad when chicken little start dancing even before the start of the show la, and ying rong and jia yin too,lolx! then i also rmb suddenly screaming when the pig in the show screamed, then Kalun was like "wad, like that also xia dao.." well, wad can i say?..*speechless and i was crying and i kept saying " omg, i want to cry.." i was like crunching up in my seat liaoz, cos this deadly laser stuff was wad i dreamt of in the past. wad do u feel when ur nightmare appears on screen? i went amazed, then found it weird then funny then scared. lolx, and all this feelings came up with me oni aying the line, " wo yao ku liao" haiz, think im quite useless man... nvm

then after that, bought some stuff and went home. saw zijie at the road, then he oni saw me at the road at parkmore la, and i tot he dao me..asked him he enjoyed the movie anot, i heard no reply. Did i saw a little smile?? lolx! wondered why he didn't took the 700 bus, nv go to ya hse meh? but anw, im in a rush so i took it lor. then at orchard station oni then i tot zijie smarter than me lor, cos i realise 700 goes one big round leh! haiz. but i juz went to his blog and know his bus broke down, so i considered myself lucky lor, im in a rush to attend my cousin's wedding dinner leh!

Back home, told my grandfather i won Hci and said "see, bu4 yi4 ding4 yao4 nan2 de then can win lor1" i felt so proud and guessed wad he said? he saqid "yin1 wei4 wo4 zao3 shang4 you3 geng1 ni3 shuo1 hao3 hua4 mah, wo3 you3 zhu4 ni3 hao3 yun4 mah!" wa lau, i almost faint la, hahaha! Then its my first time bathing so fast. ok la, its second time?? borrowed my aunt's top and miniskirt, curled my eyelashes and put makeup, style my hair.. first time i did so much for a wedding dinner, then wear scandals and my aunt juz sprayed Gucci perfume at me without me knowing till i smelt it.. drinking red wine and biting into the dark chocolate at conrad international near sectec made me feel so classy, haha, (i dun deny i go for class), and its my first time really attempting wine and i find it very se4 at first then rather smooth when it goes down the throat, mm mm, nice! felt so womanise! lolx! then the dinner began, the bride came out when the song " its the best moment in my life" played. then my biao jie fu knelt in front of her and said "you are my wife and you are my one and only!" it was meant to be a surprise and my cousin was really surprise and happy, she gave him a hug. oh man, so nice!! i want a boyfriend too liaoz! lolx. then the first dish came up when 'lalala love song' was played, i was exclaiming wad a nice song, and my cousin really knows how to choose music for her wedding! i collected lots of chocolates tthe end of the wedding, eh, its not childish lor, cos wad i have in mind is to give my teammates. see, i so nice rite!! say yes! hahaz! reach home around 12 liaoz, sleep so soundly since the last time, which i dunnoe when.
AND I CONCLUDED THAT I HAD A REAL NICE TIME THE DAY BEFORE! *TIME CHECK: 12:28AM
~MY HAPPY ENDING~
i wanna apologise to you guys too about my messenger's virus. its the 'ur pic is so funny!' and the url stuff, guys pls dun click it, k? i feel so sad when yall trust me and then tot is i send the url to yall then click it then got the virus. i really do feel bad, man. so guys, do me a favor by not clicking it, kies? thx!

2005-12-07T02:32:00.000-08:00

Wow! i very long never blog liaoz hor! hmm, i miss u guys all! hahaz!
so... wad happen to me after chalet?? the bigger events would be my jlpt test and the friendly against hcjc ba. Well, jlpt.. i saw a lot of the moelc pple and my local immersion pragramme pple! but we merely said hi la, i was with jia sin all the time. the jlpt test was a little harder then average?? anw, its all oas shading la, so if u lucky that day, anyhow shade i think also can pass one lor, hahaz! and i realise im one of the youngest participant in this test, as in all the sec 2s who took are also la, but i think the youngest participants were some 5, 6, or 7 yr old japanese kids la. man, they muz be chao pro.. other than that, omg! there were pple of diff age taking the test, ranging from 14 all the way to 60? i think also have lor. everyone said te listening was the hardest, well i think its the back part ba, (after dunno who shook the table then disrupt my thoughts la!) ps. i'm taking the test in the craft room. and i find it very funny?? ( my vocabs are very limited, sry) cos the ri guy beside me i saw his b'dae, its actually that day lor! as in Dec 4th! haha, i was thinking of wishing him happy b'dae, haiya, but i didn't in the end, lolx. jia sin commented the tables and chairs were very short, haha, jia sin what can u expect from a pri school? but i think the toilet basin chao ji short lor, haiz.. ok, i shouldn't expect much also.. And there's a very very, i thinki super hao wan de playground, the slide is all the way down the hill lor, can u believe. stupid la, i planned to go there with jia sin, but a security pops up out of nowhere and starting telling us *fiercely to not loiter about the compound. haiz, then yan liang made me realise there's pool at the other end of the track and i was rather amzed, i didn't realised it the first time i came when i come for the summer festival. then i went there to see no shuai ges swimming.. lolx, haha! oo yanliang! i found out another pool at the entrance leh! yea, oni took a photo there with jia sin, i should take the pic of the slide, then yall will know i'm not exaggerating lor.. nvm, next yr i go for level 3 test, i will take it! hahahaz

Friendly against hwa chu a div, it was rather fierce.. and i almost cried out when i saw chunli!! my fave senior for that batch!! man, she's still so sexy as ever, haha! allthe a div pple are from nanyang, only for one, from cedar. Then this cedar gal, she's the one who acts in cao mei niu nai tang de lor. some of us recognised her, others didn't, think those who can recognised watch too much tv liaoz! haha, i'm one of them! then i also think the seniors can't accostomed to the bdiv net ba, i kinda feel the spiking not deadly enuf. or issit our team has becum stronger? haha. we lost in the end, score was 3:0? but our scores are all around 15, so its rather our standard la. the sweets jing bought from beijing was so powdery, jia yin eat like she's eating bai fen, lolx.

today, i feel chao you cheng jiu gan! so satisfied! me and jing today spike 127 balls continuously, haha! im so proud of our mo qi! and recently i ran for more than 3.2 km, but i still lost to jia yun's sister, so sad la, haiz. tmr, tomorrow is the day! haha, im gonna put in my best effort, show them my power man! im gonna beat hci, yea, its me, me,me!! and my team!! haha, lolx.
hci having grand election at ny hall tmr, hmm, good luck to all! but as jh's good friend, i sure hope he remained his captain position.. jia you wo, jun hao!! and wad?? wish i have a good time playing and watching chicken little! hahaz!!

2005-11-30T13:02:00.000-08:00

ok, shall blog about the gals today! erm, overall i feel that this chalet didn't really bond us ? [ erm, pls dun say i wet blanket or wad, cos i think open up session bond us even closer, lolx!] But, BUt, i wun deny the fact that we get to noe wen jing a lot!! i shall talked about that later. Er m, team spirit chao high de shi hou should be when we were cycling on the second night, cycled from bedok jetty to the other jetty,dunnoe wad name one. Then throughout the whole journey, i muz apologise for complaining the pple at the front for they cycling too slow, thing is i can't really slow myself down, so its actually my fault la. Gomenasai!! But i like the part whereby we were passing directions, like Jing will go "Keep left!" then jia yin say keep left, then yumei pass on, then i pass on, all the way to the back. And i dun deny the xtra proudness in me when we were showing high team spirit in our jerseys. I really luv my team! and becos of this reason, i got super duper piss off with this Malay guy who mumbled that we were getting too much attention with our jerseys on. At first he seemed so friendly la, asked me if we won anot, if we had competition today. i told him we were here for hols, and he said that darn shitty ear-piercing sentence. I got really mad as seconds ticked by. i was like going to shout, "wa Lau, i hafn't say i got Open house today, so we got to wear our jerseys!" Heck him la! i mean its pple who's looking at us, did we told them to? NO! then, if he really can't stand it anymore, "cum on man, go find your own team and made your own jersey la! wad's ur problem?!" Through i understand that we get xtra attention becos of our school too, i'm not going to deny that i'm not proud of it, but shouldn't everyone be proud of their own school? i was really, realli damn, wad the f pissed la. sped all the way back to chalet. Ok, so this was my oni and most unhappy part of the chalet.

Wen Jing- its not JIng4, its pronouns as JIng1, does everyone get it? haha! Wen Jing ah, wen jing, i saw a change in her recently, and a 360 degree change atthe chalet. she said she's like this all the while b ut we didn't noe her well. well, now we really noe her, dun we? i learnt that she has a sec1 sis and pri 3 bro[ so Eehong, yo can't bluff me about her bro is in your class, lolx]. This is my dui4 jiao3, ya noe, and i didn't noe she's so outgoing, fine with anything, daring, weird?? haha! Ask all the pple in our team, we all thought that she's very quiet and strict, serious. it was oni recently, think since oni youth Cup ba, then we realli get to noe her. She mixed well with those guys[and Jing they realli miss you when u went back home], i also dunnoe why the guys called her mervin choo wen jing, think crystal told me cos this guy has the same name as her ba. daring, cos on the first day, when we were playing concentration? jing lost and had to do forfeit by shouting from above "Jia Yun, where are you?" (i mean she dun even noe this guy but she dare to shout la) [ and jia yun, we use ur name cos we feel u will not mind, are we not right?] Weird, cos dunnoe Ying rong say wad "gun fan fan", then Jing will say "gun chu qu", sumthg like that la, Jia yin will alwaes be amaze by this captain here. Bian le, zhen de! i feel that she's more and more like a sec 2, which is good, young at heart!, but she does gives pple this sense of matureness in her. and lots agree she's very pretty wo!

Jia yin- the guys said she's naggy, but i think ok la. maybe we got used to it le?:p lolx! Eh, i tell yall, she's very noble lor, she prepare a packing list for us and save us loads of troubles leh! Arigatou! And the two captains, they spent time teaching rebecca how to bike, so that all nyvballers noe how to cycle, aren't they realli nice captains?lol. Jia yin's bad habit- likes to 'kope' pple's food! haha! but ok la, food muz share then taste nice. Keep telling Yumei and crys not to eat at night, muz go on diet, lol, and jia yun was like saying like that they may have gastric. jia Yin, keep saying i move until she got no space to sleep, realli meh?! sorry lor. i oni noe i flipped here and there. And i think jia Yin was very troubled when Zijie and Kiral thought she was me, cos she was wearing her jacket too. lolx. and i think Jia Yin's BeepBeep game is very fun? lame? test ur courage? lolx, oni zijie is gamed for it.
Overall, this chalet wouldn't be a success w/o her, she organises everything, jun hao didn't do much, hor? lol. i feel that Jia Yin wanted the team to bond as much, so she insisted on everything done together as a team, thus explains the 'hawker centre incident'. But nvm, next time, we will go together, k? and though i dunnoe a single thing about wad's going on during the truth and dare session, jia yin keep saying oh my god later, it was said that she's being too truful during the game, she reckoned she's too sleepy at that point of time, hahaz. Jia Yin scare me when she was crying early morning la, i seriously thought you got nightmare then cry one, so its actually leg pain, pt muz jia you wo!

Rebecca- rbc, she' s brave can? i muz thank you for getting the bug off my shirt, i was screaming like siao la. tell you lor, lizard i not scared, but cockroach la, and small insect, even the tiniest, i'm also scared la. lolx, yng tyng said she kan bu chu i scared of insects. rbc, think she oni talk to junhao? lol. she can juz easily ask junhao for his jacket and coffee? lolx, very brave gal indeed. and rbc can't sleep with noise and she needed her sleep daily, so its kind of horrible for her, we were alwaes makig noise, regardless it is at the bottom or in the room. sorry ah, i noe i'm one of the biggest loudspeaker, lolx. And the whole team was very very sorry for forgetting all about you when we were about to leave the open house for chalet, dui bu qi!

Shu Feng and Hui Ying- i'm actually very grateful to yall. thanks to all the starlogy stuff learnt, i realli, realli luv the stars that night. it was absolutely beautiful and bright in the clear and clean night sky, the atmosphere was so soo soooo romantic! its quite sad i dun dare to lie on the sand and juz stare into the nite sky. and i'm thankful for all the equipmennt yall brought along, the telescope, the star chart,
Amazing!and i also enjoyed strolling the beach along with yall, hui ying dared to hold seashells with 2 hands while i oni hold with 2 fingers, i feel so inferior la. lolx! And Shu feng was all writing about hers and jun Chuan's name on the sand, hahaz, think yng tyng is not as crazy over him as you.

Ying Rong- i didn't noe ying was so desperate when she needed food! hahaz, she's hopping a lot on the bed lor, attempting to spoil our bridge game by sitting in the middle. but i think Ying rong rather quiet thoughout the whole chalet leh. i oni rmb she played the ps, and her character is jumping up and down like orang utan la, chao funny. then i also rmb her saying "pull her hair, pull her hair!" weird move for ps huh? lolx! and Ying, i like ur Coke towel alot, very attention-grabbing, lolx. ying Rong also sleep a lot, but not at chalet, she sleeps on the bus, think everyone chao tired onthe one and a half hour bus journey. I realised Ying rong eatting way very unique, its like her spoon is not always rounded or like no space, there's alwaes a few grains of rice on it, you can really count them lor. wah,I'm soo observant!

Yng Tyng- Yng tyng's jealous of Yumei, she also want pple to crush on her, lolx! keep asking pple to like her. hahaz. i rmb Yng tyng asking Zi Xun where's her share of the cookie, lol, thanks to her, the team get to eat the delicious cookies, yummy yummy! Overall, i think Yng Tyng quite quiet leh. Oo, and she and yingrong likes to play ps a lot! like to play the fight fight thing, lolx. And i think your hp very cool, got wonderful songs and have flah for photos too! hahaz.

~The Three Little Pigs~
Yumei, Crystal and Cong Rui- these guys here, they sleep a lot, but can tell its not sleep very well. they can't stand noises, and even tried to sleep at the benches outside chalet. the impression they gave the team was they needed their beauty sleep a lot alot! hahaz. erm, yumei, she was speechless when zijie gave her the toothbrush, she oni could say she's very sad, lolx. and i think she's rather pro at ps, esp at the fighting one. Yumei hates her cup noodles, the longer the time, th enoodles strangely becums even harder, weird! crystal and congrui, stares a lot at guys, as in their back, and counting the time to see how long they responds to stares. they were pro at Burn Upon too, cry sis teh better player though. Congrui wins everyone in the team for her biking skills, superb balancing and speed, think maybe oni lose to Zijie for speed lor, her balancing is.. awww! And Congrui known as China no:1, she and her weird Indian poker la, make all the players seemed like jokers, chao toot la. everyone is laughing like siao. i was telling who huh, jia yun issit, to add the Red Indians 'hohoho' stuff also, then everyone will look so Cute?!! hahaz. and its the first time congrui is willing to share her food, which is the soy bean milk. its quite worth to celebrate lor.
Overall, these 3 guys stick together a lot, eh, your haf more regular sleep and play routine la, the join the team for more fun, seemed like your all super tired and sian. i think is cos yall get drenched in the rain, rite? yumei realli look quite sick for the next few days! take care ya?

yeah,and i've come to the end of my blog on the gals! i'm really looking forward to the friendy, organise it soon, k? but ever since i talked to the guys about friendy, i noe we are stronger than before, but i wonder if we are stronger than them.. Wa, so i feel very pressurised during trg leh, esp during spiking. man, i'm not gonna lose! haiz, my jap test is coming, sianz, muz spent time studying for it. Yang Yi, ganabatte ne!

2005-11-28T20:03:00.000-08:00

ok, first thing i want to say here is i hate my com! wad window explorer is having some problems and need to closed down, sorry for any inconvience. wa lau, i blogged about the chalet until chao long liao la, then all my efforts washed into the drain, haix. Baka desu! so now, i may blog not as much, cos sian diao liao, but after visiting zijie, yumei and eehong' s blog, i guess i might still blog more than them, haha. i shall blog about the manificant parts and each and every people there? sorry hor if i got little stuff to blog about you, maybe i juz didn't talk to you much, muahhahaha.[ok, wad's the evil laugh for? diao..]

Zijie- said to haf inflated ego, but i think, i think la, he's a shy guy, juz look at the way he look at yumei.haha! damn 'unique' la. look over the shoulders, then do his stuff, then look over his shoulders again. so yall can't say crystal keep staring at yall, esp zijie, cos we were observing how u stare, lolx.
Sweetest thing zijie did- well, i think all will agree that its the part where he gave yumei his toothbrush, me, crystal and jia yin were like melting at the spot liaoz, and when ying rong noe this, she was like dunnoe wad kicking excitedly on the bed, lol. and paying for the toothbrush part, hmm, is that part of ya defense, zijie, huh?? haha. ok , i noe i very mean, sry.
Meanest thing he did- He switched off the light while i was bathing! and issit twice or trice??? well, nvm, i took revenge too. i off his light once. once oni lor!
Overall, think this guy here is the sportsman type[same as yumei], knee and leg injured liao, still can win me at cycling,wa lau, wheni reached the chalet, my legs super suan lor. then, i think this guy needs his sleep daily, at first he sit ard the stairs resting, it was oni later he dare to go up and sleep. but still he was the first to sleep in the same room as the gals. the ny pple all say he very rich, head to toes are billabong, ripcurl, reebok? and i rmb telling him to talk more during chalet, think he did it. even the beep beep game he's also gamed for it, not like kalun and rui yang, hid under the blanket dunnoe do wad, lolx. so Congratulations "JIEJIe"! haha

Kiral- this guy here is very impressive, if i say attractive, i mean he attracts everyone attention when he's doing all the magic tricks. he's damn pro, and i'm not going to forget blogging abt his cool? fingers. wa seh, i admire the way he shuffle the cards, horizontally, vertically.. damn impressive, damn singapore no:2, as kalun said, he made himself no:2, no one dares to make himself no:1. i find it quite a pity he never go learn piano, or organ la, his fingers wasted la. Kiral, other than impressive, to me la, he's very inquisitive. ask me a lot of stuff, like 'who u think is the prettiest, other than you?' haha, thank you ah, but i think my teammates are all very chio,lolx.
Overall, i think Kiral's a nice person. i rmb saying s'pore volleyball got no hope and ask zijie if he will get into national team, then he bu yao lian say he will, so i replied 'ya, national handicapped team ah?' and Kiral is like er hmp, er hpm, laughing..lolx. Kiral's a rather special name, sounds like anime, Kira of gundam seed, haha. i ask u wad position u play, u say u sit at the bench, but i think u have the zhu gong look la, so muz jia you lor! ganbatte!

Kalun- kalun feels very brotherly, i mean i feel he's like a brother like that, maybe becos he's jia yin, yumei , crystal ,and ying rong 's godbro. i rmb he went outside to throw some stuff during the last day, he was about to come back and i pass him some rubbish, then he like sigh and helped throw them away, lolx. I think Kalun's very capable. firstly, he's very pro at dai dee, so he's also known as Hong Kong no:1. next he's good at ps, i dun really noe how to play la, but i watch the guys play, think kalun not bad la. then he became Kiral's assistant, i almost thought all the magic tricks Kiral showed were taught by Kalun la, but apparently not, think the two of you joined the magic trick sabbacs, issit? Kalun and Kiral,tell yall lor, yall are the 3rd and 4th pple who made me feel really dumb la. ying rong could see through Kiral's tricks, Jia yin could see through Kalun's trick, oni i dunnoe lor. and Kalun still say"ni3 hai2 bu4 zhi1 dao4 ah?" make me feel so horrible la.
Overall, i think Kalun very independent? he knows how to repair his bike[with Teck Yuke and my little help(actually i oni help him hold the dirty oil-stained chopsticks to support the chain, heex). Kalun snore, haha, i was think issit Kiral or him, and jia yin said is Kalun la, lolx. but, i'm actually quite amazed that he could stay in his position throughout the whole night, while i was there tossing and turning. Eh, i very nice rite? i gave you my blanket leh! oh, i forget to say that kalun was so impressive sia, his lugguage is like so small?!! Remarkable!

Eehong- i realised on the second day after wad Congrui said that eehong like oni speak to me hor! but i did sense it a little on the first day la! why huh? i think its cos Teck Yuke hai4 me burnt my finger, and i said cos i care ( i mean care it topple and spill on anyone, not juz him oni lor), but i think Eehong xiang wai wai, he's like suppressing his laughter la. But i guess the most significant part that triggers him to speak to me is becos of Davin hur, haha! Be nice to me, or beware i spill the beans! hahaz. Eehong and me talked crap la, i didn't really rmb wad we chat about in the chalet, i oni rmb he read my inbox!! and keep saying wad "wad u think of me, coffee , tea, or wadeva.." the fact that i blog this stuff means i got nothing to hide la, i never deleted anyone's msg off my hp yet lor. Think we actually had a topic to chat about in the bus later after the chalet, when he said Shi Hui is his cousin, omg, until now i dunnoe whether to believe anot. the oni evidence the gave me was Ai Tong got sell roti prata?!! which is lame and funny la! i was saying which school doesn't sell prata, and Kalun said Nan Hua didn't. haiz.. then cos zijie said hci get into nationals forth, i really believe, i thought they lucky wad, heng heng get into nationals, so it was to bluff me. wa lau, i also dunnoe wad's wrong with me la, since young i was very gullible, i mean, why would pple want to lie to me? Dunnoe la, they muz be super bored. So maybe Eehong was one too, since Congrui like never go and pester him, erm..haha, so he told me he kai qiu from boarding school to court. i got reason to believe lor. i was thinking your boarding school very near the court wad. but after i thought about your school structure again, i never believe you liao mah! Eehong is disgusting, everyone was looking at how you sleep la! together with Zijie, yall seemed so gay, haha. Yng Tyng took your photo with flash la, lol, but think Congrui deleted it. I was thinking oni now, maybe Congrui wanted to protect ur ming2 yu4, ya noe? lol.
Overall, I think eehong's a rich guy? they went to see your hp and saw this pic with swimming pool. you really stay at bungalow ah? nvm, if not bungalow then muz be some landed property, looking from the way your clothes are all nike and reebok. i got perfect eyesight(heex!), so i'm no specs prof, i dunnoe noe which spec is nice la, but i quan4 you go change ya specs lor, otherwise it will be the first to get kicked out when u compare them with others. Juz went to your blog, think your english should be of quite high standard, and you used to suan junhao whenever he tagged, so ya, this is juz my tui1 lun4. Eehong is chao pro at ps, i think is the best, again conclusion made from my own observation, so maybe is i dumb, thought he is the best player, are you, Eehong? P.S. actually i named you Cucumber leh, haha, cos u used the tomato and Cucumber facial foam, then tomato, the name, is taken away, so u are cucumber, lolx. Dun be angry, if you dun want to be call that, make sure u keep your stuff properly next time, haha! but actually and seriously, cucumber not bad la, juz think of the idiom "as cool as cucumber", lolx!

Jia Yun- I tell you, this chalet not gonna work out if not for jia yun, yall believe? i mean, look, on the first day, if the gals had no one to talk to , maybe this chalet would be nothing but a team chalet, not the teams hci and nygh chalet. People stay to their team, then where will all the fun be? i think i talked to Jia yun most during the time when we walked to the jetty to see the 'already' sunrise.. We all talked about your school, how u pia to get into hci.Since you noe that's the case, then u muz jia you in your studies wo! Jia yun keep saying Hci no:7 is the shuaiest, lol, and i keep saying who issit. lolx, u noe about Eehong being the second ugliest in the team joke anot? haix.. i rmb i first saw jia yun at chalet when we were biking, cos he wear orange shirt and so did huiying, so i turned back and ask huiying to slow down? issit? then kana shock la. Jia yun cycling skills can be compared with Cong Rui. Jia Yun entertained us with lots of 'yellow' jokes, and i especially like the walkie-talkie one. so eew! I muz comment on how Jia yun sleep, his dream muz be very nice, sleep so deep la. its like crystal, yumei , congrui and me were taking his watch, wallet and hp under his hand, he didn't woke up. we replaced his stuff with pocket tissues, he didn't wake up, we put ice on his shirt, and omg! he didn't wake up too! put watch on his toes he also didn't wake up, i supposed he's too tired, poor thing. But he say he's like that one, alarm clock also can't wake him up, muz get his sister to wake him then can.
Overall, i think jia yun's same as me, as in we communicate better with opp sex, if he dun think so, at least that's my case la, so crystal and ying rong dun get surprised. Jia yun, Jia yun, he is the first guy who made me feel so toot, followed by teck yuke, i totally break down when playing bridge la. Even after the game, i can't make out who my partner is, sry, if i get any of ya, jia yun, teck yuke and wenjing, piss. i admit i was very tense. i dunnoe u noe, i think i'm scared no one wants to play with me, i then cry when i lose, haha! Jia yun, next time chalet dun say u dun want to cum,k?

Teck Yuke- this guy is very daring, when all the guys dun dare to come up to the room, he keep saying he wanted to go up and sleep. He la, hai4 me burnt my finger and still say feng1 liang2 hua4, hiaz, hao3 xin1 mei2 hao3 bao4. But this guy here is smart la! he oni learn how to play bridge like for 20 mins? and he's already up to the challenge, not like me, learnt before him one day earlier still dunnoe who's my partner! haiz.. teck yuke ah, very chatty lor, talk to him can no need any topic one. i talked to him quite a lot la, but i can't rmb wad we said to each other, maybe cos there's really no topic of interest. He was my corespondent lor, but i cannot rmb him until i heard his teammates call his name. my teammates recognised him by the guy who tried to throw the bottles upstairs, lolx!

Ok, so why do i blog about these 6 guys here first, yall think got no motives meh? these guys, they are the meanest of the team la! How could they throw my darlings around?! put my darlings on the dirty window ledge and attempt to drop it down! and even cos my lamb to drop under the bed, yall noe how thick and disgusting the layers of dirt collected beneath were?!! hpmm.. so stupid la. zijie said i cry then will return me, then he juz sit there waiting, but Kiral was os funny la, say he zui4 pa4 gals cry, so lay on his pillow face down, haha! i didn't cry at the end la, but at least i noe wad to do when Kiral refuse to budge next time. muahahaha! and that jia yun, keep saying my bear nuan mian mian, then keep fidgitting with it. her err!!!

Jun Hao- Jun Hao, i didn't expect to talk much to him, haha, sry! i talk very little to you compared to the others, think the only time i talked to you was when we went biking with rebecca, actually, not really too, rite? i oni rmb me keep saying you cycle too slow liaoz, haha, sry la. i noe you got ur reasons, which i'm goin to touch on now. Jia yin and the others never stop sayin you are a good and nice guy. you rode at the back so as to look out for us, so if anything happen, you can at least noe. then when the guys went to watch soccer, you were the only one who stayed behind, i he noe you had no bike rite? then i rmb asking you to go upstairs and play, you said u need to watch over the stuff outside of chalet. i went up to tell jiayin they all, and they like all go "aww.. he's so nice", lolx, that was why they gals all went down to play ps. Jun hao, hmm, he's very nice, as in he made cup noodles for all of us. But pls rmb dun put all the msg into the noodles, its damn salty, my tongue went numb! erm.. sry la, i noe i shldn't complaining, i mean you did so much for all of us already.
Overall, Jun Hao was very quiet during the chalet, maybe in my opinion ba. cos when you were talking, i was sleeping. the ps stuff really hurt my eyes, i can't sit near the tv, play two games oni, i go to sleep, lolx! He's very responsible and kind, no doubt. but a little silly, how can put hot water in plastic bottle?! wa lau, haha! Think you want to go upstairs alot, rite? but those mean guys chased you down, haiz, ren2 shan4 bei4 ren2 qi1. Let's juz hope things improve as time past. Haha, think ur parents were chao angry when they saw so many gals at the chalet, i saw them keep looking into the hse la. Next time be more honest la.

Kai Tai- i think of all the people at chalet, i noe kai tai the least. though that la, i found his face very familiar, maybe he take the same bus as me,i dunnoe, but the minute i saw him at the lobby, i was excitedly telling wenjing and jia yin they all that that guy over there is from hci, and true enough this guy step into the chalet, haha. Is Kai tai close to JunHao? cos i saw him come and go with Junhao, i never even talk to him!! like i talked to all except him, lol! And he went home on second or third day huh? ya, so i still dunnoe this guy., but i guess he's shy? if not, i would haf at least speak to him once.

Wincoln- this guy here very jiang3 yi4 qi4 wo! He's a new comer so i dunnoe him before chalet, all except he looks quite like jiayun, and said to look better. I feel he makes a very good friend, so guys treasure him. I tell you, when all were laughing at how Eehong and Zijie sleep, this guy here, Wincoln, is the oni one who quickly woke zijie up to keep us from further laughing and teasing. gou4 yi4 qi4, i admire your character, haha! so Zijie, you shouldn't find him haf such good heart until irritating, he is a very nice friend to you leh!

Darren-until the last few days, i dun haf impression of darren, gome! but i remember you as the guy who last bathe on the first day then a cockroach appear in the bathroom, lolx! and since in dunnoe whose blog i read that wincoln juz learn to cycle, so if that's the case, then i think you were the one who tried to crash into me with jia yun, then ended up almost crashing into a small boy who suddenly ran out? correct me if i'm wrong, k? lolx, and are you the one who can cycle left and right, i mean, not others can't la, but on that night, when you guys were cycling to Macs, were you the one cycling left and right? Quite blur impression of you, so next time leave a deeper impression on me, k? haha!

Rui Yang- this guy here like Man U ba! Judging on the first day he wore ManU shirt, haha, i juz realised now that i quite observant leh! lol. Rui yang, hmm, he is kinda quiet? but he does join in the games, he and kalun lun were the first to play with with me, we played dai dee. Rui yang seemed to be the team's middleman? Kinda like me? like juz on good terms with the team, not exceptionally close to anyone? Ok lar, i dunnoe, not everyone like me, i noe. Rui Yang got talked, but interact more, ok? lol!

ok, i shall end the guys one here, continuing with the gals another day. noe wad, i took 9++ hrs to complete this very detailed blog leh! detailed rite? cos i dun wan to miss out any fun parts we had together. i like Chalet simply alot! Bagus! iidesu!

2005-11-22T14:21:00.000-08:00

Yeah, and my post this time shall be about Xin Min no: 5! lol, he's not cute, he's shuai lor! BUt beside this point, he's a great spiker la, cool! why the guy i admire always are 四号主攻? lolx. My teammates agree with me lor, the way he arch, my god! every spike seems so superb, so powerful, so deadly, so victorious. He's so cool! Even though that la, St Hilda's most of the time managed to block his spike, wa, why huh? but nvm, i still like no: 5 a lot.

Youth Cup ended on Sunday. the results are as follows:
~Under16 Boys
Champion> St Hilda's Sec
First Runner-up> Xin Min Sec
Second Runner-up> Shuqun!!
Forth> St Hilda's Sec

~Under16 Girls
Champion> presby
Second Runner-up> jurong
Second Runner-up> Hua Yi
Forth> Ngee Ann

Hmm, my youngest sister is pestering me right now, she wants to use the com, but i want to type all about Youth Cup leh. but i also no mood now, so piss. Ok, this post shall be continued by tmr? the most after my chalet, lol, sad la. later i forgot all the 精彩片段. ok, shall end here. Bye!

2005-11-18T15:23:00.001-08:00

hmm, so i stopped at my choral nite. but i dun feel like recounting wad happen day by day leh. ok, i shall type wad's happening recently.

on wedesday, was our last match at Youth Cup, we were competing against Bukit Panjang Government High. So early in the morning, i walked with difficulty there with that big ball bag, ya. But i was feeling victorious, cos i expected to win 2:0. Yet... things didn't work out the way i thought. it was rather depressing, to lose, i mean, who dun feel sad when they lose, but nanyang was the last in the div?, top 9 or 10? cos we lost all the other schools. [ and dun laugh when u read till here, i'm being serious]. i think our team lacks of the spirit, we are not energetic enuf, our service got problem, our spiking not deadly enuf.. well, even though we haf all these weakness, i feel we have grown up a lot after taking part in this competition. Without a coach to point out our mistakes, we had to observe our opponents and made sure we put up strong defence against their attacks. we had to strategise on our own, jia you for ourselves, train ourselves, and i want to thank my captains, wenjing and jiayin, you got us thinking positively even when we were losing, you cheered us up. and sorry, i keep snatching the setter's ball, and jing's spike. Gomenasai!Ah, Henry's so cute!!! kawaii yo!! [ crystal nods with me!] haha. yumei kept saying i took photos until very obvious. but seriously la, if you see my pics, you probably find all the spikes and blocks lor. i dun take them standing like that lor.[ or issit i dun get the chance, hmpm..] lolx. tmr, under 16 finals, think 'm gonna go watch with crys.

and Xin Min Sec lost to Ngee Ann Sec, i'm kinda surprised. but the scores wereVERY close lah. i was so excited la, shouting and screaming "Xin Min jia you!". third match, the scores were like 23:24, ngee ann. wah, then all the NYvballers were cheering like mad lor, pray that their service went wrong, but it didn't la. nvm, Xin min got the point, so the score became 24:24, but Xin Min lost the next point, 24:25, wah seh, if you were not there, you dun noe how it feels lor. it was oo.. then the game ended with a fierce spike, haiz. Xin Min lost. some fell to the ground in despair. i was so sad lor. crystal and i were hoping mad. then after Xin Min had their debrief with their coach, the Nyvballers stood from afar and shouted "Xin min jia you!" Actually i tot ji a you's quite weird, but jing said its the universal language for vball, ya so.. we said that. think the Xin Min pple were so touched, haha. i rmbed i muttered to myself 'their very good already lor', then i thought of nanyang, i almost cried la. when can we reached their standard? nevertheless, the team has decided that we do 10 push ups and 20 sit ups for every bad service, diffirent punishments for diff mistakes. overall, i feel that our team is even more united now, even with sec 3s, yeah!

and oh well, i'm in O levels. what can i say? i'm sad? not really, cos did study, first time i'm serious with my work, but the result.. i wonder if being hardworking helps, wad kind of attitude should i put up next year? i'm confused lor. someone help me, k? in my studies. haiz.. oh, and the fact that pple from ats all went to ip, [issit all? well, almost ba] makes me real sad. well, maybe i'm not all that fine, huh?

so, wad do i wished for in the future? wad i need to do?

get nyaa bronze award done
train hard for volleyball
study hard and smart
at least pass the jlpt test
win friendy matches

well, the above were main objectives, others not mentioned are material needs? hahax.

And maybe the 1 last thing i could be glad about is i could continue with my jap! yea, and i gonna work hard, for i'm beginning to like it even more, after my experience at the japanese sec school, jap pri school summer festival. to think i get a DIPLOMA for the local immersion programme. haha, big name sia?! oh, i wish to keep in touch with the singapore exchange students[ and crys, its not only your yanliang, lolx] Ya, erm.. yall muz jia you for jap, k? if not go jap like me, chao maluating la, almost everything also speak in english..erps.

2005-11-12T14:12:00.000-08:00

Firstly, i'm free today. I really am! There's no mistake at all. so i'm here blogging, hahaz.

Well, i planned to write what happened to me lately in the earlier post, but i realised i did my team wrong suddenly, so ya, i wrote an apology letter? /post instead. Okay, so holidays aren't really holidays, i'm kept busy with volleyball tournaments, choral and drama nights, japanese local immersion programme, class gatherings... but well, u maight want to count it as holidays since i enjoy doing all these stuffs. Say i shall start with my 205'2005 class gathering at Warrent?? near CCK MRT station. it was fun. gambling Blackjack, drinking the sparkling wine, apple cidar[yummy yummy alcoholic drinks!], barbecuing, not done by me(heex, gome!), and playing 终极密码 [how many times am i force to drink that weird stuff?] its taste so funny la, mixture of champagne? sparkling wine, coke, melted butter, shrimp paste?*eew!, barbecued prawn head, marshmallow, fishball... Can u taste it now? after i'd said all the ingredients, lolx. Haha, then it was a round of phototaking session with us posing in the drizzle. Came back to the function room, gave out lighters and we played tai di and blackjack again. i won $2.10 at the end of the day. Quite a sum since the bet is $0.10 per game for me la, amount bet could be as high as $1, and i used to win $0.60 ++ only.. that night, slept with a bunch of lighters bangled on my hands, haha. Anyway, sorry crystal, yingrong, and JIA SIN! gomnasai! didn't went for your choral nite that day, esp jiasin, i promised to go, but i kinda didn't noe when's your performing day. 对不起！

Then, followed by friday. it was an eventful day! early in the morning, i was rushing to school in PROPER attire, the nyvb team was to meet up with the school management to discuss about disbanning of volleybll cca. And the main reason as to why vb is ask to close down was because there's lack of resources, space for us to train. So the final dicision was made, nyvb is to train outdoor at CCAB (maybe) and we were given 2 years to prove to the school management that we, nyvb, deserve a place in Nanyang CCA, and that's what we gonna do. We are going to get full attendance for every training sessions, gel up well with teammates, coach, and teacher-in-charge, not forgetting striving our very best to achieve good results, for ourselves, the team, coach, Nanyang, and our parents and supporters. Hmpm, NYVB, GANBATTE!! Volleyball makes our world go round. Next, we had a tiny little PT, and an open up session, we talked about congrui's bad habit? ya, but she's changing for the better. I can see it. CONGRUI, JIAYOU!! and we also talked about our vb chalet, so hwa chong taking the air-conditioned room.. we talked about our biking trip, and rumours at the chalet place, i'm so scared, i'd rather go play the piano, RIVER of Gundam Seed. well, at night, i went to support yumei, she acted as Jack of Titanic, chao shuai! lolx. Saw Zhong Han and Mingchong? and dunnoe who during intermission, we thought it was Davin at first. Anw, reached home late and slept late.

Saturday, 5th Nov, was our competition day with Bukit View. Samantha said we were slow in adapting to the court, as in atmosphere, opponents, dunnoe wad la, we took one match to adapt, so the score by then was 1:0 Bukit View. Nanyang VB has never got trashed by Bukit View and we were not going to break this record. the next round, we made noises on court, we heated up the atmosphere, and it really boast up our confidence level, second round we won 25:22 Nanyang! [heex, thx to my steady service]*bleex. Finally, Nanyang won the third set with a score of 25:17, Ying Rong did a great job with her 放球. i always feel it has along some kind of suspence.

Sunday, in our black jersey, we were going to compete against peicai. and we lost, 2:0, but the scores were rather close lah. then Yng Tyng's father gave Yingring, Congrui and me a ride to Causeway Point? lol, we irritated Yng Tyng a lot in the car. so, we searched for food in the shopping centre, we went up first, rather disbelieved that there's no food outlet, and we came to the basement where we finally found their food court. Yingrong wanted to eat Yoshinoya, so we ate there lor. saw Celeste. then, we stayed and chatted the team till 4 or issit 5 plus??

Ah, and so Monday came. The day which i'm most busy, like a two-headed snake. totemo iisogashiii desu! That day, i were to attend japanese local immersion programme, its the open ceremony, so i had no choice but to missed the match with Yuying. At the Singapore Japanese Secondary School( SJSS), we took loads of photos. And i finally saw how Crystal's Yanliang looked like, hahaz! The girls there are kawaii[according to Benjamin]. but seriously, i feel that they are very friendly and clever, as in i hardly spoke japanese to them, they had to speak to me in english. its hard on them, i know, sorry for my uselessness! Then Yingrong never sms me the results of the match, kept me worrying all day long. Right after school, Sabrina smsed me and said that if i don't reach Nanyang by 5pm, the teacher gonna cancel our skit. wah, i pia like siao la, took bus then thought no time, so got to take taxi. Called my sister to bring my costumes for me. I was getting impatient all over that time already lor. My sis, dad, dad's boss and japanese boss came to watch me. My teammates and jia sin too!! thanks for your roses! and shoutings and whistlings??erps, nvm. anw, i only found out later that zijie, kalun, jiayun, and darren? went too, kinda shocked. Ya, and YEAH! my skit turned out well, well done!!! fivers no:19-35, we did it, thanks everyone for your 落利演出！Regina cried, lolx.你演得最棒! it was a busy day, but at the end of it, i was happy, very erm.. ya happy, lolx! excluding the fact that i had to deal with my half-headed, full of hair wax hair. their really so stiff la, hahz.

well, this is really a long post, isn't it?
haha, but its not the end
Stay tuned! [Gag,sounds so much like DJ]

i wanna apologise to all

2005-11-10T11:42:00.000-08:00

Seriously, i feel i muz get my tagboard ready. Oh, and my blogskin. oh well, shall do it later.

Anw, i sure had a busy, tiring week from last sat[ 5th Nov] to yesterday[9th Nov]. okay, now i dun feel like writing animore. before i write this sentence, i was still happy and gay, but not now. Zijie made me feel so bad about myself. There's match today?!!! and wad's more! Sam's not there. the fact that i'm free and i didn't came for the match is just something so can't be forgiven. Bet they are playing now. “南洋女排jiayou! Nanyang Ace all the way.” now, i can oni help by praying hardly to God. like wad zijie said, wad's the point of having a hp when u dun on it? maybe i shld juz throw it away. Its Jurong again! the strong team that i had remembered wrongly. i thought we had won them last year, but's it was bukit panjang, not jurong! and now my teammates were competing against them, their having a hard time, me?, slack here, writing my blog.. who can be such a failure like me? Jia yin, i'm so sorry, and all my teammates, Wenjing,对不起！and Mr. Teo,NYGH management.. and others. i...seriously... GOMENASAI!!!! i nv went to attend sumthg regarding my passion. its my passion! and i only know how to cry.

Guys, i promised you see me tmr, in the court, playing my ultimate best, i will never let you all down again, i;m not going to let my passion die, NEVER!

2005-11-02T00:17:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, welcum to my brand new blog! hahaz.
and pple, pls link and tag me, kies? *

Well, Dec hols is here again! and hear me exclaim "how time flies!" i still rmb asking my frens about osmosizing for this year's science exams syllabus when it was learnt back when i was in sec 1? then i rmb how not active i am in class last year compared to this year. Right now, i'm a member of Long John Clan lead by May Tan [eh, 姓 Tan 的, i see u get first next yr ah!] aka 罐头, yep! pple under this clan have their names all end with 头, i.e 芋头, 码头, 奶头（erps) hahaz, it was very fun! i'm also a manager of Gigi ! aka 经纪人, and have my name under the big family tree, together with Sophia as "Maria"maid, Dina, Eve.T, Eve .K, Germ, and many more, sry i missed u out here! And i proudly present to all, myself, also known as small di2,the diamond two, one of the 四大天王 !! hahaz! And to all aunties( u noe urselves), Uncle will miss u all, k? muz cum to my sec 3 class and visit me! i have* good stuff [winks] specially reserve for u! hahaz. i wanna cry now. Hey, calling all 2 fivers, u rock, realli u do! i luv u all. my god, i'm getting sentimental all over now. Thx for all the precious memoriez, i will never forget the times i am recognized as a fiver, model class for 2005.(wow, we muz be truly somethg to get this award, rite?)

what if i create a poem now, hahaha
let's see how my 灵感 works...
当我又跨过一年，
与大伙说再见，
再和陌生人结友，
要好的伙伴们，
秉住欲落下的泪，
承住心中不舍，
其实我已很感动，
能在别离之际，
见大家哽咽话语，
无奈奔向前程，
这些就已足够了。。。